u/Negative_Paint_2543

I want friends too like talk with everyday, cause I’m lowkey not a busy person, but like genuinely, yk People to call with, message everyday, during lunch when i gotta sit alone because I’m the new kid at school. I have a-lot of hobbies like I am a dj, I’m working to produce music and songs, i have written raps, i write poetry, reading poetry, i ski when we go, i also love urbexing or abandoned building exploring, i collect rocks, i go on a large amount of walks per day, I do entymology so bug pinning or bug preservation, drawing or just creating stuff. I like weird stuff like ghosts, spirits, spirituality stuff like manifesting and other stuff, morbid documentaries, indie horror films, horror films in general.

Some unique things bout me are I am adopted, Im black adopted by white parents which idk i kinda thought was cool. I am on my final year of highschool. I

Im Eve and Im super bored i want people who can call, text whatever, I try not to be dry if u arent, i have a million hobbies ill name em all, astrophotography, star gazing, entymology or bug pinning, writing poetry, reading poetry, rap, listening to music (rap, pop, digicore, brazilian, latin rap, latin pop,), (currently learning to produce music), being in nature, skiing, snorkeling, taking walks, urban exploring, graffiti, drawing and arts and crafts, im also a dj and im working to start producing music, im on my senior year and im transferring so im starting senior year at a new school. I also like to do makeup art, and I like to collect rocks actually my proudest one is the meteor i have, i do have adhd. I am adopted and i havent had to many friends all my life so id love someone to talk to otp, facetime, text whatever. Im just bored and yk im more motivated when i have a friend there with me. Also i posted this on some other subreddits because i truly am having trouble finding long term friends, so thats why, but really im hoping to find more poeple to talk to long term, and who won’t ghost. Also random fact but I make lists to an extreme level like i will make lists just for the simplest things random useless fact lol and I love unicorns.

Im Eve and Im super bored i want people who can call, text whatever, I try not to be dry if u arent, i have a million hobbies ill name em all, astrophotography, star gazing, entymology or bug pinning, writing poetry, reading poetry, rap, listening to music (rap, pop, digicore, brazilian, latin rap, latin pop,), taking walks, urban exploring, graffiti, drawing and arts and crafts, im also a dj and im working to start producing music, im on my senior year and im transferring so im starting senior year at a new school. I also like to do makeup art, i do have adhd and etc. I am adopted and i havent had to many friends all my life so id love someone to talk to otp, facetime, text whatever. Im just bored and yk im more motivated when i have a friend there with me.

So my dad, I don’t think is an alcoholic because the fact that he doesn’t like have an issue with drinking that I know of but then again I am only 17 so I don’t see it when he goes out without me or anything. My dad he has drank around me and he like is laughing and joking with me its fun. The issue is multiple times when my dad has come home after being out with this friend of his (who is a great person, and I’ve met and we’ve been out with before I consider this guy family) my dad he gets angry about like stuff that he wouldn’t care about, or he gets angry about something because he forgets another detail about the thing he got mad about, but its only at me, like my brother does the same thing and me and my brother are close in age, and my parents aren’t ones to play favorites or nothing, but he like dislikes me, and like he isn’t drunk enough that he can’t drive himself home, but he is enough to sometimes stumble a little and his words, so you can tell he’s been drinking. I just feel like this has happened multiple times, and it’s only with me, so idk if he sees me differently when under the influence like that, or like if im just overthinking. I kinda feel stupid typing this but I don’t know. If anyone can help or has had this issue i could use some reassurance.

Or like being caught being interested or like for example im 17 and like i went to this hiphop camp for all ages theres mostly 12 year olds and like nobody in highschool as of rn, now everybodu in here is either forced to come or there parents signed them up because there young and like yk interested, im genuinely interested in this and it just feels like embarrassing to take notes on it cause everyone else takes this class as a joke so i just kinda back out. I understand there younger but its been like this all of my years of schooling even when Im with poepl e who are in there 20s. Its like anytime im in a class and i get excited about a project i hide it cause everybody else is like laughing about how stupid this is or how there gonna put in no effort.

