I was approved on 5/15 and my insurance is active as of the first of this month, but I haven't recieved a card or any information that I can show my doctor to get covered. I feel like I should've gotten a card by now? Is it just delayed because of the holiday, or? Is it normal to have not gotten it yet?
The past couple nights I've been in so much pain I can barely sleep. It's unbearable to the point where I've resorted to trying to stretch and pop my hip just for a few seconds of relief. I know I shouldn't but it hurts so much, I just want it to stop. Pain meds (tylenol/ibuprofen) don't do anything. I've tried heating pads and pillows. I don't know what else to do and I'm desperate. Is there ANYTHING else I can try?? I just want to sleep.
I dont even know what to call it. I was diagnosed with mild to borderline hip dysplasia last year. I had almost no paint for the past 3 months, or at least it was tolerable. And now I'm getting home from an 8 hour shift in tears. I'm literally sobbing in the bathtub right now because it hurts so bad. I can't even walk right.
This isn't fucking fair. I'm not even 25 yet and I'm already in excruciating pain just from doing the same things everyone else does easily every single day. They won't even give me prescription tylenol or ibuprofen. I'm scared I'm gonna have to start using my cane to walk again. I was doing so well for so long and now it's right back to square one. It hurts so bad I don't even want to crawl up the stairs to get to bed. I want to just sleep on the bathroom floor because it hurts so bad to walk.
I've been dealing with this pain my whole fucking life and nobody ever believed me. And still no doctors will believe me when I tell them how bad it is and how much it hurts. I'm not even asking for opioids or anything I just want SOMEONE to take me seriously. Because I can't deal with this pain anymore. I got a new job that I absolutely love with good pay and benefits and I'm not gonna be able to work if this keeps happening. Every time I get my life on track something happens to fuck it all up again and I'm so fucking tired of it.
I am VERY cautious when it comes to alcohol, as both of my parents were very severe alcoholics, and even besides that addiction runs in my family.
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I got to see one of my closest friends ever and her partner after moving pretty far away. We got some drinks and were playing card games all night. I havent even had a sip of alcohol in 6 months. I didn't go overboard - obviously, or this post would make absolutely no sense. Or maybe it doesn't and I'm just too drunk to realize lmao.
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Idk, I'm rambling. But I guess the point is, I see why people worshipped gods of alcohol. There was a point where my friend was in the kitchen and her partner was in the bathroom and I was just dancing in place in the livingroom by myself, absolutely no music btw, and it was just so... idk. It was nice. Being able to just not feel weird or embarrassed for a while. Im so glad I felt the draw towards Dionysus. I still haven't tasted wine, but I plan on organizing a wine tasting at a vineyard for my next birthday with all my friends.
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Mild tw for alcoholism ig? Idk. Anyway, its just so amazing knowing I have the ability to drink and get drunk and have fun with the people I love and care about most in the world without feeling like a failure like I always assumed I would. And being able to drink on special occasions instead of getting wasted every day as a "coping mechanism" like my mom. And to be able to do that while also honoring my God at the same time.
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Sorry if this is rambley or doesn't make any fucking sense lol. I'm just feeling really nice right now as I'm laying down for bed and felt like sharing with you guys.
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Also, anyone have any good cures for a hangover? I don't think it'll be too bad but just in case I'd like to have some suggestions at the ready when I wake up lol. If the type of alcohol makes a difference it was vodka I think. Idk it was blue flavored.
I put a cold compress on her foot for a couple mins and gave her a benadryl in a piece of cheese. I made sure the stinger isn't in there. She seems okay, just limping on that foot which is to be expected.
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Does she need a vet visit? She's about 50lbs. If she was bigger I wouldn't really be worried but I'm not sure if she should get checked out since she's kinda small.
I know it varies between stores but what have y'all's experiences been with having piercings other than lobe piercings? I feel like with my GMs it'd probably be fine as long as it's not super flashy/noticeable jewelry.
