u/RetinalTears716

As a devotee of 4 years I've had a lot of time to get to know Lilith as much as an unfortunately spiritually ungifted person as I am, and a lot of time in her orbit.

I was in a Lilith devotee discord and I had noticed some time ago we all went through similar emotional and practical cycles despite all of us being relatively unconnected and strangers.

For the last few months, MONTHS, without taking the opportunity to vent, I've been insanely depressed like bad. And I've lost all motivation for absolutely anything, and absolutely nothing brings me joy or makes me feel really anything, much worsening mental health. And I'm wondering if you guys have been experiencing this via interconnectedness and your proximity to Lilith?

And I know I know, don't even start with the "erm you just sound depressed maybe take a break" I have been taking a break because my motivation for anything is just gone. And yes I am in therapy. So please just keep that kind of answer to yourself

Hey everybody, I live in the rural southtowns unfortunately and normally I've used Liberty to get to my appointments, but for the last few weeks they've just been godawful and it peaked last week when I had to actually fight with the guy over the phone to get a cab for my ride that was scheduled weeks in advance, and then coming back had to listen to my drivers grievences over how much he's getting paid for the ride, for the entire ride. Does anybody else live out here and know a better company? It seems something changed over there at Liberty because they've always been my favorite until like the last 2 months

I LITERALLY JUST GOT THE SWORD, THE ARMOR, AND THE BOOK IN ONE GO. AND WHAT HAPPENS??? IM LEAVING A FORT ON THE RIVER DEE, MY BOAT IS STUCK, AND I GET KILLED BY A BALLISTA BECAUSE I CANT RETURN TO THE SETTLEMENT

OMFG DUDE NEVER AGAIN.

Hey everybody, so getting into it I guess, I have an amazing sweetest girl ever 5 year old daughter. She is severely disabled though, mentally she's still about a 15 month old, is deaf with a cochlear implant, and communicates via blowing raspberries. So she's got angry raspberries, happy raspberries, etc.

I have a humble altar set up for mainly Lilith and Asmodeus, with a copy of the PGM and an astrological book on it, candles, their sigils, and obsidian, amethyst, and labradorite.

Yesterday I was just chilling playing video games and she was sitting next to me, and she because pretty restless. For a solid 30 minutes she would sit up straight, look at the altar, blow some neutral raspberries, laugh, and smack her lips. And this went on for a really long time, my mom and I make jokes about her talking to ghosts because she always seems to laugh and "speak" to things that aren't there but yesterday it was directed towards my altar.

I'm wondering if anybody has any opinions or insight into this? Could it be feasible that something or someone was coming through and playing with her?

Every single day I scroll my Reddit I see a post from someone in this sub saying something like "erm devs can you add x as a pet", "devs we totally need x as a mount!", "Can the devs add my ridiculous minigame idea", and my recent favorite "the devs should make it so Kliff can get into bar brawls".

Crimson Desert isn't a Real Life simulator. It wasn't even supposed to be single player originally, it was supposed to be an MMO. Pearl Abyss has been amazing with patches - but the problem is they're patching the fans most ridiculous ideas. The most recent patch was the ability to dye your weapon, a much requested add on, with many more things a normal player would never care about like making it so your bird pet you dropped 20 meat for can pick up loot, and it bugged the game out on Base PS5 down to like 20fps.

We don't need rainbow farting unicorn mounts, we don't need eating minigames, we don't need to dye the handle of our weapon well never see red, the game needs to be changed down to its fundamentals and it will never be because Pearl Abyss is a good company that listens too much to its adoring fans.

All of the armor and weapons need to stop being the same level and strength, it makes exploration and boss encounters not worth the trouble. No, the average new player isn't playing barbie with Kliff just having fun with slightly different cosmetics.

Performance and render distance on console needs an update.

The abyssal gear system needs an entire overhaul, there's no reason I should have 200 Abyss gears in my storage when my sword can only take 3 and my armor can only take 2

The UI in general needs an overhaul, the whole hidden menu thing for everything is just ridiculous

The map needs to not have every little Itty bitty marker on it that drops the frame rate itself when scrolling

No, Kliff doesn't need to use Damianes and Oongkas weapons, they should just be playable whenever you want instead of locked behind their own sections of chapters you'll never see

It should actually feel like you DID SOMETHING when you liberate strongholds or interact with the world. One of the biggest problems is that nothing you do in the game actually matters and the world just stays the same no matter what you do

There's so much about this game that needs to be changed and it just won't be because the devs at Pearl Abyss are too busy fulfilling every delusional fan who wants a life simulator. Matter fact I wouldn't doubt if that's why we don't even have any dlc yet

I know this post is gonna make me look completely green, but im not I just have a serious anxiety problem that gets worse the older I get.

I'm 26 and the roads are starting to point back to backpacking. I've traveled the country sleeping at rest stops in a car, ive been homeless in the brutal NY winter in a tent, ive gone on a few pretty short backpacking trips.

But my problem is my anxiety. Finding a good place to sleep away from prying eyes whether in the backcountry or suburbs (I typically avoid cities travelling on foot) makes me anxious, cops make me really anxious, other people make me really anxious, and bears and other predatory wildlife making noises outside the tent at night make me anxious.

