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two days in a row now where the game won’t load. is there a server issue or is it just me?

i started writing this new fic the other day on a whim. like i know what i wanted to write but the more i wrote, the more i strayed farther away from the plot and now i don’t know what to do or how to reach the point that i wanted to write about.

i’ve been diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and depression ten years ago when i was still in college.

my mental health has gotten better after graduating and returning home. once i started working, my anxiety is in the background while my depression was at an all time high but it calmed once i got used to work.

ever since last year, however, my anxiety and depression crept their way. ever since the beginning of the year, my anxiety is terrible. i’m losing sleep, i’m obsessing over my thoughts, i lose appetite but force myself to eat, constant nightmares, tricking myself into thinking i’m sick, that i might have ocd or that i’m bipolar, and so much more.

it feels like i’m going insane. as if i’m just waiting for that one trigger to split my brain in half.

i wish i can take anxiety medications but i’m scared. what if i’m an outlier and they don’t work? what if i get addicted? what if it makes my anxiety worse? what if i end up hurting myself? i have a friend who is a pharmacist who is against mental health medication.

the family clinic in our neighborhood has a psychiatrist that prescribes medication but doesn’t do sessions. i’d go see a therapist or another psychiatrist but they’re expensive.

i don’t know what to do anymore, i just want to live a normal life.

i’ve been diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and depression ten years ago when i was still in college.

my mental health has gotten better after graduating and returning home. once i started working, my anxiety is in the background while my depression was at an all time high but it calmed once i got used to work.

ever since last year, however, my anxiety and depression crept their way. ever since the beginning of the year, my anxiety is terrible. i’m losing sleep, i’m obsessing over my thoughts, i lose appetite but force myself to eat, constant nightmares, tricking myself into thinking i’m sick, that i might have ocd or that i’m bipolar, and so much more.

it feels like i’m going insane. as if i’m just waiting for that one trigger to split my brain in half.

i wish i can take anxiety medications but i’m scared. what if i’m an outlier and they don’t work? what if i get addicted? what if it makes my anxiety worse? what if i end up hurting myself? i have a friend who is a pharmacist who is against mental health medication.

the family clinic in our neighborhood has a psychiatrist that prescribes medication but doesn’t do sessions. i’d go see a therapist or another psychiatrist but they’re expensive.

i don’t know what to do anymore, i just want to live a normal life.

i portioned my cookie dough and they’ve been chilling for six hours. should i bake them immediately right out of the fridge or wait a bit until they’re at room temperature?

please read the tags carefully before reading the fic!

anyways, i was in the mood for some heavy angst so i wrote this demon slayer caleb and zayne au where y/n (you, the reader) is a demon slayer.

"They asked, "Do you love her to death?"

I said, "Speak of her over my grave and watch how she brings me back to life." -Mahmoud Darwish

To be honest, a lot of Mahmoud’s poems are 100% Caleb coded 🥹

Hi everyone!

I don’t know how to start this post but basically, i’m someone who doesnt wear a lot of makeup (i suck at it but i’ve come to terms with it lol). i mostly wear, mascara, lipstick, and sometimes i’ll have some blush or add concealer under my eyes and around blemishes.

anyways, i’m someone who loves red lipstick A LOT and i love to make it the main focus when i wear make up. however, when i apply blush, it doesn’t compliment my red lipstick because my blushes are pink. you can imagine how goofy i look when my cheeks are a bright shade of pink (even with blending) and an intense red lipstick haha.

so i wanted to know, are there any blushes that are suitable for red lipsticks?

I’ve been wanting to read bram stoker’s dracula for some time but i always hesitated since in one of the movie adaption, dracula renounces god and insults him even and that doesnt sit right with me. i did some research on the book but couldn’t find anything about. the book reaffirms christian beliefs and ideology from what i’ve gathered.

of course, the “god” in the book is the christian interpretation of “god” so it should be fine if i read dracula right? since i don’t follow christianity.

i always try to be careful of the media i consume to avoid sin so i would really appreciate it if you can help me with this.

I drink coffee on occasion (one cup a day, 3-4 times a week) and i always drink decaf due to my anxiety. now i know not everything is 100% decaffeinated but having a small amount of caffeine is better than a large amount.

when i accidentally drink caffeine, it triggers my anxiety and it makes it so much worse. the symptoms are usually physical and psychological. my heart beats faster, i’m cold and shivering, and my thoughts are loud and rampant.

now, i’m not trying to give you the evil eye or anything but people who drink coffee (some up to 3 times a day) how do you deal with all that caffeine? people say it makes them productive but for me, i become paranoid to the point where i cant focus on anything other than my thoughts 😩

i’ve been having nightmares for months now and i keep waking up with a panic attack. i don’t prefer taking medications because they freak me out and i’ve read some of them cause vivid dreams which isn’t something i want since they trigger me.

i tried going to the gym but i’m not disciplined enough so i only went for a few days. plus, i’m too tired to work out since i barely sleep.

therapy is too expensive and i can’t afford to see one every two weeks.

i try to distract myself with hobbies and activities but my nightmares won’t go away.

i’m so tired i don’t know what to do.

my newest hobby is baking.

i’ve read online that it can be relaxing but i always felt intimidated by it.

i gave baking ago and it’s honestly so much fun. of course, they don’t always turn out so great but i don’t feel disappointed.

have you taken up a hobby? what is it? do you like it? do you see yourself continuing it or do you want to try something else?

if you haven’t picked up a new hobby, what’s something you’d like to do? :)

I know that this might sound stupid but there is no harm in furthering one’s knowledge.

