u/No555Bee

About a year ago, I (20F) had a reading done on my past lives and spiritual gifts. The reader had mentioned that I am psychic and it is something I could tap more into. I didn’t think much of it, but I did verify other aspects of their reading with neutral third - parties, so I knew that there had to be truth to part of their reading, at the least.

So I had just started my new retail job with 5 other girls this past week and we naturally formed a friend group while learning our roles across our departments. We would go to training “class” together, then lunch, then go our separate ways until the following day.

Important note — this one girl, “Ariana,” and I have been making “awkward eye contact” since the beginning, I feel like I have caught her eyes on me several times and she has a blank face every time. She doesn’t look away before I do. But I am AUDHD, so I understand RBF and how sometimes it just happens.

So all was well, but yesterday… During our training class, Ariana said something that made me see her differently. It went along with the conversation, wasn’t directed towards me, but when she said this I could immediately feel this shift and began feeling uncomfortable and self-conscious.

But I told myself that I was projecting onto them how I was concerned with them potentially judging me, so I was really judging them. So I tried my best to internally drop it, and I performed actions to feel better about her. (Holding the door open for her, acknowledging her part in conversation, accepting food from her etc)

I sat next to her at lunch because I didn’t have any other seat at the table available. I just felt a little uneasy but felt I mended it towards the end, she asked me to throw her leftovers away (and I was closer so I genuinely didn’t mind)

Then we go to our own floors, and about 25 minutes later all of the new hires are called up to this one department upstairs. I get there and see Ariana among a few girls — turns out we’re there to put back clothes that customers tried on.

So I get to doing that and I start slowly shifting from this calm enjoyable state, to this state of utter anxiety. It has been SO long since I have had such a deep pit in my stomach, and it felt very large and heavy. I thought it could be anxiety from not being able to text this one person, but that didn’t make sense because I had been feeling secure the whole rest of the time I had been working the past week.

So I thought maybe I’m just uncomfortable around the associates in the department I’m not familiar with. (But I hadn’t been that way with other associates this past week)

I try grounding myself, breathwork, focusing on physically feeling the anxiety, and it would just not budge.

Ariana and I then go put some empty carts away, and I mention how I’m feeling anxious and I just don’t know what it is. She’s basically like “yeah, it’s overstimulating! I’m going to the bathroom to sit down for a minute” So she goes, and I go back to the manager of the dept and she tells me to start doing the new inventory.

So I walk over and I see “Teresa” working alone. I still can’t shake this feeling so I confide in her, and she tells me that she feels it too. That she feels a dark energy in this upper side of the store, and potentially within the friend group as well. I agreed - this side of the store felt completely energetically different than the other side of the same level/floor. I mention how I feel uncomfortable around Ariana and Teresa agrees, and says she feels a darkness within Ariana.

That resonated with me because it was like putting words to how I was feeling — It was like Ariana’s aura and presence was intrusive. We then agree that it’s more than that, it’s also the competitive nature of this store and the associates that give the evil eye and wish ill upon one another that we’re feeling. And that just feels right to me — the other associates I was helping, when they’d look at me, I wouldn’t feel friendliness or compassion. I would feel like I’m in enemy territory, even though their faces were more blank. I felt it through their eyes.

Teresa and I also agreed on the energies of all the other girls and I felt this surprising comradery with her. It was like she was picking up on all the exact things I was. I said a prayer over us and felt a more protective presence fill the break room. We went back to the floor and my manager saw me, so he pulled me back to my floor, but before I left, her and I exclaimed “return to sender, so mote it be!”

I continued saying that as I started leaving. The other manager and associate watched me go, I believe unexpectedly. I said it under my breath. As I was leaving that radius, I started feeling lighter. No more anxiety. I went downstairs to my dept and soon, my anxiety was quickly completely gone.

