u/No-Society-6525

My original plan was to drive my car into the nearby lake, and then naturally drown. However, realizing that having a defib meant it would be a much more agonizing death. With that noted, it had to be instant.

My two biggest contenders would be falling to my death or an instant gunshot to the heart. I'm leaning more towards falling since it's much easier to do discreetly when you live in a mountainous area. I also own no firearms whatsoever, but a clean record and good behavior should fix that.

October 28th, 12:00 AM. No help needed, and no one will have to bother with my manchild problems anymore. Don't forget the fireworks.

I know that my death will be a grand celebration, but no matter where I post trying to justify this, it always ends up getting full of "hopeful" comments that are just spewing out the usual stuff. I bet they want me to delay it again and only make things worse for most of the people around me.

Had to postpone my death to October

I unfortunately can't fulfill my promise to everyone on my death date on July 5th because of external events that I have to attend. I want to apologize to those that were waiting for me to be dead that day. I was hoping to go out quietly, but there are too many eyes on me right now.

I'll post the new Death Date soon.

Had to postpone my death until October.

I unfortunately can't fulfill my promise to everyone on my death date on July 5th because of external events that I have to attend. I want to apologize to those that were waiting for me to be dead that day. I was hoping to go out quietly, but there are too many eyes on me right now.

I'll post the new Death Date soon.

I've been dealing with the addiction since I was a young teen. Tried many times over the years, but was always dragged back into it. I look like an unlovable manchild anyway and it's not like I'll get any relationships anytime soon. To keep the support for Nofap, I'll be going for the heart of the problem and taking my own life on July 5th.

I know you've been waiting for me to die for months, but now y'all can relax knowing it's only a week or two away. Best of luck to you all.

I'm an athlete for Team NH, and I wanted to spread the word of the event to as many people as possible! It would be awesome for those back home to watch us play!

I will make one thing clear before I go on about this one; I'm still going to end my life for the same reasons I already mentioned. All I'm doing is addressing those that believe I "deserve love and appreciation" when I can absolutely prove that's not the case.

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"You should seek professional help, a friend or a family member. Call 988, and they will help you."

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First off, I currently do not have any connections to friends, and that if I did would only make things worse. As for family, I know that parents wouldn't fully understand what their child is going through, and would only make things worse. It would make them worry, and I'll end up being seen as incapable of living a normal life. As for therapy, either it would alert the parents, throw me into a mental hospital without care or both. Lastly, 988 is just 911 in disguise, and you could be charged with a crime for saying the "wrong things" which is why I don't trust it.

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"You must have some kind of hobby/community that you enjoy!"

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I used to be part of a community, but it would usually end up being controversial and full of hate and drama, or I'd be the reason why no one likes it. When I was in the 40k hobby, all I did was complain and everyone wanted me dead. If I were to join any other community, it would end up getting hated on for just me being there because of this.

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- Porn Addiction in General

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From what I could find, there isn't exactly a solid solution for getting rid of porn addiction, and any that claim to have one is under a subscription price tag, which is obviously a scam. One person stated that people with porn addiction can get a relationship. Although this is true, they are also more likely to cheat than a normal person, and I shouldn't really have to explain why. Even if I disregarded all that, I look like a homeless perverted hermit with childish ambitions, which no one likes at all.

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Extra Note: Society as a Whole

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I always try to avoid a political reason, but I'll at least address it once; I don't think there's any hope for me and my generation in the long term. More and more stuff was added and removed to make it harder for me to live a normal life. Add that with hatred towards others and violence for some "agenda" had only made it worse.

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Willing to listen to anyone that disagrees, but please bring actual proof instead of the fake stuff. Death date stays on July 5th by a bridge.

I will make one thing clear before I go on about this one; I'm still going to end my life for the same reasons I already mentioned. All I'm doing is addressing those that believe I "deserve love and appreciation" when I can absolutely prove that's not the case.

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"You should seek professional help, a friend or a family member. Call 988, and they will help you."

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First off, I currently do not have any connections to friends, and that if I did would only make things worse. As for family, I know that parents wouldn't fully understand what their child is going through, and would only make things worse. It would make them worry, and I'll end up being seen as incapable of living a normal life. As for therapy, either it would alert the parents, throw me into a mental hospital without care or both. Lastly, 988 is just 911 in disguise, and you could be charged with a crime for saying the "wrong things" which is why I don't trust it.

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"You must have some kind of hobby/community that you enjoy!"

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I used to be part of a community, but it would usually end up being controversial and full of hate and drama, or I'd be the reason why no one likes it. When I was in the 40k hobby, all I did was complain and everyone wanted me dead. If I were to join any other community, it would end up getting hated on for just me being there because of this.

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- Porn Addiction in General

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From what I could find, there isn't exactly a solid solution for getting rid of porn addiction, and any that claim to have one is under a subscription price tag, which is obviously a scam. One person stated that people with porn addiction can get a relationship. Although this is true, they are also more likely to cheat than a normal person, and I shouldn't really have to explain why. Even if I disregarded all that, I look like a homeless perverted hermit with childish ambitions, which no one likes at all.

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Extra Note: Society as a Whole

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I always try to avoid a political reason, but I'll at least address it once; I don't think there's any hope for me and my generation in the long term. More and more stuff was added and removed to make it harder for me to live a normal life. Add that with hatred towards others and violence for some "agenda" had only made it worse.

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Willing to listen to anyone that disagrees, but please bring actual proof instead of the fake stuff. Death date stays on July 5th by a bridge.

Too long have I been an autistic manchild to so many people and being an absolute burden to society. No more shall I lose to my anger and hurt others over worthless things and cast off the weight stopping the world from solving its problems. I am not loved, and everyone will love my passing with fireworks in the sky!

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I wish it wasn't this way, but I 100% understand why I have to go through with it. I've been planning this for months, and I might as well commit to it!