u/Acrobatic-Attention9

Happy 4th. Some of us won't be having a backyard bbq but at least we had bbq pizza.

By far, my favorite thing about weight loss has been taking long walks. For most of the past year, I've been walking to work, two and a half miles or so to work, between the hours of roughly 11 to 12, in the Florida sun. And walking back at night. It's given me plenty of alone time, you know? Time to listen to music or audiobooks, time to play with my phone, time to just zone out and focus on my thoughts.

At night I would often just take walks another couple miles down a pretty empty sidewalk where almost nobody goes, especially at night. It's relatively peaceful by the woods. Just taking long walks. A lot of the time I would put extra weight in my backpack or something. For a while I was wearing a weighted vest, but I stopped doing that.

The routine had been get up at 10, leave at 11, arrive at 12, work retail on my feel until 9:30, eat dinner, walk home, feed the cat and get high, then go walking until 2 then shower and go to bed. Once a week, usually Friday I'd walk home with a bottle of liquor, that's fun. Gives me something to spend the week looking forward to. On my days off i mostly did a lot of nothing tbh and didn't always even walk.

Lots of alone time, and I feel the need, especially at night, to just yell and scream and nobody can hear me. You know, I can do whatever I want. I'm all alone. Even if there's people driving by, they don't really notice me. Although people do comment on me, just seeing me walking to work in the heat. By their standards, I guess what I'm doing is difficult. I get these teenagers, you know, the baggers and stuff at work, that complain about getting the carts in the heat, half my size, half my age, being out, you know, in shorter stints. I'm not unsympathetic. They should be allowed to have those fans again on their shoulders, but management won't let them, apparently, which is stupid. It could be dangerous. But I feel like a hard-ass, that I can do something most people would find difficult.

And, you know, I see birds, I see bunnies, I see armadillos, you know? Pick up hawk feathers off the ground for my hat, which is not legal. So I'm 🎶 breaking the law, breaking the law. You don't know what it's like, you don't have a clue. If you did, you'd find yourself doing the same thing too. 🎶 i like wearing my Stetson panama style hat. It helps a lot and i think it looks cool. I like covering my saggy body with cool clothes even if it's just a facade.

But it's really, once you get past like 250 pounds, it's not a very efficient way of losing weight. You're spending a lot of time, but you're not really losing that much weight. It's only helping your lower body. It's very inefficient, especially because I walk slow. I do everything slow. So I'm not gonna be doing it as much anymore. It's a waste of time. I'll be going to the gym more and spending more time on the elliptical, and not walking to the gym. I need to start driving or maybe get a bike or something.

So I'll be missing it. You know, I think I'll be doing it a lot. I'll go back to walking to work when I'm done losing weight one day. Because I got nothing better to do. It gives me something to look forward to besides buying myself stuff. As soon as Im done losing weight I can just do nothing but take long walks. Sounds kinda nice. Nicer than vague notions of health, that is to say other people approving of my redemption arc, that I'm supposed to be motivated by.

Probably, I guess, is kind of the closest thing I've got to a hobby, besides just playing with my phone. I've been using, actually, if I'm honest, walking as an excuse not to do anything I need to be doing, instead just spending hours doing nothing or playing on my phone. Which is just as well. I guess since weight loss means I'm gonna have to be living longer, I have a lot more time to do nothing, right? Nothing better to do to kill the time.

It's all I really feel like doing. So it's nice walking, taking long walks, even if it's not the best way to lose weight. And it's definitely my favorite thing about losing weight, by far.

Obviously it wouldn't say F--- it would actually say the word. I don't swim so nobody will see it... almost.