u/wanderer-7077

I am 24 year old and life have been rough lately and I want to fix myself and be a better man. My Girlfriend left me because of my anger issues 3 months back and it is something I want to fix. I really want to be better. please help me out with it.

I go from 0-100 anger quickly and I get very angry and hit walls and physical sometimes, recently I have not been like this aftetr she left but I dont want such things to happen again. I dont want to hurt anyone. I have had a bad childhood and I grew up without a mother mostly and as a child I saw a lot of fights in my home and they were abusive and physical as well. My mom said a lot of bad things to me so i stayed with my dad, he didnt do anything wrong to me but he also has a short temper so I fight with him a lot too but I try to avoid it mostly. Please help me out.

I am 24 year old and life have been rough lately and I want to fix myself and be a better man. My Girlfriend left me because of my anger issues 3 months back and it is something I want to fix. I really want to be better. please help me out with it.

I go from 0-100 anger quickly and I get very angry and hit walls and physical sometimes, recently I have not been like this aftetr she left but I dont want such things to happen again. I dont want to hurt anyone. I have had a bad childhood and I grew up without a mother mostly and as a child I saw a lot of fights in my home and they were abusive and physical as well. My mom said a lot of bad things to me so i stayed with my dad, he didnt do anything wrong to me but he also has a short temper so I fight with him a lot too but I try to avoid it mostly. Please help me out.

I am 24 year old and life have been rough lately and I want to fix myself and be a better man. My Girlfriend left me because of my anger issues 3 months back and it is something I want to fix. I really want to be better. please help me out with it.

I go from 0-100 anger quickly and I get very angry and hit walls and physical sometimes, recently I have not been like this aftetr she left but I dont want such things to happen again. I dont want to hurt anyone. I have had a bad childhood and I grew up without a mother mostly and as a child I saw a lot of fights in my home and they were abusive and physical as well. My mom said a lot of bad things to me so i stayed with my dad, he didnt do anything wrong to me but he also has a short temper so I fight with him a lot too but I try to avoid it mostly. Please help me out.

My girlfriend broke up with me 3.5 months ago after being together for 2.5 years, and the pain feels like it's increasing more and more.

I hurt her a lot. I took her for granted. I messed up. She loved me genuinely and I acted like an asshole . It was my first real relationship, the first time I truly felt loved by someone. I had been with other women before her, but nothing even came close to what I had with her.

I grew up pretty messed up emotionally. My mom left when I was 2, my household was chaotic, I was never close to my dad, and most people I thought were my friends eventually left too. So I became used to being alone. But then she came into my life and loved me in a way I had never experienced before.

And I ruined it.

Since she left,I tried killing myself but I couldn't so I genuinely been trying to become a better person. I started therapy. I go for runs in the morning, gym in the evening, I’ve tried social gatherings, meeting new people, even hooking up, but none of it fills this emptiness.

this last 2 weeks especially, its hitting me hard. I miss her so much. I wish I could fix things. I wish I had realized earlier what I had. I keep seeing her everyday in my dreams, and i wake up she isnt there, I really dont know what to do, I cry randomly anytime of the day. I really dont know how to be better.

I feel alone. I feel like I’m drowning in regret and guilt all the time. I don’t know how to move forward when the person you hurt was also the person who made life feel okay for the first time.

How do you forgive myself when I was the reason I lost the person I loved the most?

My girlfriend broke up with me 3.5 months ago after being together for 2.5 years, and the pain feels like it's increasing more and more.

I hurt her a lot. I took her for granted. I messed up. She loved me genuinely and I acted like an asshole . It was my first real relationship, the first time I truly felt loved by someone. I had been with other women before her, but nothing even came close to what I had with her.

I grew up pretty messed up emotionally. My mom left when I was 2, my household was chaotic, I was never close to my dad, and most people I thought were my friends eventually left too. So I became used to being alone. But then she came into my life and loved me in a way I had never experienced before.

And I ruined it.

Since she left,I tried killing myself but I couldn't so I genuinely been trying to become a better person. I started therapy. I go for runs in the morning, gym in the evening, I’ve tried social gatherings, meeting new people, even hooking up, but none of it fills this emptiness.

this last 2 weeks especially, its hitting me hard. I miss her so much. I wish I could fix things. I wish I had realized earlier what I had. I keep seeing her everyday in my dreams, and i wake up she isnt there, I really dont know what to do, I cry randomly anytime of the day. I really dont know how to be better.

I feel alone. I feel like I’m drowning in regret and guilt all the time. I don’t know how to move forward when the person you hurt was also the person who made life feel okay for the first time.

How do you forgive myself when I was the reason I lost the person I loved the most?

My girlfriend broke up with me 3.5 months ago after being together for 2.5 years, and the pain feels like it's increasing more and more.

I hurt her a lot. I took her for granted. I messed up. She loved me genuinely and I acted like an asshole . It was my first real relationship, the first time I truly felt loved by someone. I had been with other women before her, but nothing even came close to what I had with her.

I grew up pretty messed up emotionally. My mom left when I was 2, my household was chaotic, I was never close to my dad, and most people I thought were my friends eventually left too. So I became used to being alone. But then she came into my life and loved me in a way I had never experienced before.

And I ruined it.

Since she left,I tried killing myself but I couldn't so I genuinely been trying to become a better person. I started therapy. I go for runs in the morning, gym in the evening, I’ve tried social gatherings, meeting new people, even hooking up, but none of it fills this emptiness.

this last 2 weeks especially, its hitting me hard. I miss her so much. I wish I could fix things. I wish I had realized earlier what I had. I keep seeing her everyday in my dreams, and i wake up she isnt there, I really dont know what to do, I cry randomly anytime of the day. I really dont know how to be better.

I feel alone. I feel like I’m drowning in regret and guilt all the time. I don’t know how to move forward when the person you hurt was also the person who made life feel okay for the first time.

How do you forgive myself when I was the reason I lost the person I loved the most?

My girlfriend broke up with me 3.5 months ago after being together for 2.5 years, and the pain feels like it's increasing more and more.

I hurt her a lot. I took her for granted. I messed up. She loved me genuinely and I acted like an asshole . It was my first real relationship, the first time I truly felt loved by someone. I had been with other women before her, but nothing even came close to what I had with her.

I grew up pretty messed up emotionally. My mom left when I was 2, my household was chaotic, I was never close to my dad, and most people I thought were my friends eventually left too. So I became used to being alone. But then she came into my life and loved me in a way I had never experienced before.

And I ruined it.

Since she left, I’ve genuinely been trying to become a better person. I started therapy. I go for runs in the morning, gym in the evening, I’ve tried social gatherings, meeting new people, even hooking up, but none of it fills this emptiness.

this last 2 weeks especially, its hitting me hard. I miss her so much. I wish I could fix things. I wish I had realized earlier what I had. I keep seeing her everyday in my dreams, and i wake up she isnt there, I really dont know what to do, I cry randomly anytime of the day. I really dont know how to be better.

I feel alone. I feel like I’m drowning in regret and guilt all the time. I don’t know how to move forward when the person you hurt was also the person who made life feel okay for the first time.

How do you forgive myself when I was the reason I lost the person I loved the most?