u/Accomplished_Cow1277

Hello! I am a 20 (F) person suffering from Bipolar Type 2 and ASD.
I attempted at the age of 10.5 and failed, I was baker acted at 17 and diagnosed at 18.
Feel free to ask about the effects of it in my life and how I got to that point.

(I am now recovered and no longer have SI, this is in no way a post to glorify Suicide)

I had two nights ago confessed to my father that I feel bullied in my family.
It is a constant that I cause argument's on the table, that my behavior and traits annoy them and constantly get corrected, as well as how my own interests/overall wanting to bond is rejected/made fun of or criticized.

I thought maybe this conversation would open their eyes, they have seen with both my sisters how heavily they mistreat me, weather it is not tolerating anything I say no matter what it is, or straight up choosing to ignore me.

Today I had planned to go to a coffee shop and study, which is just two light stops away from our home. I realized that I had accidentally swapped out my moms card with mine and drove back to return it and get mine. It turned into a big deal, it got so bad my father accused me of trying to steal it. They wen't on to say I speak too excited when trying to explain what I am doing and that it make things suspicious (for context i used to have kleptomania but was cured after treatment for Bipolar Disorder).

My father escalated things and even threw a coffee pod at me, I dont get it, I thought I did something nice by returning. They just made a big deal out of them not understanding me. They then said all I had to do was call them, but when I call them they complain that I shouldn't always call for such minor things, so I didn't know what to do.

I sit here in my room sobbing now so tired and not knowing what to do anymore, I want to finally transfer College so I can move out.

Ok so for context real quick; I am Bipolar 2 and have ASD.

This girl, we will call her V, has spent her WHOLE high school experience trying to diagnose herself with an array of mental illnesses.
She's the kind to lean so far right, the kind to think having a disability is somehow a benefit and mental illness is something to flex.
I literally cut her out of my mind until recently when I was told she (and I quote) "Celebrated beating you in how many mental illnesses/disabilities she has now".

I am like confused? why would you celebrate that?
Genuienly anyone else have odd experiences with these kinds of people?
from my experience they tend to come from households that are stable in some way.

I (20) have recently had deep discussions with both my parent's
Recently my eldest sister has come home from University having graduated and now the dynamic trio (my sisters and I) are back together, and they have started noticing how bullied I am in the family dynamic.

I was only diagnosed at the age of 17, my parent's having tried getting a diagnosis since I was a kid but never getting anywhere. I have two sisters (I am the middle child) and many times do they gang up on me.
Individually they are amazing people, but even then I walk on eggshells. If I can't read my elder sisters silence then she gets mad, and is very sarcastic so I cannot even understand her comments half the time.
My younger sister is very moody and in that age where she doesn't want anyone or anything and just be with her friends, but even with me does she feel I am annoying and sometimes makes comments that make it sound like I'm a burden.

I will be honest, I struggle with my voice/tone. I talk in a very 'matter of fact' tone when talking of anything and my family (aware of this) take it the wrong way. Even if I talk about a personal experience of something I have studied do they take it with a grain of salt/and or doubt it.

I have opened up to both of them of my frustration with the family. How my behavior, comments, and interests are constantly ridiculed by them. A good example was that we were at the mall and I said 'ok I will go to (enter store here)" only for them to say "no, we wont split off" and tell me not to go etc, only for us to split off later, and I of course sticking to one of them. By the end I just stated that I would go to the mall (nearest to our home as we were far) and go shopping myself, they then said why I even said that and that we were right there near the store I wanted to be at (even tho they said no clearly).

With my sisters I can't make too many jokes, comments, or even say a word that isnt a compliment or an answer to a question they ask. With my parent's all I say is taken as a doubt.
What made my mom and dad realize that I was bullied and misunderstood was when I (recently) cut my hair, I asked my little sister what she thought, only for her to say; Stop fishing for compliments.
I take my families comments on my looks seriously as its the only thing I can fully control of how I present myself to others (without my behaviors showing).

Both my mom and dad have suddenly opened their eyes and now know how much I've been hurt by this family, how I walk on eggshells and how I GENUIENLY am trying. I feel like I am paying for a crime I am not aware I'm committing, and they are just NOW getting it.
Honestly it's good to start now than never.

I 20 (F) have been an online community college student for the past year.
I have stayed home and attended CC due to the fact I was severely bullied, mis-diagnosed, and late-diagnosed during middle/highschool.
I am now just starting a transferring process and (hopefully) will transfer out of home into a university campus.

During the week I go once to the mall, every week changing them (all of them are about 20-40 minutes away with no highways). My mother has become frustrated that my only activity is the mall and that I do not have any hobbies other than studying, and the fact that I don't have friends either (just about two but they live far/don't have a car).

I recently got into an argument with her over it. My eldest sister came back from University after 4 years of living 5 hours away in a heavy Uni Student City, everything was walking distance and lively. My sister and I HATE this suburban city we live in, everything is far. A walk to a Dunkin here takes 25 minutes under the hot Florida sun, theres no third spaces, and if you graduate you loose all your High School friends because they end up moving as far away as possible due to the fact we no longer have to force one another to socialize in this small backstabbing community of ours.

