u/OwnFaithlessness2989

I’m in verge of giving up on swimming. No matter how much I practice I’m unable to float and land without any support. My body immediately panics the moment i lost the support. Landing is so difficult I’m unable to bend the knees to chest and at the same time to bring my hands down. I’m unable to push my hands down without support

I never thought i had a water phobia until I started to float.I’m trying this since a long time. At this point I have 8 more classes for this month and just wanted to learn at least basic swim.

Rest of the students in class were way more ahead. I think my coach also getting irritated because of me.

Sometimes my mind goes to freeze mode when he asks me to float. I feel like a failure and regret wanting to learn this skill.

I’m trying to float without support but I’m unable to stand up without the support. My legs are not coming to the standing position without holding the wall. I’m getting panic because of this. I really need advice. Is my strength not enough?

I’m 23F and my t3/t4 is normal range but TSH is 7. I didn’t have any symptoms but I was very much depressed due to some personal issues from last 7-8 months.

My weight was constant from 1year. I have sedentary lifestyle and my cholesterol is borderline high and iron is low as per recent full body check up.Should I start taking meds and will this impact my future?

Edit: T3 is 0.92 and T4 is 7.48 and TSH is 7.59

I’m 23F and my t3/t4 is normal range but TSH is 7. I didn’t have any symptoms but I was very much depressed due to some personal issues from last 7-8 months.

My weight was constant from 1year. I have sedentary lifestyle and my cholesterol is borderline high and iron is low as per recent full body check up.Should I start taking meds and will this impact my future?

Edit: T3 is 0.92 and T4 is 7.48 and TSH is 7.59

I’m 23F and my t3/t4 is normal range but TSH is 7. I didn’t have any symptoms but I was very much depressed due to some personal issues from last 7-8 months.

My weight was constant from 1year. I have sedentary lifestyle and my cholesterol is borderline high and iron is low as per recent full body check up.Should I start taking meds and will this impact my future?

Edit: T3 is 0.92 and T4 is 7.48 and TSH is 7.59

I feel very difficult to tell NO to anyone. I always feel what if I sound mean and if they feel bad for my actions. But I just want to overcome this fear. I don’t want to be a people pleaser.

Anyone who gone through this please drop your suggestions also please suggest some books/movies which can actually make my mind stronger in this case.

Ater how many sessions did you start noticing a difference in your thoughts, emotions, or daily life?

How many sessions it took to see any changes?

I’ll go weekly once to therapy. I couldn’t book the session due to my financial condition this week.

I feel very bad about it. Did I get attached or it’s just normal to feel this way. I have eagerness to heal anyway.I don’t understand this

I partially remember the things which happened now.But When he got on my top I remember me saying’please don’t keep inside’. I told this whenever he was getting on my top. When I said please don’t he said you just sleep and also he replied ‘ok I won’t’. He also asked my why are you not allowing me. I replied with I don’t want to loose anything (in context of virginity). I remember asking ‘why are keeping inside’.i really don’t remember the exact sentence but he replied with i want to experience.
When I was suffocating and frozen I remember telling him wait, 2mins, stop. I’m trying to push a bit but his body weight is completely on me. I couldn’t really speak a single word out of my mouth and said ‘I’m suffocating and couldn’t breathe’ at the end.

I remember everything partially what happened at that moment. When I said please don’t he was penetrating anyone.Now my mind thinks what if my language of saying No is unclear. Did he misunderstand this into something else?My question is not whether my wording was perfect, but whether a reasonable person would generally understand "Please don't keep inside" and "I don't want to lose anything " as meaning that I did not want penetration. Could that phrase realistically be misunderstood as consent.

I was naked during intimacy, and then I told him no to penetrative sex. He didn't stop and still continued further. I asked him not to insert, but he was still doing it. When I asked him why he was doing this, he said he wanted to experience it. I was in shock and didn't understand why he wasn't stopping even though I told him not to. He somehow got an orgasm somewhat fast, even before he fully penetrated me, so I didn't say anything.
The next morning, he again came on top of me, and I immediately said, "Please don't insert." He said, "No, I won't. You just sleep." I was not naked this time. I was tense and thinking about how to stop this, and his body weight on me felt very suffocating. At one point, I just wanted to stop this somehow, so I told him I would be on top of him, and he stopped immediately.
Then I was somewhat relieved, but after some time he said, "Come on top of me." I was in that position and said I couldn't do this and didn't know what to do. I didn't do anything at that moment. I just wanted to distract him with other conversations, but he was not interested.
Then I felt like if he got an orgasm, he might stop all this and I could be safe again, so I touched his penis. Then the real nightmare started. He came on top of me and lifted my legs. I told him, "Please don't insert." He said, "I won't." Then he started penetrating me, and I froze. I almost couldn't breathe. I couldn't speak to stop him, but I was slightly pushing him. He stopped when he got an orgasm.
I didn't say anything or ask him what happened. I acted like nothing had happened and smiled. He dropped me at home and never texted again.

