u/Ok_Stay_2303

Is it worth to start out on Amazon? I’m new to this, and in a big city. I want to focus on the rent-safe items market.

Does anyone relate. I feel like i've had so many bad friendships because I was super BPDing out on them, so they all left/picked someone else and now i'm more stable but i'm scared to make and keep friends

Like I notice myself doing it and i’m just wondering if it’s a thing with BPD. Like i’m sick of feeling like i’m always getting left and being hurt so I hurt people back when they leave

You may relate, u may not, but I hate being different people. I’m someone when i’m depressed, someone else when i’m manic, 2 people when i’m rapid cycling and someone else when i’m stable again. I hate it, im sad it cost me so much. The inability to trust myself because I didn’t know who i’d be in a few days was hard. I saw myself become someone else.

Like i feel like you don’t get to see people often enough to even establish friendships at this school

I feel like I lost my academic edge and more than anything I want it back. School used to be thrilling until my first manic episode hit and thrills became danger. I’m starting Lamotrigine soon and i’m hoping it can help me get back on track. Does anyone have any experience with this?

So for context, i’m someone who has been in a lot of toxic connections. A big thing for me is being gaslit. I’ve learned a lot from these connections and now i’m quick to cut off friends if they show a hint of twisting the narrative or shifting accountability unfairly onto me. I’ve ended about 10 friendships that I loved and cared for because of this. Am I the asshole?

I’m looking for new friends, hit me up!
-sincerely a 20 year old woman from downtown

I’ve been missing a few old friends from back in the day and i’m not sure how to reach out. What are your stories and experiences with reconnecting with old friends?

Ok so to set the scene, there’s a trio, me and these two girls. Days and I flirt a lot and eventually we catch feelings and start dating. A week in (1 year anniversary of me and my ex’s break up) I notice feelings for my ex resurfacing, so I tell her and end things. She told me if I reached out, she’d block me, so naturally, I didn’t. I communicated clearly that I was going to miss and her and that i’d respect her wishes. Two weeks later, I hear from our mutual friend that she’s been really hurt by me and that shes wanting me to reach out. She’s also reposting things about me being an avoidant. I’m confused because from our last conversation it seemed like we came to a mutual agreement. I want to reconnect, but as friends, I don’t think how to approach this and i’m not sure if i’d be an asshole.

I wasn’t raised right, i’m 20. I was abused and bullied and my self esteem’s low. I love everyone in my life but I keep hurting them and I keep leaving them because I hate hurting them. I don’t know what to do, isolating myself just makes me less tolerant to people, but it makes them feel bad. I snap really easily, i’m rude, i’m paranoid and i’m defensive. I have bad mental health and I don’t want to be like this anymore. I used to be so happy and kind but people took advantage of my kindness and love. I don’t want to be another hurt person hurting people.

I’m curious, I know people with a lot of experience when they’re younger, and I know people who experienced things at a slower pace. What do you think? I want to perspective to apply to my life, and give advice to others.

Let me know