I'm making hoof shoes for the ren faire this summer and am looking for a good quality air dry clay I can use for the transition between the shoe and the hoof base. I usually make my own paper mache clay, but since I plan to wear these more than once I don't think paper is a great material for this lol. Just something that won't immediately fall off or crack!
Very bad diagram for visual.
Hypothetically, if I just take four rectangles of fabric (a front and back piece for each leg) and sew them into two tubes, and then connect them at the crotch and use elastic for the waistband... would that work? Would they bulge weird at the front and back? I don't wanna buy a pattern but I would also like to not waste my fabric. I havent sewn anything in years and tbh a lot of what I learned before has left my mind lol. They absolutely don't need to be perfect, its mostly just something to lounge around in the house with.
Edit: Thanks for the suggestions! My biggest reason for not wanting to buy a pattern is bc I hate having to print them off and line them up myself. BUT while I was looking for tutorials, I found a small creator who sels the physical paper pattern for her baggy pants and I loooove the shape of them. I went ahead and got the pattern, it was $10 plus shipping and its supporting a small creator so why not! I'm starting a new crochet project to tide me over until it gets here in the mail lol
I'm gonna be so honest, I saw them for $9 at a gas station this past Christmas and thought, "eh why not, they're pretty". I'm surprised they're even still alive. I have the exact opposite of a green thumb. Not even a black thumb. My thumb has withered and died.
I keep them next to a south facing glass sliding door and water them... whenever I remember to lol. I kept them in the dinky plastic containers they came in, but they look like they need a bigger home soon, especially the one on the far right. The middle guy I'm not too concerned about, he almost died not long after I got him but by some miracle he's doing well now, he's just small.
Also, potentially stupid question, but can I plant them all in the same pot? Each one has a different flower color (pink, bright red, and white) and I think they'd be pretty together but I'm scared I won't get a big enough pot for three plants, lol. Any advice at all is welcome. Like I said I wasn't expecting them to last this long but now that they have I've become mildly emotionally attached to them and would like to see them grow.
Also name suggestions are welcome, preferably a trio. I'm thinking of Bifur, Bofur, and Bombur but last time I named a plant after a LOTR character my dog ate it :/
My department is all women except for two guys - not including me, I'm ftm but not out yet so I'm still counted as "woman" for now. Anyway, my manager had this past Monday and Tuesday off, when it was me and the two guys working. They're both assistant managers. Apparently they barely did anything that they were supposed to get done over those two days, so my manager was (rightfully) complaining about it.
Yesterday, she looked me dead in the eyes and said "Boys, boys, BOYS! UGH! I HATE boys in my department!!" I just think its really funny that, even though I KNOW she wasn't talking about me and would have no way of finding out I'm even trans, the moment she said that I got a little flutter of anxiety LMAO. Like,, weird gender euphoria, but also not. Idk I just thought it was funny lol.
To be clear tho I can tell from her general vibe that she's an ally, so if/when I ever do come out at work I know she'd stop saying that kind of thing. She's actually the BEST manager I've ever had and I'm so incredibly lucky I even got a job in this economy.
I've struggled with food for my entire life. I didn't really know WHY I had a hard time eating when I was younger, but over the past couple years I've been able to put it into words.
Sometimes when I'm eating, all of a sudden I just get incredibly nauseous. For no apparent reason. Or if I'm eating/about to eat and I smell/hear/feel/think about something mildly gross, I feel like I'm gonna puke. And when I get like that, I CAN'T eat, even if I'm really hungry. I've tried to force it before and I end up with a stomach cramp and/or throwing up. This feeling can last for hours or even days. Sometimes I can eat "safe" foods - which is usually something completely arbitrary and changes frequently - and sometimes I can't eat anything at all. Sometimes even the taste of water makes me sick. On top of all that, I don't ever feel hungry at all until I'm REALLY hungry. Like the feeling just doesn't come until its been hours and hours since I've eaten, and by then I'm so hungry that I feel sick anyway.
