It says the Chem 1118 is "UBCV CHEM_V 1st (3), Not for credit in the Faculty of Science. Does not meet Chemistry 12 requirement for admission to the Bachelor of Science program."
Am I just doomed?
Like huh arent these things sexual? I'm still very confused can someone explain this?
I only did it to please my partner(and it wasnt even full sex), I'm pretty repulsed by it now. I realize I am not sexually attracted to anyone and the Idea of sex doesn't interest me. I have a PD(personality disorder) however and one of the main symptoms is lack of sexual attraction so my situation is a bit complicated. (most people with schizoid PD are cited as asexual, I say most cause there are exceptions)
I have experienced sexual trauma as well(grooming and abuse) and I am not sure If it contributed to me being asexual or if i was just like this. As a teen I used to be hyper-sexual due to that but now I have 0 libido and 0 attraction. Am I ace (I don't wanna be a larper)?
I realise that I am not attracted to anyone sexually despite having been in a relationship and having had some sexual experiences which I regret. I just realized that I might be sexually indifferent or maybe even averse especially after the experiences I have had.
Anyways idk what they call that but I don't wanna experience sexual things ever again. Idk if having had sexual experiences is valid(not sex never will do that unless I get married and want kids or something)but I hope y'all accept me into the community.
Do I exist or am I just a figment of another person's imagination. Am I just not real? Is this all a simulation.
If I don't exist why do people interact with me. I think I'm either dead and this is hell (I am paying for my sins) or I'm just going insane.
Truly a marvel. I have no clue about things and usually don't care. But figuring out if I'm alive seems like the best idea currently. I care about this for some reason.
On a usual basis I'd be like "who tf cares if I am dead" but right now I wanna figure out whether everyone around me is a demon in disguise and if I am actually in hell.Because it feels like it is punishment. Either that or I just don't exist.
If you're wondering how this relates to SzPD it just makes me feel more alienated from others and completely numb inside. If those others are real and not some sort of figment of my imagination anyways. I quite hope I am dead tho. Atleast then I can give up all my responsibility and finally give it a rest
Idk how i should style it, should i keep the flips or should i style it more inwards?
I'm sure some of you who've been to therapy and tried DBT as schizoids have found it really non helpful, especially since I'm stable emotionally now and that is all thanks to medication(I have cluster B traits) . But I cant just change my apathy, unemotionally and disinterest in people even tho it distress's me.
My therapist says that my disinterest in people is black and which thinking and that it's all or nothing and that I should just find balance between being able to feel connected and around people. But I don't want to anymore and I give up on trying to find connection cause it's not interesting to me anymore.
It was interesting for me for a while and I genuinely tried doing so and making friendships in what I called my "reemission period" but damn its so boring dude, nothing about it is interesting anymore and it's so repetitive and dull like most other things
The void within is calling I'd say and honestly I just wanna embrace who I am without being told it's problematic and people telling me that I am wrong.
I feel like the entire focus of my therapy was on my cluster B traits and now that those are better or kinda gone (aside from the void and emptiness but that's also a given with SzPD).
TLDR ; I want my therapist to stop focusing on my cluster B traits and Using DBT cause it's not helpful at all to me and help me manage my SzPD which I have mostly done on my own up till now
Lowkey might just quit therapy but it's a helpful vent every now and then.
My boss keeps scolding me for such schizoid things like being in my own world(or appearing like that, I'm usually focused and anyways other employees are in their own world as well and they're just better at hiding it, what do you even do on the floor other than talk to customers and just walk around) , not reacting to things and not taking her criticism well (or not reacting to that either, i just say ok)
I don't know what to do, I work in retail and it's killing me
It's causing me trouble and I'm scared I'm gonna get fired because i need this job to pay for university.
Tldr; how to stop being schizoid at work???
I've dated men my entire life but now have come to realize that I'm not just bisexual but a full blown lesbian...my parents are really homophobic however and I come from an Lebanese(haha get it) Muslim culture. I have basically forced myself to date men and now realise that I am not that into them, or not into them at all. I hate all the chances I missed with women my age (I'm a teenager still) and I regret all my blunders with men tbh. Most of my relationships with men have been extremely negative and I think that has also shaped my sexuality. (My last relationship he cheated on me and in my first I was groomed) Now I just don't feel anything towards men. I used to and it wasn't even normal feelings just feelings of being a parent to my partner most of the time. Is this normal and has anyone experienced this before?
