Do you get a gut feeling of you not having any of the good stuff on happy books but can see yourself all around on sad and horror books? I prefer to read horror mm romance because of this!
so, i call myself somewhat of a genderfluid, just because I'm no sure yet. i just have a lot of dysphoria with everything masculine about my body, everything. i hate it. later this year i will try laser facial hair removal. but the problem is I'm losing my hair, I don't know if it's normal hair loss, or severe. I don't have a big receding hairline, it just got thinner and less dense, now i can see my scalp, it's weird. I have curly hair and I've seen people say curls when thinning leave the scalp more open, but I just feel like i would lose my mind losing my hair, is literally the only thing that gives me gender euphoria, it is the only thing i can do to myself on a daily basis to feel me. I hate this. i just wish i was born a girl
you can very well tell is a beginner bookshelf. 3 or 4 books are old ones.
so Titus is a red. cool. good plot twist. I understand Darrow being sad, ofc. but being like "hes my brother. i hope he forgives me"?? Darrow, he raped innocent girls, is not bc he saw shit that he can rape innocent people buddy. i think Darrow will be more morally gray than I thought
hopefully im finishig the first book today!
So, I'm writing my first book. It is an mm romance that involves reincarnations and love through different lives. The premise is those two boys fall so hard for each other that they need to live again as lovers, but the afterlife here (is purely fantasy, not religion-related at all) prohibits lovers from meeting again on Earth, so they are always fighting against this afterlife realm, Realm of Forge, full of twist secrets and ethereal ways to do things.
MC1 is almost a new-born soul, with few lifes. Emotions flow deeper.
MC2 is an old-born soul, created to be a warrior for the Realm, who has only lived miserable, painful lives until meeting MC1.
The realm forged MC2 to be a warrior for them, but now he only wants to love MC1
The passing to be born on Earth is through a river, and they managed to go together. The souls that go together will meet in life. But MC2 has a karma that in his next life, he will die young. As they meet again and are inseparable, when MC2 dies in a car crash, MC1 is with him and dies too, but he should not. That death was not in his destiny.
The 1st of many twists is that because of this death being out of destiny, MC1's soul is deeply hurt in a way that it should not be, MC2 feels guilty, and the Realm has no way to guarantee the MC1 soul will ever be healed.
Can he love the soul that broke his forever? Can he be fixed by ethereal love? Will the Realm allow those questions to be answered after making MC2 live hell on earth several times to be a strong soul, a future warrior; and not a careful lover?
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I really want to hear a feedback from this. I try not to talk too much, because I'm messy. What do you guys think of it so far? And also, every time they live on Earth, there will be like 50 to 80 pages of that lifetime. Is that too much? Should the focus always be on the Realm and not spend 80 pages on one lifetime? Please, and thank you for the time!
(If this is not the correct way to post this, I will gladly do it the right way)
i never read Captive Prince, which is crazy because I was all about fanfics in my teens. now im dying to read it, but it's taking forever to come from the mail...
i know the basic synopses, BUT how would y'all describe this story to me? how bad will it hurt? is there a lot of smut? (no spoilers plss)
thats me. and i think it can go both ways, like, a guy may think is "fun" the inexperience part. and others can be very bothered by it. what do you think is the more usual reaction?
im facing my 1st ever book hangover, so deep that i feel numb and a bit depressed ever since finishing {Don't Let The Forest In by C.G. Drews}
is not even a super sad book, but i got very attached to the characters cause i could see a lot of myself in them. the author's writing style felt unique, but no trying to be, it was easy to read and still unique. the way they desperate one for another, the loneliness in between, the ambiguous ending that could be terribly sad or somehow happy. me been unable to believe in the super happy ending theory. i didn't even knew what book hang over was a couple days ago omg i feel miserable truly truly, why am i questioning my whole life because of a book???
okay so i need help finding a book and i'm struggling to explain what i want lol
basically: high school bully romance where BOTH of them are obsessed with each other. not just the bully being weirdly fixated on the small weird guy. i want the bullied to be just as gone for the bully. they're both down bad, they just show it differently
can be dark or more less soft. i just want that "i shouldn't be in love with him" energy! any recs??
(not 90% smut pls)
okay so i need help finding a book and i'm struggling to explain what i want lol
basically: high school bully romance where BOTH of them are obsessed with each other. not just the bully being weirdly fixated on the small weird guy. i want the bullied to be just as gone for the bully. they're both down bad, they just show it differently
can be dark or more less soft. i just want that "i shouldn't be in love with him" energy! any recs??
(not 90% smut pls)
okay so i need help finding a book and i'm struggling to explain what i want lol
basically: high school bully romance where BOTH of them are obsessed with each other. not just the bully being weirdly fixated on the small weird guy. i want the bullied to be just as gone for the bully. they're both down bad, they just show it differently
can be dark or more less soft. i just want that "i shouldn't be in love with him" energy! any recs??
