im always surprised when someone likes me, i feel like im too weird to be liked for my authentic self.. so i feel happy but also confused when someone accepts me the way i am.. i think its rare
your type is the most fascinating to me because the core idea seems to be suffering? lol so like, do you ever feel satisfied with your life?
he has diagnosed schizophrenia and refuses to take meds, he also smokes weed. these days he stopped going to work and he is up all night!! i dont even know what is he doing but during the day he keeps cleaning and listening to loud music.. thats all he does.. he also threw some of my stuff away thinking he is getting rid of unnecessary stuff (my period pads for example). for some reason he also keeps doing laundry and there are no towels anywhere, i have to use shirts and other clothes to dry myself up after shower.
i feel like im being tortured.. the music keeps driving me insane and the sleep deprivation is real.. i dont understand how he is comfortable with that..
at this point i hope he gets so crazy the emergency services will take him involuntarily .. i plan to move out but ofc its not that easy or fast as i wish it was..
Third is the look im going for
Third one is the look im going for
this is getting ridiculous i know but my partner returned from psych ward, he refused to take any pills there and today I noticed that he had a picture of another woman on his phone screen.. i asked who is it and he got VERY angry screaming at me that hr won’t explain anything to anyone anymore and he also said that the girl didnt want him back lol.. i find it very creepy tho, the picture was actually like a photo of the girl and he put his fingers on her like he is admiring her.. he was there for just a week and already wanted to get a replacement lol
i got my partner (who has diagnosed schizophrenia) admitted to psych ward a week ago because he had delusions about how he can fly, that he is a frequency that makes people wake up and see their hidden truth thats why everyone is running away from him or crying when they see him, he thought that everyone is watching him and he stopped going to work. he was also telling me i lied to him, that he wasn’t actually my first and that he even knows who was my first! he wanted me to move out of the house as soon as possible and he stared at me like he hates me!
today they called me from the psych ward and they asked me to explain his symptoms and they said he has been acting calm and cooperative there and he doesn’t have any psychotic symptoms or aggressive behaviour. he refuses to take any pills.
wtf is going on??? will they let him out?? im terrified now
i had to call the police on my partner when he was experiencing psychosis because he started acting weird and was accusing me of stuff and then he didn’t go to work and i was terrified to come home.. i was scared he either hurt himself or wanted to hurt me because it was VERY atypical for him to miss work.. he is in a mental hospital now and he called his mom telling her that I called the cops on him and he said that kinda angrily even tho he was on meds they gave him.. will he hate me forever now?
how did they treat you once they came back?
My (probably an ex at this point) has diagnosed schizophrenia.. we met 5 years ago and he told me that he was in a psychward in the past but he made it all seem more like he was just a victim of circumstances.. so i brushed off the schizophrenia diagnosis because he seemed so normal to me and it made sense to me like why would he develop a psychosis under the circumstances he told me about..
fast forward to this month, after him lying to me about a lot of stuff and me finding out about his porn addiction I decided that i dont want to be with him anymore.. and he suddenly flipped.. at first it seemed like he was trying to get better but then he developed psychosis.. he was telling me weird stuff for example that he is a frequency that makes people see their hidden truth and that people are capable of flying if they train their body.. he was leaving weird symbolic stuff all over the apartment.. and i realised that was the schizophrenia i brushed off in the beginning of our relationship..
yesterday his colleague started texting me that my partner didn’t come to work and he was waiting for him.. i got very worried.. I thought that my partner either hurt himself or is severely delusional at this point.. because he always came to work even when he had high fever he never skipped work. I was scared to go into the apartment alone and decided to call the police to go with me.. long story short they called an ambulance because they saw how weird the symbols in the apartment looked and they knew about the schizophrenia diagnosis..
i feel horrible now.. he was crying.. i feel like I betrayed him.. im so worried about him now but i dont have any information..
My (probably an ex at this point) has diagnosed schizophrenia.. we met 5 years ago and he told me that he was in a psychward in the past but he made it all seem more like he was just a victim of circumstances.. so i brushed off the schizophrenia diagnosis because he seemed so normal to me and it made sense to me like why would he develop a psychosis under the circumstances he told me about..
fast forward to this month, after him lying to me about a lot of stuff and me finding out about his porn addiction I decided that i dont want to be with him anymore.. and he suddenly flipped.. at first it seemed like he was trying to get better but then he developed psychosis.. he was telling me weird stuff for example that he is a frequency that makes people see their hidden truth and that people are capable of flying if they train their body.. he was leaving weird symbolic stuff all over the apartment.. and i realised that was the schizophrenia i brushed off in the beginning of our relationship..
yesterday his colleague started texting me that my partner didn’t come to work and he was waiting for him.. i got very worried.. I thought that my partner either hurt himself or is severely delusional at this point.. because he always came to work even when he had high fever he never skipped work. I was scared to go into the apartment alone and decided to call the police to go with me.. long story short they called an ambulance because they saw how weird the symbols in the apartment looked and they knew about the schizophrenia diagnosis..
i feel horrible now.. he was crying.. i feel like I betrayed him.. im so worried about him now but i dont have any information..
