u/7livefastdieyoung

I lost my soul dog about two weeks ago. He was my whole world. I adopted him as a rescue, and honestly, some of the hardest years of my life were made bearable because of him. Near the end his dementia got so bad he'd wander the apartment at night and bump into everything, so I stripped my place down to almost nothing just so he wouldn't hurt himself.

Since he passed, my apartment turned into a disaster zone. I couldn't get out of bed for almost 12 days. Everything felt pointless. I finally forced myself to clean when a cockroach showed up (lol, thanks I guess), and I'm slowly getting back to functioning.

But now I keep thinking... I never want to go through this again. The grief feels too big. People keep telling me "you'll heal and want another pet eventually," but right now that feels impossible. It's not that I don't have love to give, it's that I don't think I can survive loving something that much and then losing it again.

Anyone else feel this way after losing a pet? Did it change, or is this permanent for some people?

I've lived a pretty rough life for a young person. I have had traumas, mental illness and many losses and grief.

and I've been making talking-head content where I show my face and speak in a foreign language about it.

It makes me so happy that people from all over the world are listening, relating to, and emotionally supporting me.

None of the people around me ever really understood. I think starting YouTube was one of the best decisions I've made.

Getting to know myself, journaling, and soul-searching to make these videos feels healing. Just wanted to share that. 😌❤️

Title says all.

I hate editing.

I had no idea editing would be this time-consuming and exhausting before I started YouTube. How do YouTubers with a 9-5 job even manage this??

I'm a face-reveal creator who's only ever made talking head content, and now I'm trying my hand at vlog-style videos for the first time and it's honestly kicking my ass.

Finding the right music is the most tedious part by far.

I guess editing gets easier with practice? My laptop's too weak to run DaVinci Resolve so I'm stuck using CapCut.

Got about 20% of my next vlog edited today.

Honestly I think just chipping away at it a little every day is the way to go. Man, YouTube is hard lol.

Hi everyone,

I'm a 29-year-old Korean woman living in Seoul, and I recently started an English-language YouTube channel.

I make all of my content in English because I share very personal stories about my life, including childhood domestic abuse, grief, and rebuilding my life. I simply don't want my family or relatives to be my audience.

I'm currently planning my third video (probably around 15–18 minutes).It's a very personal documentary-style video, so I want to put a lot of care into making it.

I'd love to work with someone who understands storytelling for an English-speaking audience, especially when it comes to editing and pacing/Korean culture. It would also be great to find a videographer in Seoul who has experience shooting cinematic B-roll and thumbnails.

My question is: where do people usually find editors or videographers like this? Are there any communities, websites, Discord servers, or networking events you would recommend?

I'd also really like to work with someone who won't judge the topics I cover. They're difficult subjects, but they're my real experiences.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!

I started this just for fun, but I'm not gonna lie... I’m starting to want more views and subscribers. I'm getting impatient, and honestly, I'm a little jealous of the creators in my niche who are already successful. I need to calm down and trust the process. Time to focus on quality over quantity.

Hi. I’m a 29-year-old woman living in Korea, and I have bipolar disorder and ADHD.

The problem is that I haven’t worked for the past two years because I was doing hospice care for my sick dog. I lost my soul dog. still grieving.. He passed away two weeks ago.

Next month, I’m going back to my online bachelor’s degree program, and I’m also trying to start job hunting again because I need money to survive.

The weird thing is… interviews aren’t actually the problem. I’m usually okay at interviews, and I often get hired. The real problem is what happens after I start working.

I’m terrified of being criticized, scolded, or corrected at work.

When you’re new at a job, of course you’re going to suck at first. Of course you’re going to make mistakes. That’s normal. But when a senior coworker or manager gives me harsh feedback, I feel an overwhelming amount of fear. It affects me way more than it should.

I was emotionally neglected as a child, and my father was abusive. So I keep wondering if this is connected to childhood trauma somehow. Maybe being corrected or scolded triggers something in me, and that’s why I react so strongly. I don’t know.

But rent, utilities, and basic living expenses are not going to wait for me to magically get better. I have to work. I don’t really have a choice.