I do feel like this is my intuition, but could it be more than that? Could it really be clairsentience?
TIA for reading and responding, blessed be

About a year ago, I (20F) had a reading done on my past lives and spiritual gifts. The reader had mentioned that I am psychic and it is something I could tap more into. I didn’t think much of it, but I did verify other aspects of their reading with neutral third - parties, so I knew that there had to be truth to part of their reading, at the least.

So I had just started my new retail job with 5 other girls this past week and we naturally formed a friend group while learning our roles across our departments. We would go to training “class” together, then lunch, then go our separate ways until the following day.

Important note — this one girl, “Ariana,” and I have been making “awkward eye contact” since the beginning, I feel like I have caught her eyes on me several times and she has a blank face every time. She doesn’t look away before I do. But I am AUDHD, so I understand RBF and how sometimes it just happens.

So all was well, but yesterday… During our training class, Ariana said something that made me see her differently. It went along with the conversation, wasn’t directed towards me, but when she said this I could immediately feel this shift and began feeling uncomfortable and self-conscious.

But I told myself that I was projecting onto them how I was concerned with them potentially judging me, so I was really judging them. So I tried my best to internally drop it, and I performed actions to feel better about her. (Holding the door open for her, acknowledging her part in conversation, accepting food from her etc)

I sat next to her at lunch because I didn’t have any other seat at the table available. I just felt a little uneasy but felt I mended it towards the end, she asked me to throw her leftovers away (and I was closer so I genuinely didn’t mind)

Then we go to our own floors, and about 25 minutes later all of the new hires are called up to this one department upstairs. I get there and see Ariana among a few girls — turns out we’re there to put back clothes that customers tried on.

So I get to doing that and I start slowly shifting from this calm enjoyable state, to this state of utter anxiety. It has been SO long since I have had such a deep pit in my stomach, and it felt very large and heavy. I thought it could be anxiety from not being able to text this one person, but that didn’t make sense because I had been feeling secure the whole rest of the time I had been working the past week.

So I thought maybe I’m just uncomfortable around the associates in the department I’m not familiar with. (But I hadn’t been that way with other associates this past week)

I try grounding myself, breathwork, focusing on physically feeling the anxiety, and it would just not budge.

Ariana and I then go put some empty carts away, and I mention how I’m feeling anxious and I just don’t know what it is. She’s basically like “yeah, it’s overstimulating! I’m going to the bathroom to sit down for a minute” So she goes, and I go back to the manager of the dept and she tells me to start doing the new inventory.

So I walk over and I see “Teresa” working alone. I still can’t shake this feeling so I confide in her, and she tells me that she feels it too. That she feels a dark energy in this upper side of the store, and potentially within the friend group as well. I agreed - this side of the store felt completely energetically different than the other side of the same level/floor. I mention how I feel uncomfortable around Ariana and Teresa agrees, and says she feels a darkness within Ariana.

That resonated with me because it was like putting words to how I was feeling — It was like Ariana’s aura and presence was intrusive. We then agree that it’s more than that, it’s also the competitive nature of this store and the associates that give the evil eye and wish ill upon one another that we’re feeling. And that just feels right to me — the other associates I was helping, when they’d look at me, I wouldn’t feel friendliness or compassion. I would feel like I’m in enemy territory, even though their faces were more blank. I felt it through their eyes.

Teresa and I also agreed on the energies of all the other girls and I felt this surprising comradery with her. It was like she was picking up on all the exact things I was. I said a prayer over us and felt a more protective presence fill the break room. We went back to the floor and my manager saw me, so he pulled me back to my floor, but before I left, her and I exclaimed “return to sender, so mote it be!”

I continued saying that as I started leaving. The other manager and associate watched me go, I believe unexpectedly. I said it under my breath. As I was leaving that radius, I started feeling lighter. No more anxiety. I went downstairs to my dept and soon, my anxiety was quickly completely gone.

I do feel like this is my intuition, but could it be more than that? Could it really be clairsentience?
TIA for reading and responding, blessed be