My ex started acting weird. He works night shifts, and is currently showing signs of some mania or idk what that is. He is paranoid (thinks other people are watching him) claims he saw a black entity (he called it grief) , and he told me that he likes some historical Mongolian princess and that he likes her more than me and that she chose him. After he slept for a bit he texted me that he is "all good now" and that it was just a temporary psychosis and perhaps it happened due to lack of sleep or because he stopped smoking. He then left for another night shift.
Is it actually possible for someone to just snap out of this weird state after one short sleep, or should i be worried?
My ex started acting weird. He works night shifts, and is currently showing signs of some mania or idk what that is. He is paranoid (thinks other people are watching him) claims he saw a black entity (he called it grief) , and he told me that he likes some historical Mongolian princess and that he likes her more than me and that she chose him. After he slept for a bit he texted me that he is "all good now" and that it was just a temporary psychosis and perhaps it happened due to lack of sleep or because he stopped smoking. He then left for another night shift.
Tl;dr Is it actually possible for someone to just snap out of this weird state after one short sleep? btw i felt devastated that he told me he liked another female more than me even tho its ridiculous because she is dead.. this all happened because we broke up because he has a porn addiction
i kinda broke up with my partner and at first he was really sad and depressed.. but now he is suddenly saying that this was all God’s plan that we both were meant to learn something and that God doesn’t want us to be together and he is angry at him because of that.. he also said that he promised God that he wont ever have sex again…
when i told my partner that be betrayed me and cheated on me by lying about his porn use for 5 years he said that he never loved the actresses though, and that looks and love are completely different things to him.
he was shocked when i told him that i know he didn’t love them but my self esteem got shattered because i feel like he liked them and got off while looking at them!! and he told me that looks arent as important to him as they are to me anyway lol
it made me feel like im the weirdo for caring about him having eyes just for me because thats so self centred right
And it made me angry. He literally told me that he needed to lose me in order to wake up and become a better person. Like im some sort of scapegoat. He said im such an important person in his life because i forced him to see himself and change (only after I caught him watching porn after he lied to me about it for 5 years) and that he will love me no matter what I do to him and he feels bad that I didn’t get anything out of this experience lol.
Am I overreacting? i know what he said can sound nice but i cant help but feel grudge because why tf did he have to betray me and ruin our relationship in order to become a better person? and then he has the audacity to thank me for making him change? like i had to see him watching porn and become traumatised in order for him to make his life better?
So I have been with him for 5 years, and all those 5 years he has been lying saying he doesn’t watch porn or even masturbate.. i was naive to believe that (also because he has a chronic illness and I thought that was the reason). long story short I caught him watching porn and it was so shocking to me.. like this man who doesnt want sex too much and doesnt even masturbate is sitting here jerking off to porn??
we decided to take some weird break.. like its more of a situationship now.. and he got into psychology and started telling me that he realised he is an empath! i was like “wtf how can you say that to me after lying for 5 years?? do you even know what empath means??” and he started telling me that he was born as an empath but because of his narcissistic family he had to become a liar and developed multiple addictions to fill the emptiness inside..
i dont even know how to react to this.. like, is this a good sign that he is reflecting or is it a red flag?
i just cant wrap my head around the idea that some people can get physically aroused just by seeing an attractive face? i never actually realised that when people call someone “sexy” they mean they want to have sex with them? I thought it was just an aesthetic lol like someone is cute and someone is sexy
i just realised i might be demi, but im not sure. firstly, i almost can’t believe most people feel aroused just by looking at pretty face? is it real? second, i can feel “attracted “ to people like celebrities but based on the vibe they portray, and the attraction isnt sexual. its more like “wow i can see myself in them, they are so cool I want to be even more like them”. but i do believe in love at first sight, like sometimes the vibes just “click”? if that makes sense.. but i dont feel immediately sexually attracted.. i just feel like this might be the person im going to be in a relationship with.. am i demisexual then or not?