I spoke clearly to her the lack of third spaces, she told me I should go to the gym, but nobody goes to the Gym to make friends. If you mess up socially you might;
A. Get recorder
B. Laughed at/Ignored.

I tried making friends in my College campus but everyone lives in the area around it while I live 25 minutes away. I especially am NOT allowed to drive on highways, and have to take the side-road which takes longer to go anywhere. The Hobbies here in my community are EXPENSIVE, and have only old people partaking in them, and I want to meet people my age.

She got mad saying how she doesnt want her kids here anymore and how we should all move away, when she has stated clearly she wants to retire IN THE CITY because theres more things to do there.

I have had my cousin (who lives in a major countries capitol) say how she would "hate living where I live" because you can't do anything and need a car. I truly hate it here, the people, the environment, the boredom.

My mom says we have it easy but we dont! We have it isolated and boring! all modern Hobbies are just money spending with no return, everything costs money unless you have friends nearby who you can chill with at their place/or a park, and in florida its IMPOSSIBLE to even stay in a park as the heat and humidity kills you. The beach is an hour away and you need to now pay parking EVERYWHERE, I am genuinely stuck.

So yea mom stay mad, I hate it here.

I have noticed when talking online and with others (family and friends) that many of us women have come to the same conclusion; Having children doesn't benefit us as much as it does men.

I mean overall, majority of the work in the household falls on the woman, who also works, and atop of that is behind the childrens doctors/schoo/dentist appointments etc.

My father (thank god) is someone who believes in 50/50 work for raising kids, my mom does majority doctors appointments, but my father drives us, knows what meds we take, our medical history and can overall talk calmly with doctors.

Both parent's have gone to teacher conferences, both have done massive work in the house with cleaning and cooking, etc.

But I have noticed with the rising movement of conservatism that the demand for 'women to stay home' has in a way ruined a big portion of the dating pool.
I want personally a single child (a daughter), and want a household where I can work and do chores ALONGSIDE my husband. But it feels impossible now! So many of these *boys* want us to do all the work, while they do not know how to change a lightbulb (dated a guy who was scared to get electrocuted, told him to turn the light off when changing the bulb).

would love to hear from both sides. I don't like to use pill labels on myself personally as the overall Red Pill, Blue Pill allegory is insanely inaccurate from the movie its based on. (taking the red pill literally made Neo wake up AKA woke).

Hi, I recently decided to get back into pokemon go, turns out my old email for it was hacked and all the information to access it has been changed. I am so depressed because of it. I had pokemon I caught in all of my travels abroad europe/asia and wish to get it back. Any tips?

I recently became friends with someone who has a connection to an old friend of mine who ghosted me after quarantine.
I was heavily bullied in middle school, and early highschool. I was never stood up for by those in the group I was in who didn't directly target me, and had many of my character traits exaggerated in rumors.
I was a mentally ill undiagnosed autistic kid, and it didn't help that I was in a group that knew I truly had an issue.
During 2021 I was kicked out of the group, nobody standing up to me, and everyone around that group ended up cutting me off, nobody explaining why, nobody saying if I messed up.

Recently I befriended a person who is so kind and understanding, having heard from word of mouth that that group overall was problematic. I am not proud of who I was back then, but It was a reaction to the constant online/offline bullying I was subjected to.
I was told to 'kys' and sent p*rnographic images of my favorite characters. Even small things like being in a minecraft server and having my things griefed and the admin (someone in the group) refusing to apply the rules (no griefing) to those who griefed me.

This new friend is best friends with this person who ghosted me, turns out they left because someone in that group (who bullied me badly to the point of me having to bake-ract) had exaggerated some of my actions and told them to cut me off.
I am now a 20 year old with only two friends doing online school so I can transfer.
But through this person I was able to notice who lowly my bullies have it now, they are miserable too, doing whatever they want in an impulse; cheating, drugs, etc.

I feel sad that this friend that ghosted doesn't want to rekindle anything with me, when in my eyes we never even ended things on a bad note, truth is they know my side of the story but don't want to acknowledge me.

This really opened my eyes as to why no one liked me, this group had spread so many twisted lies about me that it left me subjected to others judgement without them knowing me. I have had so many people surprised that I am not as described by others, which hurts because I was a hurt kid back then. I just want a second chance.

I have recently read on the case of Liberty Rowan Hall who took her life at the age of 10 because of constant bullying in her grade.
I was also 10 when I attempted and failed.
I do not care for a child's age and the fact they 'dont' know any better', bullying kills, and a slap on the wrist does nothing, if you bully someone to death no matter what age you should be treated as a killer, simple point blank. And if the victim reports you, you should be persecuted for harassment and abuse.
I was 10 and bullied for years before that, I had my hair cut, chairs covered in glue, and isolated by classmates no matter what country I went to.
I am very biased in this but having been a victim I believe its just.