is female friendship that complicated or my ego is just too high?
tldr: should i ghost my (former) college friend, or should i lower my ego and reply to her?
hi puans. hari ini aku di chat temen kuliah. dia udah lulus, aku masih skripsi. dia nanya apa aku masih lanjut kuliah.
i hesitate to reply, karena tiap inget masa kuliah, aku selalu keinget momen2 where i feel wronged? aku waktu aktif kuliah deket sama 2 orang, and they were way more close with each other than they were to me. like i was just tagging along with them
long story short, aku nge-cut off dua duanya karena aku merasa mereka udh ga peduli sama aku. since then, gaada yg chat duluan. until today
maybe because I'm neurodivergent, and i often miss social clues, and i think that made them pity me instead of building genuine friendship with me?
like we hung out pretty much everyday before they graduated, but i never felt close to either of them? i never think they saw me as their friend either. they know alot about each other, but not about me and vice versa.
and yet it hurts so much when i cut off contact with them. why is that?