(not 90% smut pls)
im just being fkn alone my entire life. im 'gay' (i like men), not remotely sure about my own gender. im sociable, im not anti social, maybe thats why it sucks to be so alone. i like people, i like humans! i love to talk to people, to listen them! must be a twisted joke from destiny to be like this.
i know i dont get the best look on the world or at any room, but i aint ugly, im mid normal looking, and people like me, jokes and soft talks, but never get to develop a strong friendship, even less a relationship. i just dont know more what to do, where to go, with who to talk. the idea of going out alone to a bar makes me wanna explode from shyness. im just lost and actually, terrified, that i will be alone forever...
im just being fkn alone my entire life. im 'gay' (i like men), not remotely sure about my own gender. im sociable, im not anti social, maybe thats why it sucks to be so alone. i like people, i like humans! i love to talk to people, to listen them! must be a twisted joke from destiny to be like this.
i know i dont get the best look on the world or at any room, but i aint ugly, im mid normal looking, and people like me, jokes and soft talks, but never get to develop a strong friendship, even less a relationship. i just dont know more what to do, where to go, with who to talk. the idea of going out alone to a bar makes me wanna explode from shyness. im just lost and actually, terrified, that i will be alone forever...
the ambiguous and open ending...
i think Andrew killed Thomas, and will die soon from his wounds, there was a lot of blood. i also think he hallucinated Thomas speaking at the end, because he cant grieve, so he hallucinates. but i cannot, in any circumstance, believe that he killed Thomas for nothing, and the monsters weren't real too (this would destroy me). but, i got a question... do y'all think the forest was a Dove's curse? i think it was. i think she cursed them because she was in love with Thomas, Thomas said they kissed so... i think Dove was the reason behind it all.
I JUST OVERALL LOVE THEM *crying*
i... what?
just so y'all know how much this book touched me, i dreamt of wickwood academy last night. i cried when the idea of Thomas being a hallucination appears. i'm sad that the end is not a happy ending (but it can be)... my head is hurting rn from all the theories i just read and i truly prefer to believe that what i read was real! it have to be REAL!
Dove died. Andrew hallucinated her because he couldn't deal with it, he couldn't grieve her.
Thomas was real. the monsters were real. i prefer them to be eaten alive by monster them to Thomas not be real all this time.
Andrew is the boy who fought monster for Thomas, but would explode in shame if needing to ask somebody on class to borrow him an eraser, and i LOVE that! people that cannot love without obsession, understand those types of things beautifully, and im one of those.
the ambiguous and open ending...
i think Andrew killed Thomas, and will die soon from his wounds, there was a lot of blood. i also think he hallucinated Thomas speaking at the end, because he cant grieve, so he hallucinates. but i cannot, in any circumstance, believe that he killed Thomas for nothing, and the monsters weren't real too (this would destroy me). but, i got a question... do y'all think the forest was a Dove's curse? i think it was. i think she cursed them because she was in love with Thomas, Thomas said they kissed so... i think Dove was the reason behind it all.
I JUST OVERALL LOVE THEM *crying*
i... what?
just so y'all know how much this book touched me, i dreamt of wickwood academy last night. i cried when the idea of Thomas being a hallucination appears. i'm sad that the end is not a happy ending (but it can be)... my head is hurting rn from all the theories i just read and i truly prefer to believe that what i read was real! it have to be REAL!
Dove died. Andrew hallucinated her because he couldn't deal with it, he couldn't grieve her.
Thomas was real. the monsters were real. i prefer them to be eaten alive by monster them to Thomas not be real all this time.
Andrew is the boy who fought monster for Thomas, but would explode in shame if needing to ask somebody on class to borrow him an eraser, and i LOVE that! people that cannot love without obsession, understand those types of things beautifully, and im one of those.
the ambiguous and open ending...
i think Andrew killed Thomas, and will die soon from his wounds, there was a lot of blood. i also think he hallucinated Thomas speaking at the end, because he cant grieve, so he hallucinates. but i cannot, in any circumstance, believe that he killed Thomas for nothing, and the monsters weren't real too (this would destroy me). but, i got a question... do y'all think the forest was a Dove's curse? i think it was. i think she cursed them because she was in love with Thomas, Thomas said they kissed so... i think Dove was the reason behind it all.
I JUST OVERALL LOVE THEM *crying*
I crave for sad books with some twisted dark thing stopping them to be together, even though it hurts my heart. why are we like this???
It stops me from reading a lot more, because I got too attached and mourn them after it ends.
im about page 200 and the idea of Andrew loosing Thomas to a girl is making me so saaad! I know the end will probably end with death to one of them (PLEASE no spoilers), but it always make me feel sooo miserable when losing a boy to a girl is a possibility in books (real life is another reddit topic right? lol)
I was wondering... what if Part II were structured differently?
It would be very different (and probably confusing) but what if?