u/kittyferns

I tried to post this last week but I missed the weekend timeframe by a few hours (it was still sunday my time but idk what timezone the bot operates on)

I basically hide an specificity about my disability online beyond "I'm disabled" because I'm scared I'll be fakeclaimed. Not exactly in the way of "oh you dont have insert thing" but in the way that I dont think fakeclaimers believe in my disabilities.
I have a few mental disabilites Idm bringing up, theyre pretty common so its relatively normal.
but I have 3 disabilites that I just hate bringing up online, I'm not ashamed to be disabled I'm just really scared of people. I'll refer to them as 1, 2, 3 if needed. 1 is a mental disability that I frequently see people say isn't real and I feel like if I ever bring it up I'll be told I'm exaggerating or it's not actually a disability... despite being partially hospitalized and DIAGNOSED with it. 2 is a physical disability, that while not widely debated on the internet (its fairly unknown despite being not too uncommon) I've heard stories of other people with the same thing I have being dissmissed by doctors so I don't want to take chances on the internet. 3 is a pychological condition, it isnt a mental illness, idk how to explain but I hope that makes sense. I haven't rlly seen discussion of it at all, but just the prospect of it makes it seem REALLY easy to fakeclaim and be disputed on its reality.
for 1 especially I feel rlly strongly about it and I hate seeing these people fakeclaim others, and I want to identify with it in a way... I mean it literally shaped part of my life so much. Apart from just the... being a disability... the treatment was hard and affected a lot in my life. It's a diagnosis under an umbrella term, and I do identify with that umbrella term, so sometimes I'm worried people will try and interogate it out of me.
So I'm just always vague unless talking about my "safe" disabilities. It sucks that disabilities can be "controversial" cause I do like talking about myself and if I felt safer I probably would bring them up.
Maybe I'm a little too pesimistic for assuming the worst if I post about myself, but I also am not that good at taking hate comments. So I don't wanna get hurt or risk it ig

like I guess I get the idea? Like "I'm glad you aren't using ai and enriching your natural talents" but like it just comes off either rude, or attention seeking.
like I see people like "its better than ai" "at least its not ai" and its like... you dont have anything better to say? I dont like it. "atleast you didnt make one of the worst things this couldve been" like yeah... not a compliment??
and I dont like seeing people say "is this better than ai?" while posting art either, it feels like attention seeking, especially in this sub or largely anti communities because... you know what the comments are gonna say? no the group of anti-ai folk arent gonna say your art is worse than ai.
third point is just that it feel self-diminishing to add to your own posts. I mean I cant stop you from degrading yourself but like its not nice to see. I think at any skill you should be proud of yourself in some aspects that arent just "I'm human"... yknow? I dont like seeing artists seemingly put themselves down, say that theyre better than the worst, which could mean theyre one of the best, but it also implies that theyre anywhere on that spectrum, and by comparing to the lowest point it feels like it brings you down further.

I think it mainly bugs me in spaces like these, anti spaces, because... theres no one to disagree with you? it feels weird and preachy, we've already decided ai bad and just saying "ai bad" again to people who already believe you isnt doing much. I dont mean like rants about ai or complex thoughts but just like simple and seemingly virtue signaling things like "is my art better than ai?" because no one in the anti ai subreddit is gonna give you an answer other than yes.

it also feels so repetitive its annoying, like surface level i just dont like seeing it so much.

yes your art is better than ai, its kind of a given.
idk change my mind maybe, I'm not super intent on this (im tired as hell maybe thats why)

I post on both tiktok and yt shorts, my tiktok account is doing significantly worse
I assume theres some tiktok trends I dont know about? I think I'd die if I scrolled on tiktok, it honestly scares me but I'm trying to advertise my shop.
so any popular tiktok sounds, trends, ideas? specifically for art content or something that can be used with art? I dont do animations so those are off the table but are there any trends I may not know about that I could do with my art? (digital but I have a few physical pieces I can use if needed)

suspected adeno from ultrasound, my doctor isnt persuing a diagnosis because it wouldnt change my treatment plan much.
I dont have a burner so please regard me as little as possible in relation to my other online presence.
idk what to do for pain. otc painkillers dont do jack shit, prescription 500mg naproxen only works for 4 hours (I have to wait 12h between doses), I'm on depo provera and norethindrone (still bleed and get cramps even when not bleeding)
I think the hardest part here might be the fact that I'm a minor, so no hysterectomy, no cbd, and I don't really want to do an iud unless its my last option. currently I use a heating pad, tho it leaves me unable to leave my room for long periods of time.
I'm gonna try negiotiating going up on my painkiller dose with my doctor, any other tips?