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I’m proposing in 2 weeks, but have had a terrible ROCD flare up in the last week and now I don’t know if I should

Pretty much what the title says. Is it a bad idea to propose while in such a bad flare up? Am I having this flare up because of my proposal happening so soon??? I’m just so scared. This has been a common OCD theme for me, but it’s never been this intense. What if I don’t actually love my partner enough.

Everything is so loud, I feel like I’m in a crisis. How do I know which thoughts are reality and which are rooted in OCD?

I just got a new water fountain for my cat. It has the option to be plugged in or cordless. While I was setting it up, I read in the manual that the cordless dock is a lithium ion battery. I already have a fear of leaving my vacuum plugged in because I’m scared of the lithium battery exploding.

However, if you leave the dock unplugged, it only dispenses water if your pet is near. The only way for it to have a continuous flow of water is for the dock to be plugged in. I’m always so anxious about my cat’s health and I worry he won’t drink enough water (and then get a fatal urinary blockage or kidney disease) if I leave it on the motion sensor option, because with our last fountain water was always flowing and he seems drawn to it. But if I leave it plugged in what if it explodes

At this point I want to return the fountain because either option just leaves me in a spiral and terrified that it’s going to explode or harm my cat’s health regardless, but then I’m just giving into my obsession. I could go back to our old fountain, but it’s plastic and stainless steel is preferred due to plastic harbouring bacteria more easily.

I know that when I’m at work I’m going to constantly be checking my camera to make sure my cat and house is okay. I also can’t stop googling and researching. I feel so stuck and it’s making me so anxious.