u/AviBledsoe

OK storytime.

I have been bi well, forever. I'm 18, male. Pretty much since I was young, I loved beautiful people and cute people, soft features. Honestly. Whether they were a boy or a girl, I genuinely did not care. I vividly remember at 7 or so, having crushes on ppl with long hair. I'm Black. I genuinely liked ANYONE with euro features too, silky blonde hair, Ocean eyes, freckles (especially). Nevew was or is atteacted to muscles and beards, although pretty features I always liked. I always wanted long hair as a kid, I remember being forced to get haircuts and stuff (which I did not like) although I vividly remember finding both boys and girls pretty (wasnt a sexual thing).

But I also knew that men and women got married, and that boys kissed girls. So I never considered the idea of the same sex kissing, or men having a baby. I was dumb enough to not know what vaginas were until 9, and then a year later I had "the talk" when discussing why certain outlets and fittings are called "males and females".

As I was a young kid, I was also very specific and had niche interests, although i have never once heard of "gay" "lgbtq" or the Rainbow flag for Any of that matter at all. I just knew I found most girls very pretty and attractive and I also thought boys with soft or glowing features and nice messy hair, curly hair were cute to me.

I was never a "stereotypically gay" person. Stereotype as in liking girl music, gossip, nails, makeup, dolls, etc. The most feminine thing I think I done as a kid was play with kitchen sets in preschool and kindergarten. But I genuinely don't understand how that influences your sexual attraction to people anyways.

I only ever dated and really liked girls for the most part, and I was most definitely only sexually attracted to women. I had aesthetic attraction or romantic attraction to boys so back then I knew internally that I was "open to both" I just never told anyone. I kind of knew instinctively that boys DONT date boys and the idea of them kissing is strange and disliked by people.

The first time I found out about "Pride" was around 11 when I saw it on the news, and I was like "Mom, what is gay pride?" And she was like "oh its just men who like men which isn't something you should experiment with, and you'll be judge heavily if you like anyone other than girls. So then I fully understood. I never even heard of gay marriage or nothing like that and also was very confused why certain characters in TV shows would have 2 moms or 2 dads, genuinely believed it was 2 friends who adopted a child because it would be cool.

The first time I REALLY knew I was Bi was at 14 because one one of the baseball teams I played for there was this hispanic boy with a very soft, round, slightly plumpy face with long, shoulder length hair. I instantly started freaking blushing and stuff but I knew obviously I wasn't gonna try to admit that to him. But after that I definitely knew I liked boys in at least some way.

Homophobia definitely exists in some of my family. Eventually convinced them to grow hair long at 13. (Tons of images on my profile)

I'm 18 now, honestly, I'm not into boys THAT much and I'm not a fanatic of penis or whatever, but I definitely am open to having a boyfriend. Also to mention is since 15 I've been exploring polyamory and I eventually balanced it out to a few girlfriends. I definitely do possibly want some Boyfriends in the future. I'll share experiences when I get one.

(If you wanna know my type here's some examples:) 2hollis, Rommulas, Lumixathena, Felix (Stray Kids), Jeonghan, Elijah Lynn Langston, Tillyou_Fallasleep on Tiktok, Mossysocks, Harry Styles (shaved), masonmoser_, Fernando Casablancas.

OK I know I yapped for a long time here but if anyone got to the end of this story, let me know what you think, tell me your type, share your own stories!

1. Wir sind Die Roboter (1978)

2. Computer World (1981)

3. Neon Licht (1978)

4. Radioactivity (1975)

5. Europe Endless (1977)

Honorable Mention to Das Model.

Lots of photos and newspaper photos from 1970s/1980s in black and white, some 1990s photos in black and white. Even have a few images from 2000-2002 in black and white and/or very faded colour. Did Black and white Photography get replaced in color in 1970s? With cheaper cameras? Or did "digital and video cameras" start making everything in camera. Is it a price thing, similar to how some Schools print photocopy assigned in B/W?

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I'd like to hear some stories and/or answers on when film or digital photography became overwhelmingly color.

Some songs I can think of that sound a "semi-step" up is

Show Me How - Men I Trust

Here Comes the Sun - The Beatles

Psycho Killer - Talking Heads

All of these songs are written in the key of A (for example) and by listening to them they sound slightly sharper than a 100% 440hz tone, also I heard the beatles songs are sharp because of a faster record mix?