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I wanna try bjj actually but i have 2 disc hernia and that can be bad for my body. Idk how to grapple even i did boxing for 6 months. I do not feel safe in the street. If u say bjj is soo hard for the body, doing mma will be easier on my body than doing bjj? I dont want to be choked out or have my arm broken in a street fight for nothing. On the internet. Should I do mma instead of bjj? I always see people hurt themselves in bjj. Doing mma would be easier on me?

Krav maga is not useful? I wanna try bjj actually but i have 2 disc hernia and that can be bad for my body. I learned about krav maga but does it teach submissions and chokeholds? Idk how to grapple even i did boxing for 6 months. I do not feel safe in the street. I do not wanna choked out or have my arm broken in a street fight for nothing. On the internet I always see bjj coaches saying krav maga is not legit.

Yesterday I was crossing at a pedestrian crossing, and a guy started yelling at me and waving his arms around because he couldn't drive through because of me. Dude, what's the whole point of a pedestrian crossing then?

Also, my mom was trying to park the car and traffic was delayed for a minute. A taxi driver got out of his car and started shouting and waving his arms around angrily. People here seem really stressed and aggressive. Does this kind of thing happen a lot?

Yesterday I was crossing at a pedestrian crossing, and a guy started yelling at me and waving his arms around because he couldn't drive through because of me. Dude, what's the whole point of a pedestrian crossing then?

Also, my mom was trying to park the car and traffic was delayed for a minute. A taxi driver got out of his car and started shouting and waving his arms around angrily. People here seem really stressed and aggressive. Does this kind of thing happen a lot?

I cut my finger in the kitchen with a fruit knife. I washed the cut with water, applied pressure, and then used a hemostatic gel to stop the bleeding. After applying the gel, some blood seemed to remain trapped under the skin, as you can see in the picture.

My last tetanus shot was 13 years ago. Would that vaccine still provide any protection? Is there any risk of my finger developing gangrene? The blood did not come out because I had already applied the gel. Should I be concerned, or is this just a normal blood blister/hematoma?

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.

Hello, I'm 27 years old. I studied English language and teaching for 5 years. After I graduated I worked for 1.5 years. Then I did not work next 2 years, and I stayed at family home just to study for the government teacher exam. During this period I stayed in my family's house, and my parents expected me to pass this exam to be a government school teacher. What I did was just wasting my time with my phone and scrolling for hours. I even saw a maximum of 12 hours one day.

I wish I could have taken the years back I wasted. 4 years ago I graduated and still couldn't pass this exam. Social media and smartphones destroyed my life, and also, of course, porn addiction. I feel so desperate. I have only 42 days to study for my last exam. Idk if I could still pass the exam or not, but I will try to do my best.

I see myself like a failed man. Dad is stage 4 cancer, and I hate social media and smartphones. Because of them I wasted my years. I also try to do nofap and noporn to motivate myself but I feel so desperate you know.

Because of stress i have hemorroidhs now and anal fissure. Dad told me i had potential to pass the exam and settle down and make my life. But now he says just because i killed time with my gf and i chose to be lazy now i will have to bear the results if i fail exam. What should I do? I feel like my life will always be like that stuck in parents house failure man.

Dad says if he dies he doesnt think if i can survive alone. Cus if i dont work in government he does not think i will have a secure job and life. My brain freeze, i dont have any hope from the future.

What should I do? 10 years ago i had treatment from anxiety and social phobia. I used lustral for 2 years and xanax for 6 months. The reason i didnt study and procrastinate because I was lazy or deep down it is about mental health? Can you suggest me some books or videos? I dont see any light in my life especially after dad's diagnosis with cancer. When dad blames me for my laziness everything hits so hard. Idk if i can bear the weariness of life in the future.