u/horrorfilmwatcher

I understand that white skin and blonde hair is the global standard, but black women can still be beautiful and white women can still be ugly. I feel like there’s no correlation but for some reason I keep seeing posts here that say being white makes you instantly beautiful, which isn’t true… the color of your skin or hair doesn’t change the attractiveness of your face or body. Everybody’s experience is valid

(I am not answering inappropriate questions and I am not responding to inappropriate comments)
Some background information in case there’s any questions on that: Im from Switzerland and study at an international school in Switzerland. I come from a high-income Christian family, but I am an atheist. Im 5'4 and weigh 92lbs, but Im trying to gain weight and workout twice a week.
Ask me anything related or unrelated to what I said as long as it’s not inappropriate.

On average, women have slower metabolisms, which makes losing weight a lot more difficult. Our maintenance intake is a lot lower. And, naturally, we are meant to store more fat. Yet, fat women are shamed more for being fat than fat men. And to reach the beauty standard we literally have to starve ourselves. I feel like women’s beauty standards are extremely harsh and even dangerous, specifically when it comes to this. While men’s beauty standards on the other hand are neither harsh nor dangerous. Literally. Be tall and somewhat muscular, and every woman will want to be with you. But, if you’re a woman, you have to be deathly skinny while still having a big ass and boobs to be with an average man. And don’t get me started on pregnancy and hormones, things that we have absolutely no control over but still contribute to our bodies.
Being fat / chubby as a woman should be more widely accepted, considering our biology. A man literally has no excuse to be fat.

It’s so sad how close to everyone misinterpreted my post. There are no hidden "intentions." I mean what I said, Im a woman myself. It’s sad how such a simple statement that every normal person should agree with triggers so much hate

How you interpret this depends on you. If you find body hair disgusting, you should find it disgusting on BOTH genders. And if you don’t, you shouldn’t find it disgusting on BOTH genders. Women and men are very different, but our body hair is literally the same. I hear many men say that "is is a preference." But then those same men should accept if a woman says the same about them. If you want a woman to shave, you shouldn’t have a problem if she wants you to shave as well. It can absolutely be a preference, but that preference should apply to both genders.

I don’t feel attracted to anyone at all. I don’t have any interest in romantic relationships, I rather avoid them. Im at an age where first relationships are very common, and everyone around my age seems to be at least interested in one. Girls talk about boys and boys talk about girls, which is pretty normal. But I don’t feel anything related to that at all. It’s not just about relationships, Im also not attracted to anyone sexually. I never really show interest in any kind of relationship, but specifically romantic ones are the ones I avoid the most

Sometimes people try to communicate and get closer to me, even when I show clear signs that Im not interested. I don’t necessarily feel bad when I reject them, but sometimes I wonder what we could’ve been if I was more open. I wonder what other people feel when they reject others.

We fear meaninglessness more than anything, hence why we created religion and other coping mechanisms. We as a society comfort each other from the truth, which disfigures our natural connection to it. Socializing is a way of manipulation to get you to fit into the norms that prevent you from realizing the truth and that we created as a society out of fear. You might think you are able to make individual choices or think independently, but that is not true in any case. We don’t have the ability to define ourselves in this society. Society defines us instead. Every choice you make isn’t based on what you truly want, it’s based on past experiences and actions that were influenced by everyone around you that lead you to this final decision in every universe. This disconnects us from the truth and our identity. We are undermining both through socializing, and given the modern circumstances it’s impossible to not interact with each other. We are being manipulated and controlled by each other without knowing and it’s all connected by the mutual fear of meaninglessness.

I cant think of a single thing I enjoy doing. I dont like anything. I used to, but everything seems so unenjoyable now. Whenever something "good" crosses my life I feel that it will be over very soon. Even if I try I mentally cant look at things from a positive perspective. In every situation, I address the negatives. Nothing can favor me. Nothing makes me happy. When people care for me, I feel that they waste their time. When I "achieve" something, I feel that I dont deserve it. Whenever I come close to forming a slightly positive thought I mentally destroy myself until I see no point in it anymore. Everything I say is stupid and everything everybody else says is also stupid. I have never heard words that made me feel something positive. Its like Im having a competition with myself to go beyond hatred until I cant even feel hate anymore.

I have a 25° C curvature that stretches pretty much across my entire spine, but especially in my lower back. I do physio therapy. I prefer not to go into detail about this, but due to lack of access in my area I don’t go to physio physio full time. Currently Im not doing physio and I will start again in a month or so, thats why Im asking here. Otherwise I would ask my trainer. Anyway, when I do exercises at home that my trainer recommended me my back sometimes hurts and feels really stiff. Some exercises I physically cant do because of the stiffness and I dont know if this is normal. My curvature isn’t severe, so Im just wondering.

Every time I speak everybody treats me like an asshole. No matter what I say it’s somehow wrong, or at least that’s what everybody thinks. My ideas are dismissed every time I talk about them and it has caused me to keep my opinions to myself a lot even if I do want to share them. I don’t know wether they’re too controversial or just wrong because nobody ever explains to me why, it’s like people are avoiding me. Everything I say is stupid. I would appreciate anyone listening to me, even if they don’t agree with me.

We were never meant to gain consciousness. Life is a coincidence, and there is no purpose in it. We are so incredibly meaningless in this universe, our disappearance will be earths greatest achievement. Birth rates dropping is a good thing. Im not saying that humans who are already on this planet should disappear, but we should actively prevent new humans from being born. Not just because we don’t have purpose, but also because humans are the most destructive species to ever exist. We should have never gained consciousness and we are a mistake