I love astrophotography but normally my brothers here to go with me and I’m 17 so nobody takes it seriously but I’m genuinely serious I don’t know what to do, I need to go outside tho, i really want to, but this fear, like every-time i calm down i think of every bad possible thing that could happen. So if anyone can help, please anything would be great, idek what to do anymore everyone treats it like a joke, but even someone to text or something with me while I’m walking outside would make me feel less alone, I hate doing it alone. I just wish i wasn’t so alone all of my friends aren’t afraid and i feel like a genuine baby. I just idk I’m so afraid of what could be out there. I thought it was minor until i started crying, pacing, shaking.

I love astrophotography but normally my brothers here to go with me and I’m 17 so it sounds immature but I’m genuinely serious I don’t know what to do, I need to go outside tho, i really want to, but this fear, like every-time i calm down i think of every bad possible thing that could happen. So if anyone can help, please anything would be great, it sounds dumb, but even someone to text or something with me while I’m walking outside, I hate doing it alone. I just wish i wasn’t so alone all of my friends aren’t afraid and i feel like a genuine baby.

I feel so out of place everywhere and when i get around black poeple I feel like out of place I dont look like they do at all or talk how they do, and Im not taken seriously by other african americans and no one wants to help me figure it out. Everyone is just laughing at me or like sayjng idk whats up like idk how it be to be black. Ive moved around schools and stuff alot so I have no main crew like everyone else does. Im tired of it because Im tired of when poeple look at me weird cause of how I am, and im tired of saying " well I was born in a white family" as my excuse. I feel like im constantly cosplaying, even when I am how I wanna be no one accepts that. Im tired of feeling out of place I have no home or place for me. I mean im literally transferring schools for my senior year which is this upcoming year. So its not like I have a main group of friends i move around but idek how people make friends and when i ask they say oh well just from school or when they were little they met them but ion have that. Im tired of like not knowing whats up, like nobody is helping me either.

Im eve, I love music, and I am a DJ, I also wanna make music too, which I am learning rn, producing beats and rapping. I also like to write poetry, I love science like physics, electrical engineering, space, geology, biology. I also do bug pinning or etymology, so I like to preserve dead bugs. I love urbexing and like graffiti art. I also like to ski when we go to the mountains. I like to watch youtube like Joe Bartolozzi. I like to do my makeup I wish I was better at it tho lowkey. I also like to draw, and make art that way. Im looking for friends to call with, text with, yk hangout otp, get to know eachother, someone who isn’t dry, and won’t just ghost me. So hmu if u interested.

Now I am a rap artist but I really like music in general so I have been studying a-lot of different things in music theory, mixing and mastering allat stuff, and I need help. I know making melodies isn’t formula based but I am struggling, People keep telling me just put stuff together throw random notes together but thats a easy way to get out of key and I wanna make really good pieces. I understand music theory, but like I am struggling with the melody part, I know intervals, chords, chord progressions, circle of fifths, all of that.
If your gonna tell me to go on youtube, or a website, or read this book, well see I’ve tried that, and I still am confused, I really could use someone to help me like a teacher almost, where I can ask questions and such, and be able to understand it better. If anyone would be willing to help i’d greatly appreciate it.

My name is eve, and I am a dj, music prod in the making and rapper in the making, I love to write poetry and lyrics, I often struggle with getting motivation to do so though. I love music through all types, rap, trap, underground, nu metal, soft rock, pop, brazilian, dembow, latin pop, reggae, old school hiphop. Im adopted, and I love to draw, especially the graffiti style. I love to explore abandoned buildings, and creepy morbid stuff. I also love bug pinning or entymology, and like those oddities things like taxidermy, bug preservation, very gothic things. Im looking for friends who aren’t boring or dry, wanna call and text, do like fun stuff together on the phone, help me with my art, play roblox or troll yk. I just wish I had a friend to hangout with yk.