Anyways, I like to write stories. I make my stories very halal so no dating before marriage, characters are already married, no consumption of alcohol or products that contain pork, no intimacy, no profanity, etc.

My interest is in historical fiction and the supernatural. However, I worry is it haram to write about vampires?

In my story, the vampires aren’t akin to a higher being or anything like that, just an abnormal human being that drinks blood and has enhanced strengths and senses.

The vampire from my story is turning his wife into a vampire by making her drink his blood. That’s it.

But would that be considered haram?

Like I said, I always make sure to make my stories halal and research as much as I can before writing anything.

Please, serious answers only. Be kind if you can, please.

Thank you in advance!

Tags: F!Reader. Reader is not MC. No dialogue.

It's a sunny Saturday morning in Linkon.

The shades are drawn back giving the spacious living room a warm glow.

The smell of cinnamon and strawberry jam perfumes the air as music from the record player plays softly in the background.

Caleb and You are tangled up in a slow dance, gliding between the kitchenette and living room.

You have a joyous expression on your beautiful face while Caleb gazes lovingly at you, a soft smile playing on his lips.

It’s such a rare opportunity for the both of you to have a day off from your busy jobs. It's even rarer when you share that day together. The last time it happened was about two years ago.

Normally, You and Caleb would spend your days off sleeping in and just lazying about in your home; binge watching shows until your brains turn into mush while eating processed food to your stomachs content. Even though Caleb would, half heartedly, scold You for the unhealthy food you're consuming but he understands that, sometimes, it's what the soul craves.

Yet, today, you both woke up bright and early for some odd reason. With a burst of energy, You decided to make breakfast, which Caleb was hesitant about. You reminded him that it's his birthday and that this is part of his birthday celebration.

There's laughter in the air, accompanied by off-key sang alongs to the songs from the record player as you cooked in the kitchen while Caleb helped you out. As you ate breakfast, you played footsies under the table as you ate breakfast until you somehow ended up dancing.

Lost to the romantic lyrics of the song, engulfed in the warmth of your bodies, and the love filled gazes, the horrible and frightening world they live in is forgotten.

Right now, their only focus is one another. Work, responsibilities, and Wanderers come tomorrow.

Neither of you want this moment to end, wishing that you can relive this day until the end of time and beyond.

I’ve [31F] been dealing with this issue for years now.

Let’s say that last month, my first day of period was on may 1st. it usually lasts till may 7th. fast forward to june 1st, nothing. no period. no symptoms. nothing. i’d probably get it june 7th or it would skip a month (very rare).

my lab work is normal: no pcos (pmos), no thyroid issues, nothing. last year, it skipped a month because i was very stressed but it returned to normal when i was relaxed (by normal i mean by it coming late).

i’m not pregnant because i’m not sexually active.

my diet isn’t the best because i either go from heavy dieting to eating a lot of unhealthy food.

i started working out but i don’t do anything intense, just light cardio exercise.

i do have anxiety and i’m always over thinking.

when i tell doctors about my issues, they just shrug and look disinterested, like i’m just another woman who is needlessly worrying over something normal and i’m so tired.

I’ve [31F] been dealing with this issue for years now.

Let’s say that last month, my first day of period was on may 1st. it usually lasts till may 7th. fast forward to june 1st, nothing. no period. no symptoms. nothing. i’d probably get it june 7th or it would skip a month (very rare).

my lab work is normal: no pcos (pmos), no thyroid issues, nothing. last year, it skipped a month because i was very stressed but it returned to normal when i was relaxed (by normal i mean by it coming late).

i’m not pregnant because i’m not sexually active.

my diet isn’t the best because i either go from heavy dieting to eating a lot of unhealthy food.

i started working out but i don’t do anything intense, just light cardio exercise.

when i tell doctors about my issues, they just shrug and look disinterested, like i’m just another woman who is needlessly worrying over something normal and i’m so tired.

i’m an absolute beginner when it comes to going to the gym. i mainly use the treadmill and the bicycle machine. i have a program that tells me what to do (leg day, upper body, etc.) and i have videos on how to use the machines but i’m honestly too shy and embarrassed to use them. there are personal trainers walking around who offer assistance but i’m so hesitant. i want to lose weight and gain stamina but it’s all so intimidating that i just want to stick to cardio.

does anyone know what color does the embassy require for the photo id? is it blue or white?

first time og watcher. just finished season 5 and i’m so sad mikey’s gone (ik he was on another spin off) which is funny because the only reason i even picked up the og series is because of rey. i didn’t think i’d get so attached to mikey :(

tbh, i got attached to so many characters from the earlier seasons. i don’t think i’ll be ready for lennie’s departure 😞