u/_shadowcorpse_

Seriously, it’s only going to get worse from here. all my friends will disappear because I don’t do anything for them and I’ll be completely alone and insane. I can’t keep living behind glass like this, but I don’t know what I’m supposed to d. Even when I know what to I can’t do it for some reason. Every time I even think about talking to someone I feel like there’s a hand gripping my heart and choking all the life out of me. I can’t possibly be normal, I never was. but people seem to care more now and they’ll only start to care even more about how useless I am. I don’t know why anyone would even want to be friends with me.

I feel like I know what I should do to help myself out but I just never do anything. I don’t get therapy, I don’t talk to anyone, I don’t do most of the things I want to do. It’s like I don’t have control of my own body. If I stay like this ill never amount to anything but I don't know what to do, please help me.

Whats the point of doing anything when you can just imagine it? It’s so much less exertion. Theres no chance of failure or humiliation. Everyone there understands me, they listen to me, they want to spend time with me. I don’t know why anyone would do that for me in real life. But it all seems so real to me, real enough to make me feel something. I’ve cried over things that never happened. I always spend more think thinking about someone rather than actually talking to them. It’s so much easier in my head. I’ve had so many conversations with my friends that they’ll never know about. I can’t help it, but it’s not like I don’t want it. It’s not all I have, but it’s a lot. It helps me fill in the gaps of all the things I was too scared to do. All the things I let pass me by. In my mind, I can do anything, even if it doesn’t end up working. So I’d rather live in a fake world I can control than a real one I’m completely powerless in where I can’t say the things I want to say or do the things I want to do. I honestry don’t feel like I’m losing anything, it’s not like I could succeed in everyone else’s world.

I don’t know exactly what to say but I really don’t feel like I have much value to offer anyone. I seriously do not understand why anyone would want to have anything to do me. I don’t give anything in return. But some people like having me around. I don’t get it. I don’t make online friends because I don’t see why they would care about me if they dont have to see me. My only friends are my school friends but now weve finished they don’t have to see me anymore. I just don’t know why anyone would want to be my friend. I’m not a good friend

I’m 18 and never been in a real relationship befor. Honestly I don’t want to because I don’t even know how I’d be able to do it. Why would anyone want to date someone with social anxiety?

Even ignoring my anxiety, I just done have anything to say a lot of the time. Or I think of something but just don’t say it. I feel like im just not very good at conversations

I feel like I should go to therapy because I’m 18m and I’m very tired, anxious and antisocial. I feel like I have no control over anything I do.

But I don’t know how therapy would actually help me. It’s just words. I feel like I wouldn‘t do anything they tell me to. I don’t know what they could even say to help me. So how does it work? would it help?

Was waking around town today and I wanted to go in some shops but I couldn’t. I don’t know why but I just couldn’t do it.

I can’t do anything I want to. I can’t make new friends. I can’t talk to my already friends. I can’t bring myself to look for therapy or go to the hospita or the gym or anywhere I don’t have to go. Im never going to have a normal life if I can’t do anything like this. I don’t blame people for not liking me if I’m so useless. Please help me of you can thank you.

lately I’ve been masturbating very heavily, probably the most I ever have, sometimes pretty much immediately after finishing I’ll start again. And I think the reason for this is because I’ve became more interested in learning about my gender and sexual identity, which is good, but I don’t feel like I have any way to really express i, so I have to rely on porn and erotica to fufil myself in that way. But honestly it doesn’t actually help at all, it just makes me more confused and wastes my time. So I’m looking for more ways to express myself so I stop looking for validation in unhealthy ways.

lately I’ve been masturbating very heavily, probably the most I ever have, sometimes pretty much immediately after finishing I’ll start again. And I think the reason for this is because I’ve became more interested in learning about my gender and sexual identity, which is good, but I don’t feel like I have any way to really express i, so I have to rely on porn and erotica to fufil myself in that way. But honestly it doesn’t actually help at all, it just makes me more confused and wastes my time. So I’m looking for more ways to express myself so I stop looking for validation in unhealthy ways.

Obviously the whole point of androgyny is to look gender neutral, but I feel like there is a big difference between AMAB and AFAB most of the time. I’m a cis man but some of my biggest inspirations are FtMs and Non binary or gender fluid AFABs, I just like the way they typically have feminine and masculine traits. I feel like I want to look like them rather than most androgynous AMABs I see.

For my whole life I just felt a need to hide so many things about myself and now i feel like I’m not even living my own life. I want to be better at just saying what I think, being honest about things and being able to dress and act the way I want to.

I dont like to show off much skin tbh, mostly my chest but in general too. It’s weird because it’s not like I really have anything I’m supposed to hide, but I just feel a little bit exposed and uncomfortable. I’ve been thinking a lot about women’s swimsuits, like a one piece or something. I think that would cover up what I want but also look good on my body. Im wonder if this is a common feeling and if it might mean anything for me, any questions are appreciated.

I don’t really know where to post this but I want to see what people think about this. Recommend another sub if you know any.

I don’t think that I am trans. I am a male and feel like I’d rather be that, even if I dont feel like I fit in with most of them. But something that I keep feeling in my head is that, whenever I have to open up about myself or my personality, it would be easier to be a girl. cause its more acceptable to be shy and sensitive, which I guess I am. I don’t feel like i can really be myself. I also feel more drawn towards women as friends, since they are nicer and more accepting, at least thats what I think. And I like looking feminine in some ways, but not all the way or all the time. I guess that’s everything that fits here. But, yea, I don’t really feel a desire to change anything, but still I have this feeling, maybe it is dysphori?

So im guy, but lately I’ve been feeling either ambivalent or disgusted towards most men. when I see them complaining about something, I just get this feeling of fatigue, and I want to say like ‘grow up you fat ugly pussy’, when I would not say the same thing to a woman, I’d be much more sympathetic. what could this mean and how can I help it?

I’m a man, but I feel way less likely to sympathise with a man, compared to with a woman. it seems to be a severe unconscious bias

So im guy, but lately I’ve been feeling either ambivalent or disgusted towards most men. when I see them complaining about something, I just get this feeling of fatigue, and I want to say like ‘grow up you fat ugly pussy’, when I would not say the same thing to a woman, I’d be much more sympathetic. what could this mean and how can I help it?

I don’t really know where to post this but I want to see what people think about this. Recommend another sub if you know any.

I don’t think that I am trans. I am a male and feel like I’d rather be that, even if I dont feel like I fit in with most of them. But something that I keep feeling in my head is that, whenever I have to open up about myself or my personality, it would be easier to be a girl. cause its more acceptable to be shy and sensitive, which I guess I am. I don’t feel like i can really be myself. I also feel more drawn towards women as friends, since they are nicer and more accepting, at least thats what I think. And I like looking feminine in some ways, but not all the way or all the time. I guess that’s everything that fits here. But, yea, I don’t really feel a desire to change anything, but still I have this feeling, maybe it is dysphori?

I really need some help cause I dont see how I can even live my life this way anymore. I want to talk to people so much but everyone I know I either dont like or I’m too scared to bother them. I don’t know why anyone would ever care about me. I can’t really talk online anyway because I get so anxious in a call with random people. Posting in reddit is my only outlet but most of the time I get ignored. I just want to have some friends who I can be myself with, but I don’t think I even know how to make a friend.

Whoever im talking to, I just act completely differently to fit in. It can be so drasticly different it’s like I’m another person. And I don’t choose to do it all. At this point, I don’t know what I actually want to do for myself. I’m looking for any advice on how to feel more like myself again.