Ive basically been unproductive for a long time due to mentsl illness. But cant even treat this as recovery time off bc the whole time, I stress about being unproductive.
I really need downtime and maybe even therapy and meds.
But my entire downtime is spent worrying about not being productive.
Especislly looking at virgos and caps on this one, because taurus seems to know how to relax
We grew apart. But bc shes having issues with a relationship according to people connected to her (not even her words directly), i'm being forced by her social network to reconcile.
I dont think sag's are the type to use social influence to bully people into submission. But I dont like her support system. Theyre toxic. They also make her look bad.
This isnt the side of her I grew up with. I dont know who the people around her are or how they met, but they seem to think violence or force is the answer to everything. I feel like even if I did what they wanted, it wouldnt be sincere bc I would be forced.
Ive tried talking to her but to no avail. She denies everything happening and says its not tied to her. I feel bullied. Not even by her. But by her/this social network.
She claims its all rumors. But even after doing so, people still come up to me about her spreading more rumors. Which she doesnt seem eager to stop or correct.
Any advice would really help
Allegedly, the court is suing Yale University over the presumption of admitting 29% more black candidates over white and asian candidates.
(The DEI versus Meritocracy debate gone judicial.)
Why did the article lump white and asian people together like a unified entity?
Does this means asians have officially claimed whiteness and no longer relate to the POC label?
Also, where are all the black Yale graduates? Havent met any in my life time.
What's their obssession with sensationalism the most random events?
You look up an event that happened 10 years ago and they'll suddenly treat it like the hottest, latest thing. It seems like an obsession with being in the know. Or making it seem like they know everyone.
It reminds me of anxious hostess energy
I realize 80% of my algorithim is from women with children. Even in neutral spaces, I notice how their content gets pushed to the top repeatedly.
I understand all the conflict with Roe vs. Wade, influence campaigns, etc.
But I can't get over the forced dominance of mothers and the forced influence of motherhood thats been going on these past couple of years.
It makes it feel unpleasant for single women and at this point it feels like mothers are dominating cyber spaces at disproprotionate rates
What was the moment that revealed it to you? Was it a family member? A boy? A job?
I saw a lighter skinned womam doing a very informed take on colorism, which inspired this post a bit.
How old were you when you encountered your first colorist incident? How did you feel? What did you do in response to the situation?
Anyone able to pick up on underlying moods, feelings, and attitudes?
Some people call it being empathic. But I feel a lot of moods, impressjons, and undertones constantly. It leads to a lot of anxiety and analysis.
Maybe I need to stop being this way too, but ut's involuntary. My shpulders clench when someoke around me is tense. My stomach feels like theres a pit in it. I feel myself constantly tending to people just so I could be comfortable.
Do people who are internallt stable exist? I need a lot of time alone to decompress from interactions because of this. It's very draining and I don't know how to turn it off
And why does talking about it tarnish your social status?
Black women are in a unique position where abuse should be stomached in silence because, going through abuse and talking about it is a double negative.
Do people use the "silent women are more feminine" trope tp seduce black women into remaining silent abiut abuse?
But like misguided children, they keep stumbling in the wrong buildings looking for acceptance.
We should help guide them
Is it to drain your energy trying to exhaust you?
This girl keepz trying to paint me as being in love with her in hopes of attracting a man. Its like im her retirement plan at this point.
She is using me to gain access to a man.
Think about how jealous people get when analyzing the social media of their friends, lovers, exes.
Now imagine going from highlight reels to 24/7 live action.
Evevry private victory treated likena direct attack om your self esteem. Every private loss treated like a one up for you.
The way human nature works is not compatible with a surveillance state.
Think about how jealous people get when analyzing the social media of their friends, lovers, exes.
Now imagine going from highlight reels to 24/7 live action.
Evevry private victory treated likena direct attack om your self esteem. Every private loss treated like a one up for you.
The way human nature works is not compatible with a surveillance state.
I scrolled through a sea of subreddits today. Some for meeting people. And as I was looking for a chat partner, everything felt so anxious and urgent.
It felt like selling your soul for a connection. An advertisement to lure in the bait.
I cant do it anymore. Throw myself into the void in hopes I stand out amongst a sea of hungry souls.
My soul is hungry too. But I dont want to have to drown to be nourished first.
I miss slow dialogue and long contemplation. I miss having less rather than more in common. Mystery. Longing.
I miss old english and shakspearian dialect. Whats going on with the world? I miss it
I experience a lot of threats, put downs, and degredation throughout the day to the point where I know every flaw I have inside and out.
But why are they afraid to watch you be complimented, loved, or autonomous?
Does anyone need love today? Im handing it out bc fuck them 😊
How long can you go without interactions/conversation/alone time before craving connection?
How do you tend to recharge when your battery is full?
Whats the best job you ever had?
I think theres social introvert, ambivert, recluse, etc.
Feel free to make up your own category because idk anymore
Are bigger women less likely to be believed or get help in cases of abuse?
Are crimes or violence against larger bodies more likely to be ignored or disbelieved?
I dont know if this was tackled yet. But if you feel safe, please share your stories?
I feel like this is a topic that just doesnt get covered
One thing I notice about coercive control is, narrative control is a big part of the equation.
I notice that some abusers genuinely hate you to the point it makes them mentally ill. The worst part is. They struggle to articulate the hatred in a civilized and coherent fashion.
I still dont understand how people fall for smear campaigns in 2026.
The minute I hear someone describing someome using morw than 4 negative adjectives in a single sentence, I assume malice and stop tuning in.
I let both those bitches have each other and they still wanted me dead. So i lashed out. And i actually feel better ♡
How are you doing right now?
I notice that society has become more and more fond of introverted men, but not so much women yet.
What are some challenges youre currently navigating in society?
What are your social and love lives like? Do ypu prefer meeting people online or in person? Being approached or shooting a messagr first.
I feel like a lot of effort is going into figuring out introverted men. But i'm interested in learning more about how introverted women are navigating right now xx
My abuser called me an abuser to isolate me from getting help
I never sent an angry mob after them. Never tried to punish them. Only tried to get away.
But because they were more popular than me, a simple smear was enough to keep me in their web.
Not only am I not allowed to get help because of my reputation, but they use this to gain even closer proximity to me by painting themselves as my only resource now.
The only one who will tolerate me, want me, talk to me, etc.
I have a lot of anxiety with attacking abusers because of this experience. When I see people attacking abusers. Especially sadistically, I get anxious because something in the back of my mind makes me question if I can be so sure they deserve that treatment.
For this reason, I'm finding it hard to get my feelings out and struggling with feelings of anger that gets silenced by shame based retreat.
I can't lash out at them in ways that might liberate me. But I also feel anxious in support spaces thag have a tone of aggressively holding the accused accountable.
This situation has messed with my sense of justice. And I don't even know what to do