Friendships and boundaries
I made 2 friends some time ago and after hanging out with them i now realise they are not my type like neither their personality (extroversion/introversion) nor their mindset or their hobbies match mine so its a bit draining for me now to always adjust to their world while they choose not even to step into mine.
The friendship this way feels only one sided to me and not fun for me though they both are not too bad as a person but just not my type of people.
I have been slowly trying to put distance between us to slowly fade away without making it too obvious. So i regularly started making excuses for their plans. Recently i have been making way more excuses back to back hoping that they somehow get the point and back off. (I mean, dont any mindful person does that? Like if you call/invite someone 3-4 times and get rejected you simply backoff or go find another friend?)
But nah they have become to persistent in calling me that now i feel so bad for them (not for myself) because i am trying to keep my boundaries while they lack the basic emotional intelligence to understand this simple thing and keep on embarrassing us all from time to time.
I mean i never stop them both to meet each other. Why are they so adamant for me to be part of the meet up too. I am being polite enough to just make excuses and fade myself out of this situation but they are being so persistent.
Meeting them has always felt like a chore than a refreshing friends outing so i no more have energy for this type of dynamic. I don’t want to sound rude or say such things on their faces but they are honestly now forcing me into that ugly conversation.
They have so far asked me 15 times and i have turned down them 15 times (recently i made more excuses than before because my health isn’t good to socialise but i dont want to tell them this reason due to personal reasons so i have to keep making excuses) idk what kind of sanity they have that they don’t even care about their own self respect.
I cant tell them i am out of the city etc or anything because they fucking live next door. Its so lucky of me that i almost never run into them.
Its now infuriating and i am honestly this close to being straight forward with them because easy signals are clearly not understandable to them.
I hate the fact that they even try to guilt trip me into meeting them.
I mean broooo you cant force someone to meet you. We all have free will and we choose to do whatever we want so this shitt. If someone is ignoring you just deal with the fact instead of pressuring them into giving you their time.
Isn’t friendship a two way street? Why force it out of someone when they dont want to? If i would have genie wanted to meet i wouldn’t even be waiting for their msg I would have already asked them to meet!
WTF MAN!