I am just going to try lying to myself all of the time
I am seeing a doctor, we are running tests, I am getting taken care of.
I'm going to try just telling myself my pain isn't real and my brain is making it up. I am going to see if that helps. It's not like I am fully ignoring it and not seeing a doctor. I am getting symptoms evaluated. Radical ignoring is what I'll do while my doctor does the rest. I'm going to gaslight the shit out of myself.
I'll update!