Title basically,
I live in Vancouver BC and want to become a mortician or am considering this career path as a backup plan to my psychology degree because I heard there arent many jobs in the psych degree sector of things, what and how exactly do I apply to it and how do I even start
This is a reply to the post about a guy complaining how dating girls in Lebanon is hard.
I am here to offer a different perspective,
I am a young college girl(starting in september) who moved from Lebanon to Canada in my teens. Lowkey I haven't tried the dating scene in Lebanon or even tried dating Lebanese here because ya'll are so rare where I live.
But lowkey if you are a girl and don't want guys to use you, ignore you or just straight up tell you they will kill themselves if you leave just don't date outside your culture and don't date westerners unless you actually find a good guy which yes there are good guys out there but, most of them don't understand boundaries like no sex before marriage and no living together before marriage(if you have those boundaries at-least, I'd assume if you're a Lebanese girl you do but I don't want to Generalize) , they usually wanna "try you out" before marrying you.(Talking about western guys here)
Dating westerners is not better than dating Lebanese guys. I know Cause i've dated 3 guys outside of Lebanon and non of them respected my boundaries and wanted more, the last guy just started ignoring me after I set my boundaries (it seemed like he lost interest but didn't wanna break up). HOWEVER, I haven't tried dating Lebanese guys so take my advice with a grain of salt. Lowkey also heard bad stuff bout you guys from the girlies so idk tbh
TLDR; Dating scene is fucked everywhere not just Lebanon
I'm going into Langara psych and am trying to make friends before i get to college
Here are my courses next semester:
ENGL 1100
PHIL 1102
PSYCH 2320
What is the fastest route between those two rooms??? Or am I cooked to be late every time?
Any psych students going into psych this fall? Lowkey wanna make friends before going into college. I'm taking PSYCH 2320 and 2321 this year cause i've already got my 6 credits from AP psychology.
Broken up with my boyfriend for he was ignoring me which is surprising to me that I felt that way, maybe it is the simple human lust to be loved. He had been really warm then really cold the next second. He was not at all horrible but For me as a schizoid it's either I get suffocated by the relationship and leave or the opposite where there's nothing but desert and bare land which also causes me to leave.
And it went on and on and on, he ignored me for a while under the guise of being "busy" ,He just couldn't be bothered to put in any effort as-well, when I confronted him about it, he was cruel and called me rude.
What a shame.
Title , I usually am on abilify 7mg but take serqouel 25mg when I am feeling really euphoric so I don't crash and stabilize my mood. I also deal with explosive anger, so I was advised to take it then. I'm not officially diagnosed with bipolar or anything of the sorts. I was just curious if anyone has a similar diagnosis.
Anyone feel yearning for close relationships yet feels like it seems impossible to achieve. Like What the hell man. Am I doomed to a life of complete isolation even when around others?
I have friends(kinda) and a boyfriend(He's sort of never there tho, always busy.) yet i still feel like nothing can complete the void inside and that i'll be alone forever.
Alongside the avolition and the flatness of it all, the boredom and everything the loneliness strikes the worst. That and the anhedonia.
It feels like life is like no fun at all. My bfs think I'm depressed even tho i keep reiterating that I have Been diagnosed with SzPD not depression. He doesn't seem to understand what it is. I don't really know though since he's never there and it makes me sad because he's one of the few people I feel safe with.
Anyways I'll include a song that helps me regulate when I'm in this mood.
https://open.spotify.com/album/49ddZwRBCynKmER9GVzW9R?si=Zca5ZQfKQ_KJ81T71noMrg
Basically the title, they either hire people more experienced or just completely ignore my application, I've tried going up to them with my resume but not calls or anything.
I just graduated High-school recently. Do you need some sort of certificate for pharmacy assistant?
PSYCH 2320 Laura Adams
ENGL 1100 Caroline Harvey
PHIL 1102 with Rana Ahmad
Am i cooked? Or Am Gonna Cook?
I've played countless of instruments only to quit. I was a violinist at a young age but quit after 4 years of playing. I've played the sax , I've played the bass but none of them stuck.
I feel sad that I cannot stick to anything. I'm looking for hope at this point and maybe a teacher because I most of the time I quit because of lack of guidance and being stuck at a beginner level and not advancing at all.
Anyone else in my positon?