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>!Oh they don’t, do they?!<

>!ADDAMAINA CHETTHA ane flair kavali!<

Preferably Tamizh and Telugu. Others okay too. Item paataloddhu. TIA. Also konchem urgent.

If you ever meet me or the people who know me, under an hour or two you'd understand I love strawberry. I love it in any form. Biscuits, cookies, desserts, perfumes, shakes, room freshners everything. I wear the 'I am a strawberry lover' badge so well, my friends would even tease me I'd prefer them in EVERYTHING, LIKE, EVERYTHING YOU CAN THINK OF. Maybe I do.

But you see, strawberries don't really taste that...amazing. They're small dosages of confusion packaged in pretty red blobs. They're sweet. And just when you feel it's sweetness something tangy happens. Or sour? Idk about tastes as much. I mean, the words. But, I think we can collectively agree on the fact that it won't stay the same.

To be honest, I didn't like strawberries as much, growing up. They looked cute, but that's it. Almost all the fruits looks cute, except guava. I dislike guava. Once I saw a tiny worm in it, and refused to eat them until recent when I realised it's good in fibre. Actually no, I started eating them, cause it is childish to stop eating a fruit for a whole life just because I saw one tiny worm in one of them five years ago. Fibre, I can get it from vegetables too. But to eat guava again, I can do it only with guava.

Back to strawberries. I was not very fond of them. They're red in colour. But cartoons blend in some pink into them to make them look more aesthetic. That's a betrayal. This isn't about that again. Why did I choose strawberries as my favourite fruits/berries or whatever genre they're from, despite not being so fond of them? Honestly, I don't know.

The earliest strawberry memory I have is from Lonavla. I must be around 10 then? I liked them there. Later in my town. Later again in Araku, fresh outta farm. Then in some smoothies, waffles and icecreams. Yes ice creams, they don't do justice to the actual flavour tho. Anyway, I think ever since, it's just an active choice. An active choice to like strawberries. So, I liked them, then consumed them, and liked them more. And it's just an active choice triggered loop, I guess.

What do you want love?

I want the strawberry one!

I even like sunflowers the same way. I wonder if everyone picks one favourite the same way I did or if they try everything and choose one, cause I don't even know the names, tastes and fragrances of half the fruits, berries and flowers out there.

What do you like love?

Oh! I like sunflowers.

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If you think you’ve seen this post before, you may have.

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Not in a bad/good way particularly, but different light overall, something like, arey matladakunda undunteh persona mottham vereh laane anipisthundeh kadha ani.

I barely talk to anyone from this platform, but appudappudu I wonder, kondari comments chusnappudu - Are they the same in person too? How different would they be? How well would we gel? Will I still look at them the same way after interacting with them? If not, how different the new preception can be? ala, ala, ala.

I have been craving Maggie. For a while now. Yes, I can vandify it for myself, but I was just too lazy and, I have been consciously staying away from high sodium content stuff. Or just snacks in general. I take seven days to finish a chips bag and seven minutes to finish a popcorn sack. It’s just, I am not eating snacks from outside as much, let alone make/cook.

So there is this friend. I casually mentioned to her, this evening, that ‘I am craving Maggi’ ani, while we were having dinner. I didn’t think much about it. I came back to my room and she went out for some pani. At 2330, a little knock on my door, upon opening I saw her standing with a smol parcel of maggi. Vedigundi ventaneh tinesei ani cheppi she went into her room.

This isn’t the first time. Once, she made poha for me when I skipped meals back to back. Takes me out to Himalaya bookstore which is kms away so I am buy the specific kind of dotted journals I want - I am very specific in konni vishyal, so. She’s not very older than me either, to take care of me. I am a grown person myself after all. But she does all these. In our dynamic, I receive more than I give and sometimes that makes me sad.

Coming back to my title, love is of many things. While it can be a grand gesture like Shahjahan’s to build a Taj Mahal, most of the times it’s tiny gestures, really. Like, opening the bottle so the other person can directly drink from the bottle.