Do you think he thought this an assault?
I just wonder whether he never spoke to me again because he knew he assaulted me, or whether he had planned to leave me from the beginning.
He says it was his first time being intimate and having sex.

I was naked during intimacy, and then I told him no to penetrative sex. He didn't stop and still continued further. I asked him not to insert, but he was still doing it. When I asked him why he was doing this, he said he wanted to experience it. I was in shock and didn't understand why he wasn't stopping even though I told him not to. He somehow got an orgasm somewhat fast, even before he fully penetrated me, so I didn't say anything.
The next morning, he again came on top of me, and I immediately said, "Please don't insert." He said, "No, I won't. You just sleep." I was not naked this time. I was tense and thinking about how to stop this, and his body weight on me felt very suffocating. At one point, I just wanted to stop this somehow, so I told him I would be on top of him, and he stopped immediately.
Then I was somewhat relieved, but after some time he said, "Come on top of me." I was in that position and said I couldn't do this and didn't know what to do. I didn't do anything at that moment. I just wanted to distract him with other conversations, but he was not interested.
Then I felt like if he got an orgasm, he might stop all this and I could be safe again, so I touched his penis. Then the real nightmare started. He came on top of me and lifted my legs. I told him, "Please don't insert." He said, "I won't." Then he started penetrating me, and I froze. I almost couldn't breathe. I couldn't speak to stop him, but I was slightly pushing him. He stopped when he got an orgasm.
I didn't say anything or ask him what happened. I acted like nothing had happened and smiled. He dropped me at home and never texted again.
I just wonder whether he never spoke to me again because he knew he assaulted me, or whether he had planned to leave me from the beginning.
He says it was his first time being intimate and having sex. But he gave me some signals. During the initial days when he flirted with me, he would say things like, "Will you allow me to kiss you?" or "What if I forced you?"
Do you think men would view this as sexual assault?

I was naked during intimacy and told him no to penetrative sex. But he stared to penetrate me. I told him please don’t insert.He didn't stop and still continued further.When I asked him why he was doing this, he said he wanted to experience it. I was in shock and didn't understand why he wasn't stopping even though I told him not to. He somehow got an orgasm somewhat fast, even before he fully penetrated me, so I didn't say anything.I immediately got dressed.
The next morning, he again came on top of me, and I said, "Please don't insert." He said, "No, I won't. You just sleep." I was not naked this time. I was tense and thinking about how to stop this, and his body weight was completely on me and I felt very suffocating. At one point, I just wanted to stop this somehow so I told him I would be on top of him, and he stopped immediately.Then I was somewhat relieved, but after some time he said, "Come on top of me." I was in that position and said I couldn't do this and didn't know what to do. I didn't do anything at that moment. I just wanted to distract him with other conversations, but he was not interested.
Then I felt like if he got an orgasm, he might stop all this and I could be safe again, so I touched his penis just to masturbate so he can finish.Then the real nightmare started. He came on top of me and lifted my legs. I told him, "Please don't insert." He said, "I won't." Then he started penetrating me, and I froze. I almost couldn't breathe. I couldn't speak to stop him, but I was slightly pushing him. He stopped when he got an orgasm.
I didn't say anything or ask him what happened. I acted like nothing had happened and smiled. He dropped me at home and never texted again.
I just wonder whether he never spoke to me again because he knew he assaulted me, or whether he had planned to leave me from the beginning.
He says it was his first time being intimate and having sex.
But he gave me some signals. During the initial days when he flirted with me, he would say things like, "Will you allow me to kiss you?" or "What if I forced you?"
Do you think men would view this as sexual assault?

I already tried swimming,coloring,DIY minature,learning car-driving,pilates,diamond painting,walking.

Edit:Guys already therapy is going on.

Please say something else. I really want the thoughts to stop. Help me please

I just have to give a little bit context before even getting into the question. I’m 22 years old, but few decisions which i took last year made me realise i’m trusting people way more easily. I myself trusted a wrong guy and he sexually coerced me into lot of things which I don’t want to do. All the circumstances made me realise I trust people who talk nice with me easily.

I had been in such situations with strangers where i easily think everyone is good by the way they talk.
I don’t want to be that person. How to actually think before even having conversations with someone. How to say No without hesitation. I want to get into that mindset even before life ruins me more. I feel people will think I was being rude if I said No or talk back rudely. This kind of behaviour is making me self sabotage. Even with friends, I just want to tell them openly without any hesitation if i feel something is wrong. This empath kind of behaviour is ruining my life. My tendency to empathize deeply with others is affecting my life negatively. I worry more about hurting someone else’s feelings than protecting my own wellbeing. I feel scared and anxious about expressing my opinions if there is even a small chance that they might hurt someone.

I really need a suggestion and advices on this.

What book would you recommend to someone who is in lowest point of their life and wants motivation in life.

I seen a lot of people defending the dumper that he doesn’t want in your life and you should move on.
But how maturely can that be done actually. It’s not really easy to go through that pain when you don’t deserve it first place.