Does anyone know of spaces that host jam nights? Ive heard of a few and had friends that frequented but ive always been too nervous, wanna get out of that. Any tip would be appreciated.
I know this may sound silly but I feel like my life is over.
For context, Ive spent ten years abusing drugs, trying to get sober and relapsing many times. With antidepressants, Ive been able to stay off of them and I dont have the urge to do them, with the exception of weed which is becoming a bit of a boondoggle tbh.
But now Im looking at the wreckage and I see a lot of good things but I have this feeling that always comes thru no matter how good of a mood I am that my life is over. That there is no up, no breakthrough. I find that Im anxious again, that I cant look people in the eyes, I feel ugly and unlikeable. I dont see a path forward, a way to form strong bonds with others, I have absolutely no clue what to do with my life.
I just turned 29 so I think thats part of it and I know I rely way too much on weed right now and there have been some changes in my life but I just needed to share these feelings. I feel like I'm drowning.
I know this may sound silly but I feel like my life is over.
For context, Ive spent ten years abusing drugs, trying to get sober and relapsing many times. With antidepressants, Ive been able to stay off of them and I dont have the urge to do them, with the exception of weed which is becoming a bit of a boondoggle tbh.
But now Im looking at the wreckage and I see a lot of good things but I have this feeling that always comes thru no matter how good of a mood I am that my life is over. That there is no up, no breakthrough. I find that Im anxious again, that I cant look people in the eyes, I feel ugly and unlikeable. I dont see a path forward, a way to form strong bonds with others, I have absolutely no clue what to do with my life.
I just turned 29 so I think thats part of it and I know I rely way too much on weed right now and there have been some changes in my life but I just needed to share these feelings. I feel like I'm drowning.
Hey y'all, wanted to share some music I've made! Ive been recording myself for longer than a decade, but since 2020 I've been making music under the name Church Medic and it was pretty indebted to things like Modest Mouse, Pinegrove and other indie rock.
Recently Ive been getting more into experimental music, dance music, Neo-Soul, Jazz, basically anything that isn't boiler plate rock music. Over the first half of this year Ive been chipping away at this collection of songs, with contributions from my brother on piano.
So if you would be so kind to lend your ears to *Those Aren't Mountains* out now on Bandcamp, it would be greatly appreciated!
And if the music, or the other releases on my Bandcamp, is something ya dig send me a message and let's collaborate!
This is a song on a four song ep I wrote last year. Wanted to share it as its one of my favorites that Ive written. Working on a new project right now, actually giving it time to breathe instead of my previous method of rushing a song over the course of a day. However, I hope yall liked this track!