Hi guys! I want help to be typed!
Hi! So basically so far I’ve gone through every type and see myself as being potentially any type at all. Like from ISTJ or ISFJ to ENTP or ENFP, or INFP to ENTJ. All of them.
It’s really confusing me, I want input I’ll start with how I typically make decisions:
When making decisions, I first of scan all my options and quickly narrow down to the “shiniest and yummiest/most pretty” options which would be usually the more expensive options all pretty things are hella expensive unfortunately 😿, but anyways, I see it, I like it, I then start to imagine my self like a simulation and movie in my mind of myself wearing them and kinda flexing them or looking cool in them, like I’m a movie character and center of attention but it depends but I want the pretty but flashy options, or like curated stuff that feels personalized not standardized. Anyways after seeing the prettier option, to me, I see out of them, which one is the best for me long term, and potentially price wise but I want perfection I don’t wanna sacrifice in a sense integrity to saving a few bucks. Idk. I then at the end check the prices I don’t even check the performance of it or the specs I just want the pretty thing and hope it has good capabilities but looks and beauty and aesthetics/perosnal taste. come first always to me.
Tbh as a child also I liked the most prettiest option but it used to sometimes and thus always the most expensive and probably I would be underage for that thing or the sizes are for adults only and I’ll be bummed.
I don’t remember what I was like as a child I do remember I was very curious about everything but I like having fun and just did things like everyone else, I actually felt like I always was trying to catch up with others and I felt I was always too behind especially maturity wise I wasn’t rlly tough type I am quite submissive since I was young but when my personal lines get crossed I snap rlly bad, usually self harm because it feels too wrong to touch someone else and I don’t like being touched either.
Hmm I used to not things through things a lot as a kid I tried to perform or flex to others to be seen as valuable, I was overly and unrealistically ambitious as a child and still am, I still am quite childish, I’m the oldest yet my younger brother has to baby sit me almost.
I don’t like instructing others, I don’t like when people tell others to do things either, I want everyone to have equal treatment I feel bad if I’m the only one who gets the luxury while others suffer but usually I do get the luxury throughout my life, idk how, no one rlly hates me ever, I’m not that annoying except to my siblings I tease them and provoke them to experiment. Hehe, but in public I’m like very almost robotic and awkward, or I over analyse my movements to try to show as this normal person I’m scared others will see me as scary and I hate being seen as scary.
I think I’m not rlly that optimistic but I say things in a playful tone while talking about depressing things in a non depressive manner, I can’t take thing seriously that much, idk.
I also ick rlly bad if I see someone else feel pain because I imagine myself in their position and feel that pain, I also feel like I got stabbed in the chest if someone says something suggestive or inappropriate which I think is breaking the social code.
I had this habit of wanting to be every character I see in a movie, like if I watch iron man, I want to be iron man, if I see Harry Potter now I want to become Harry Potter, like exactly too, like I wanna look like them act like them, life the same life. Idk I get obsessed and I’ll alter my future visions every month to change into that character, or become something but as I said every month I change it so I can’t stick to one career and if I don’t see a purpose or meaning or vision especially in anything I don’t do anything and just sit around doing nothing.
I think I have Ti? Because I overanalyze concepts, define terms in my head often, debate things in my mind until I’m with a person if someone talks to me I can talk for hours about literally anything at all, I get so much energy from being able to talk and talk, and engage with others in a debate or discussion, about any and everything, idk. And can be quite insensitive or detached when doing so, idk
My family is annoyed at me constantly because I say I wanna be all these things but don’t do anything about it. Idk.
But I think I have Fi too, like I know what I feel, and why probably and I do have an “identity”, a physical form and in general I have like “oh that color is so me!” I do think about the aesthetic or character I wanna embody beauty wise and looks wise, I do like sports and experiences like testing myself with spicy food, like a challenge.
But I think I struggle with sensory, like going to the bathroom gives me anxiety one because of OCD but also it takes so much effort to go from my room to the bathroom and idk, and eating feels weird sometimes, I like liquids more than solid foods, I feel tiny sensations that ruin my relaxations like slight uncomfortability.
Idk but also since I was small people wer always surprised how observant I am, I notice details rlly well, in my environment, and human behavior, and quite contemplative and analytical since I was young. But I think originally as a child I used to try to not fit in but catch up with everyone. I felt like the little kid always, I felt dumb and thoughtless idk. But my teachers saw I was rlly talented and smart, more smarter in deep thinking and deeper understanding. I also was always researching as well. Idk.
I think experiences give me energy and interaction, but I can’t say for sure because I don’t do physical things that often unless I see a vision or potentially career in that sport like soccer. I like thinking and but I think I gain a most energy from discussing my theories with people and toying with others and goofing or saying absurd things.