I wanna treasure hunt my backyard, my house was built by my now neighbors in the 1950s, and it also has 6 acres, and a large ravine/ dried up creek bed where People are known for throwing stuff in. I know that it used to be used for farmland, and if you go deep in the woods, you can find this concrete pole where farmers would let livestock come and get water. I have ventured down there, and found rusty farm equipment, but nothing like farther back, I’ve dug and found clay ceramic tiles, from like a possible kitchen. I really wanna find old bottles, i have dug but the thing is a-lot of People dump there like today so i find like pretty recent bottles and trash, and I usually after digging deeper haven’t found any luck when i dig lower than the modern trash is dumped.

Drop like your creative process, and like how u make beats down below, I’m lowkey interested.

I make music and I am a DJ right and not everyone has a family full of musicians yk, and Im adopted so all my family history like I don’t actually know. I try to make beats but I have none to show because Im usually so unmotivated, but when Im not I feel like I need help someone to give me input yk someone to mentor be like that big sister I never had, I wish I had that with a-lot of things, like we do stupid stuff together on call, and someone to help me with my writing, music and allat, but we also do fun stuff yk like play Roblox, troll on Omegle, get stoned, stuff like that. I have none friends or help in this, and it really sucks im tired of Poeple being mean on here telling me to just watch youtube because i don’t learn that way it hasn’t helped I like know music theory but I just need the reassurance of someone guiding me yk. I also don’t live in a very hiphop like culture area so I can’t really go to my city because we don’t have events like that ya know. I just wish I had someone else who can be a friend that I can help too, with things, but also like we do fun stuff together on call, because im so lonely, and i don’t wanna spend my entire summer not making music, and just being alone. I understand I could just post my beats for feedback but when I need help with specific things that doesn’t work, and Ive gone to the music servers only to be ignored, I need help, and I just need guidance, with alot of stuff yk. I never had like an older sister to help me, my mom is white and im black so like yk that girly stuff moms and daughters do never really clicked, cause I’m adopted and were just so different. I know it sounds dumb, but yeah. I don’t just want someone who can help me either yk i want it to be two sided friendship yk. I also just never really felt like my family was my family when. I talk to my biological family I always felt more like this is who I come from. I never like felt that way about my adoptive family and I always feel bad about it but its true.

I am kinda popular loner i have been all of school, like last year I got nominated for homecoming princess by my entire class, but I don’t really have a distinct friendgroup. I go to parties but thats because I know People, and I also am a DJ, so I am well known like that, but I don’t have like a friend yk to do stupid stuff with every once in awhile yk, someone to play roblox with, or talk to about my boyfriend, or call whenever were both bored, or making like a summer bucket list together yk stuff like that. Idk everybody like vibes with me, but like no one reallyy knows anything else besides the surface level stuff yk, Stuff besides im at parties weekly, im a dj, and I write lyrics/poems.

I make beats, write lyrics like raps, and im a DJ. I am looking for a mentor who also is good with that, that can yk monitor me, and help me with this, and watch and give input ya know.

Firstly whats everyones like lyric writing method, I am just curious since I am struggling with where to start, like I have plenty of stuff to rap about but I don’t know how to execute it in a non cringe way, or a way I want it to sound. I also need help coming up with catchy choruses without it sounding like generic or like yk basic, like I feel like theres somethings that just sound like I’m not trying specifically with the chorus cause its just the lyrics like riding the beat if that makes sense, or i come up with a chorus where the lyrics like are in the same like sound as the melody or the catchy part of the beat itself.

I understand there isn’t just one way to make melodies, but i really need help. Im very formula oriented so like I am struggling with this. I have seen poeple make them from chord progressions too. But idk. Any help, or maybe methods you guys have would be appreciated.