Has anyone dealt with something like this? How do you keep working when being criticized feels genuinely terrifying? How do you stop reacting like a scared child every time someone is disappointed in you?

I’m honestly desperate for advice. Please help. I lost my mom at 11 and my dad doesn't talk to me.

Hi. I’m a 29-year-old woman living in Korea, and I have bipolar disorder and ADHD.

The problem is that I haven’t worked for the past two years because I was doing hospice care for my sick dog. I lost my soul dog. still grieving.. He passed away two weeks ago.

Next month, I’m going back to my online bachelor’s degree program, and I’m also trying to start job hunting again because I need money to survive.

The weird thing is… interviews aren’t actually the problem. I’m usually okay at interviews, and I often get hired. The real problem is what happens after I start working.

I’m terrified of being criticized, scolded, or corrected at work.

When you’re new at a job, of course you’re going to suck at first. Of course you’re going to make mistakes. That’s normal. But when a senior coworker or manager gives me harsh feedback, I feel an overwhelming amount of fear. It affects me way more than it should.

I was emotionally neglected as a child, and my father was abusive. So I keep wondering if this is connected to childhood trauma somehow. Maybe being corrected or scolded triggers something in me, and that’s why I react so strongly. I don’t know.

But rent, utilities, and basic living expenses are not going to wait for me to magically get better. I have to work. I don’t really have a choice.

Has anyone dealt with something like this? How do you keep working when being criticized feels genuinely terrifying? How do you stop reacting like a scared child every time someone is disappointed in you?

I’m honestly desperate for advice..Please help. I lost my mom at 11 and my dad doesn't talk to me.

Hi redditors, I’m a 29-year-old woman living in Korea, and I have bipolar disorder and ADHD.

The problem is that I haven’t worked for the past two years because I was doing hospice care for my sick dog. and I lost my sould dog. still grieving.. He passed away two weeks ago.

Next month, I’m going back to my online bachelor’s degree program, and I’m also trying to start job hunting again because I need money to survive.

The weird thing is… interviews aren’t actually the problem. I’m usually okay at interviews, and I often get hired. The real problem is what happens after I start working.

I’m terrified of being criticized, scolded, or corrected at work.

When you’re new at a job, of course you’re going to suck at first. Of course you’re going to make mistakes. That’s normal. But when a senior coworker or manager gives me harsh feedback, I feel an overwhelming amount of fear. It affects me way more than it should.

I was emotionally neglected as a child, and my father was abusive. So I keep wondering if this is connected to childhood trauma somehow. Maybe being corrected or scolded triggers something in me, and that’s why I react so strongly. I don’t know.

But rent, utilities, and basic living expenses are not going to wait for me to magically get better. I have to work. I don’t really have a choice.

Has anyone dealt with something like this? How do you keep working when being criticized feels genuinely terrifying? How do you stop reacting like a scared child every time someone is disappointed in you?

I’m honestly desperate for advice. Please help. I lost my mom at 11 and my dad doesn't talk to me.

Please tell me I am not too late. I am 29 year old woman from Korea and will be a freshman soon. I applied for online bachelor's degree course and I got accepted.

Hope it is not too late. Well even it's too late I still need this degree.

I am starting adulting. Lol

I uploaded my first YouTube video two days ago and somehow gained 50 subscribers already, which honestly surprised me.

The video has a little over 500 views now, and I’m still filming everything on my smartphone , I don't even have MIC. I’m a total beginner, so I’m trying not to get too excited and spend money too early, but I also feel like I might need a small camera like an Osmo if I want to start making vlogs properly.

For those of you who have been doing YouTube for a while, when did you start investing in gear or paid editing software?

Did you wait until your channel grew more, or did you buy equipment early on? Also, roughly how much did you spend at that stage?

I honestly thought it would get 0 or 1 view

I was like "who will even bother to click this video?"

I am truly grateful for 168 views lol this is my first video and It sucks honestly😂 I just sincerely enjoy talking about my life and am glad there are people listening to my life story!