Ive tried explaining it to doctors and therapists, and ive always been told "its probably just anxiety/stress", but I KNOW its not just that. There is SOMETHING wrong with me and I don't know what it is. Ive had blood tests done and results came back normal. I don't know what is wrong with me but I need to fix it. I'm so tired of not being able to eat even my favorite foods because all of a sudden I feel sick.
Idk if this is the right sub for this, but I'm looking for a cheap (like under $200 USD) headset I can sleep with. I have insomnia and watching ASMR videos is sometimes the only thing that can make me fall asleep - specifically ones with a lot of visual triggers and bright lights. I'm just tired of having to hold my phone or prop it up at a weird angle so it doesn't fall.
I wouldn't be using it for literally anything else besides this. I don't know shit about VR (obviously lol) and I'm lowkey broke af, but I'm willing to spend some money in return for a reliable method to fall asleep every night.
Edit: I should clarify that I definitely don't plan to keep it on for the entire night... I move around a lot in my sleep so I was just expecting to fall asleep in it knowing it would come off at some point and I'd wake up with it beside me on the bed lol.
Edit 2: Why are y'all down voting the people actually being helpful lmao. I only posted here because I wanted to find something with a slightly higher quality than the ones that cost like $20 that you put your phone into. I don't need a TV or a projector. I want to be able to see the screen still if I turn my head or roll onto my side. I will clarify again that it WOULD NOT be staying on through the whole night. I plan to fall asleep to an ASMR video, and once I fall asleep and the video ends, that's it. It's gonna come off pretty quick right before or right after I fall asleep anyway. Some of the replies are taking it way too seriously lol. I know what I want, I just dont want to waste my money on something that doesn't work.
I literally CAN'T engage in face-to-face conversations about child abuse or anything related to how badly society as a whole treats children. Its the same with issues regarding LGBTQ+ issues (though not as bad). It's like no matter who I'm talking to, even if they're completely agreeing with me, I get so, so angry. Like logically I know that I am more knowledgeable than most people on the psychological effects of child abuse and the minute details of anti-LGBTQ+ propaganda, but subconsciously there's a part of me that's so fucking angry that not everyone knows what I know.
And I WANT to educate people. I WANT to teach people the things I've learned and how to be a more compassionate, understanding person. But if I get even the tiniest amount of push back against something that I know for a fact has been proven by multiple sources, its like I become literally enraged. I hate it so, so much. It's my personal belief that (most) people do the best they can with the knowledge they have, and the reason there are so many shitty people out there is because they're just ignorant to the extent of the harm they're causing. So I always want to be the person that calmly and kindly educates them, because reacting with aggression and anger isn't going to make them listen.
Idk, I'm just really frustrated. I went off on a relative earlier when trying to explain why my niece with depression stays in her room all day and I feel like shit for it.
I recently started working at a hardware store. My department handles the building materials which includes windows and doors. I remember when I was a very young kid going into those big department stores and always wanting to go look at the doors. It was honestly a buried memory for me, but now that I see them every day, it came back up. I was so oddly fascinated with the window and door displays - specifically the ones with the background image behind them that makes it look like you're looking into someone's house. I always wanted to open them and go inside. I can remember being so young that I couldn't really grasp the concept of a door display, and I really thought that that was someone's real front door. But I was oddly terrified of them at the same time. The pictures of the people smiling behind the glass panes in the door... The way I was so convinced they were real, and just pretending they couldn't move...
I walk past those aisles every morning when I clock in, now. I didn't really think any more of it until the other day when I had to dust all the displays and tidy up the aisles in that section. Mindless work, and I'm not allowed to have earbuds in while on the floor, so I was just letting my mind wander. I started to really think about it... rows upon rows upon rows of doors... a lot of them almost identical to each other. All painted with a white finish and leaning up against each other in the aisles. And the odd feeling of unease I started to notice whenever I saw one of them out of place...
I'm surprised it took me so long to make the connection to TMA, honestly. Especially since the spiral is probably my favorite entity. It makes me smile a bit whenever I look over and see all those doors now, lol. Like its a weird kind of "inside joke" I have with only myself. Anyway, I thought y'all might enjoy that.
Oh also, my boss's name is Michael.