And if we don’t want to call it love, perhaps we can call it ‘seeing/being seen’. I noticed you were thirstier, so I unscrewed the cap for you.

To notice others and to be noticed.

To see others and to be seen.

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Maggi made me think a lot. Wow.

Morning modalaindi bro, pakka building loh dance practice. Aaputhalerasla. I admire dancers and I like the art form as well. But that instrument they use for thaalam, sorry, but udayam nundi okkateh nasa.

Tik tik tik ani.

I omit noises, usually. When I’m focused. Andkeh raiiiii ani cooler motha mogisthna, I’m fine doing my work, but today I hated those set of dancers and their dance and their upcoming project with all my heart.

Soundproof studios oorkane undav.

Gola.

Ippudu kooda aithundi. Evariki call chesi thittaleka ikkadedusthna.

Them as in the ones from your real life, who IMPACTED you the most at one point, was part of your everyday, and had close union with. They could be that greatest love of your life, first love, exes, friends, or alike.

How do you remember them?

By the beginning of your interactions? Or the bitter ending/ quiet fade out? Or the whole? Time softens and replaces a lot, but still, answer me (if you can), how do you remember them?

Edo random rant bro.

AI videos masth ishtam naaku. Chai bisket prema kathalu, motichoor laddoo barfi stories, scuba cat. Bhale untai. I am against relying on AI for many things man can easily do. Aah lekkana chusthe me getting amthe fun element from these AI videos is hypocritical anipinchind.

AI videos oka etthaithe, aah videos loh undeh sexualisation is too much. Initially cute vi ochevi. Now every character is sexualised. Aah laddoo ae kadha, strawberry ae kadha anukolem, cause they're again portrayed with the same human bodies. So who's getting sexualised? Women. Yet again. Inka children sexualisation chudled, by God.

Also. Ennuko badda party paschima Bangla loh allakallolam srushtisthundi already. Oka MLA aithe seedha nak hindus matrame vote esar nen hindus kosam matrame pani chestha, muslims nakanavasaram ani. Mari tax paisal kavala? Asla, are we even realising that the Hindu Muslim divide exists only till muslims exist? The moment Muslims are gone, it's again the same old rigid varna, ahha, caste system. Kulam Kulam, which Kulam do you belong to?

Tch tch.

Ah. Monnevaro annar, terr orist groups anni ye mathanivo telsa ani? In a demeaning tone of course. Tell me, ye mathanivi? Also aah prasna ki extra prasnas what's a terr or group? And do you know who funds most of them?

Why is the cognitive offloading so much in people that we all are each other's echo chamber?

When will we stop sexualising AI?

Jaldi levali. Tatas. Birlas. Neetu Ambani fashion khalaaaaas.

Kapitalism.

This post isn’t going to add any value to your life so read only if you’re free.

Scrolling on Instagram I came across a reel of the institute I want to pursue my postdoctoral from. It’s so pretty. It’s the IIAS, Shimla. Akkada enduku anteh, no reason, it’s a pretty building. Old, royal and on the hills. I like institutes with good infrastructure and some history. Bonus if near hills.

I visited that campus in 2024 and was mesmerised by the beauty of the sunset view from there. Oka vandha photos teesunta aah sunset vi. I visited during winter so mottham fog undeh, but the campus is so gorgeous now, the spring summer transition.

Ye subject loh cheyyali annadi no idea as of now cause I don’t even have a phd. i wanted to finish my final phd defence by 2030 and I didn’t even join in one lol. Maybe vision 2040 loh eskundam leh.

Then pottery. I LOVE ceramics. I want to own a studio and a cafe where I throw clay and make my own pots to serve coffee in. And I dont’t want to learn pottery kahi bhi. Aithe Andhra loh local artisans daggara, or auroville or dharamshala. I even saved 40k ekbar from all the pocket stipend moneys. Unfortu I couldn’t enrol into a programe/session. Vision 2040.

Anthe. Enni panulunnayo cheyadanki peddhaiyyaka 🤭