I know these aren't really things that have solutions, but im wondering and anybody else has the same issues and finds them workable. I just have the pre-journey jitters.

Ultimately when I do get out there I intend to try not and be by myself the whole time, and I know how to judge character at least

Hey everybody, I'm a devotee to Lilith and have been for years and sometimes include general demonolatry in my practice but mainly King Asmodeus. But this morning, for the first time, completely random infernals/demons kinda made themselves known in my dream and I'm wondering if I should take anything from it.

Firstly - in my dream I was scrolling twitter, and came upon a post that read "Hail Stolas" with owl emojis and a sigil that after googling, sorta looked like his.

Second, in the dream for some reason I said "hail Belial" before walking into an abandoned shack. In real life, ive never done any work or real research into Belial so it's strange that I would've said that.

The abandoned shack was full of oranges/tangerines and big red nuclear buttons. My dreams.. don't always make sense lol.

Anyways, does this sound more like a silly noise dream or something I should pursue in some way?

Hey everybody, I'm absolutely in love with the game. I've got both the Nikee and Nier crossovers (though I don't know how to start the Nier, please let me know). About the Nikkee crossover specifically, is it just the minigame quests and that's it? I'm seeing on Google there's a boss fight and a bunch of over stuff but the only thing happening is the quests to get the nice lady's stuff from the drones

This is something I've been thinking about for a while. It seems that the only people that have a lot of friends and go out and are always doing stuff are just trans people.. maybe it's like a social media factor? But you never see other types of people chilling out in an apartment with their 10 best friends and you never see people with absolutely popping social lives that aren't trans.

I'm currently around the Colden area and being this far from society is actually having serious effects on my mental health. The only reason I'm here is there are some limiting factors keeping me here that I need to get through first before I go anywhere.

But I'm so desperate right now to get out, I was wondering how the roommate economy is going? Now that it's 2026 and everybodies poor, there's gotta be more options in terms of being in a shared apartment of people around my age (26) that isn't just for college students right? How do you find these arrangements? How much cheaper is it then renting an apartment yourself?

This is insane, I really really really need to get back into therapy and see a psych, and I'm calling around. Endeavor? 3 month wait list. Harmonia? "8 people on the list, all therapists full". Best Self? Best they can do for intake is August. Spectrum? Not even picking up the phone.

I dont know who to blame, the places for overbooking or people who don't need these services signing up for them. But this is outrageous, it wasn't like this a few years ago. What's going on? Any sleeper places that accept medicaid?

I'll preface this by saying that New Yorkers from the state will probably get what im saying, New Yorkers from NYC probably won't.

You can make all the arguments about how most state funding comes from NYC, but at the same time the state including the places that can't afford it pays most of NYCs debt, and that's not to speak of the fact that most of NYCs utilities come from the state.

But Kathy is such a perfect equilibrium and that's why I love her. Part of the reason a lot of the state is in the disrepair that it is is because we had Cuomo for so long, and he was very NYC First, and it led to places like Buffalo, Rochester, Syracuse, etc declining financially and structurally. But with Kathy Hochul, as a WNY native she has a vested interest in keeping the state AND NYC happy (which is a non negotiable for any governor).

I just think that's really great and that she's really great for it. Cuomo and let's be honest, any other governor because they're usually from NYC would empty the entire states coffers if NYC needed anything.

If we could keep an arrangement like this forever that would just be amazing and we can both be happy

Like idk if we're still doing the whole "if you don't have a car and drive you're a loser" thing in 2026 but it actually blows my mind that like, everybody has a car and drives.

I never had the support to get my license and all that (I'm 26). Like nobody would let me use their car to practice or for the test, nobody passed me down a car, and even if they did like it's insane how expensive they are. Repairs, registration, inspections, oil changes, tire changes. Like how tf is it that damn near everybody is doing this??? They seem and have always been so unattainable to me

Hey guys. I'm basically a lifelong mental illness sufferer and it's only gotten worse throughout the years, im 26 now. The "self aware" thing is also why I've never found therapy to be any help, but this is kind of scary not gonna lie.

Like being aware of watching myself get worse is just kind of scary. Thinking in one line is getting harder, thoughts are starting to materialize as shapes and metaphors, im finding that writing a coherent post for anything is getting harder and frequently have to proofread to make sure I'm not missing words or just wording things incoherently. The only thing I'm not that self aware on is episodes, the boundary between normal and in the middle of an episode is getting harder and harder to tell.

Is this an experience anybody else finds themselves going through? It kind of sucks not gonna lie. And being able to actually like express this makes it look like it's not as bad as it is and I hate that. It's like telling someone you're depressed but not crying.

Hey everybody as I'm sure a lot of people have seen, msfs2024 is on sale on ps5 and i really really want to get it, mostly for walking around in random places. But the reviews are very very low which makes me worried, but im hopeful that whatever the reason is its been patched and fixed up by now. Is it a framerate problem? Bugs?

So this.. might be a stupid question? Basically I'm wondering like before i buy if I wanted to, could I land the plane in like a random place in the Mojave desert and hop out and explore on foot? Or is it just like you can only explore cities or airports? I can't find good answers online im on PS5 btw