u/BigMike3333333

I was a part of a certain subreddit, and was recently banned. The reason why I was banned was simply because I had a disagreement with one of the mods who run it. All I did was ask the mod questions about their position. And when they couldn't back up their claim, they got upset about it and banned me. They removed the original post and banned my account from the sub. And when I got a message from the mod mail that I had been banned, I was understandably, very angry. I'm only including what I said so you can decide how bad it is. But I called out the mod in the mod mail by name and said that he was a butt hurt cultist. I also said that he only proved me right, because instead of proving me wrong, he had to ban me. That's all I said, and although I don't regret that I said it, I'm wondering if this could count as harassment. I have no intention of sending them anything else. So do I need to be worried about them trying to get me banned from all of reddit for that. Or am I in the clear. Because I only found out about that being a possibility after the fact.

I do believe that demons exist and I do believe that demons can oppress people. But with that said, I think deliverance ministers in the deliverance ministry take things too far. For one, most do not believe that any follower of Christ should take psychiatric drugs. They think that it 'alters the soul', and that it's Pharmacia. So if you're a Christian that needs these drugs to stay mentally stable, these guys think that you're sinning. A lot of them also believe that you can't watch certain shows, or play certain games because they think you're opening a door to demons. But I think the thing that bugs me the most, is speaking so firmly and authoritatively about things they cannot possibly know.

For example, there are some of them who believe that there's an octopus spirit and that there are marine kingdom spirits that can mind control us. However, when we ask basic questions about this, it starts to fall apart really quickly. Such as, how do we know if there's an octopus spirit? Where in the Bible does it mention that there's an octopus spirit? Did a deliverance minister just make up the concept, and everyone just accepted it as the truth? Because when I asked one of the mods about this on the deliverance subreddit, they completely folded. No pressure at all, just completely folded. Please do not harass anyone on there, but it was just something I noticed and it was concerning. So what do you all think? Am I in the wrong, or am I not the only one who feels this way?

It's been very hard for me to stop hating on them because part of me views them as being a dangerous influence on others. And that part of me feels so strongly about this, that every time they try to spread the gospel or tell someone about Jesus, I want to confront them about it. I want to tell them to stop giving people false hope, to stop setting them up to be disappointed, and most of all, to stop lying to them. They try to convince people that God and Jesus can solve all their problems no matter how bad it is. But if or when it doesn't happen, then they move the goal post. Then they start saying things like 'Oh just keep at it. It'll happen soon, we swear.' Or if something bad happened that was especially egregious they might start saying things like this. 'What? you thought the all powerful God we serve was actually supposed to intervene. Do you know what happened to Job? Don't you know that Christians are supposed to suffer. Don't you know that he left Israel to be enslaved for 400 years and that's just something they had to go through? How dare you actually believe the snake oil we're peddling here and actually expect God to answer your prayers. God can do whatever he wants. He is and will forever be all good.'

There's also the black and white thinking they constantly engage in. That there are no other valid methods of spirituality except Christianity and all others are of the devil. Or if you have a problem, and nothing else is working, to hear them say that Jesus is the only way! I think that one might bug me more than the rest, because I gave him a chance before and nothing happened. I just don't want anyone else to be as disappointed as I was I guess. Especially because you have to submit to all of their dogmatic rules, but so many people like myself just won't receive any real benefit. And then all the cognitive dissonance that comes from science disproving a literal interpretation of the Bible. It's nothing but downsides, but I digress. So has anyone else gone through this? Has anyone else been able to stop hating Christian fundamentalists?

I'm still learning about IFS therapy from the Self-Therapy book by James Earley and it's been pretty good. I have been having success with letting go of a lot of anger and phobias with IFS so far. I've also been doing pretty well at reframing things for my parts. That is, until it's time to deal with my porn and masturbation problem. When I ask about it, I start getting very nervous and even restless. Almost like I can talk about everything and anything else with my parts, except that. And it makes me very upset. Part of me wants to give up the porn for good, and another part of me is addicted to it. But it goes deeper than this. Because I also suffer from tactile hallucinations that have been very sexual and can even keep me up at night. And one of the triggers that started it was wanting to give up porn and masturbation a little over 3 years ago. So is this a part of me that just really doesn't want to stop looking at it, or is this possibly a demon or something? What's going on and what exactly should I do about this?

One of my parts felt that I was unworthy of love because I was broke and poor, (as a kid). Always having to sacrifice and just watch other kids get to enjoy the childhood that that part of me wanted to experience. I comforted this part of me, and imagined giving him all the games, money, and opportunities that he missed out on as a kid. And he was amazed and content with that. But in real life, I'm still pretty broke at the moment, but I wanted to change my language so I don't fall back into old thinking habits. However, it feels like I also have to try to ignore reality so that I don't sabotage working with my parts, which are (presumably) watching my experience too. But it's kind of challenging. Has anyone dealt with this problem, and how have you dealt with it. Or am I just overthinking this?

In 2023, I had gone through a lot of trauma, but I knew that I had to force myself to get a job. And it seems like there was a part of me that didn't want to work. These kinds of thoughts would come up all the time when I was trying to apply for work. 'Oh you'll have to deal with a wage garnishment.' 'Oh, it's going to be so boring that I'm just going to want to end myself.' 'I'm not even getting paid a living wage, so why bother.' 'I don't want to work, I want to play.' I pushed through it anyway, and applied to several jobs and got a job interview. But conveniently, before I could go to the interview, I had started to develop tactile hallucinations which exhausted me. And because of that, it made me have to shift my focus to dealing with them over getting a job. They are a problem that can keep me up at night, even with medication. I have been to a psychiatrist about this, but their medications didn't work. So, what do you guys think.

There's a part of me that feels deeply hurt and offended that God isn't the protective father I've always wanted him to be. Back in 2019, I read through the Bible hoping to get closer to God, but instead the opposite happened. I became completely unhinged and ended up going through full blown religious psychosis. Thankfully, I was able to be snapped out of it, but it had nearly cost me my life. And after that happened, my faith has never been the same.

It reminded me a lot of when I was little, and my mom was always begging, pleading, and crying out to God for the things we needed to survive. How she had to suffer and writhe just waiting and hoping that maybe something would happen. It was just so pathetic to watch. And to make things worse, she even made me a part of it. She made me cry out to God for help too, with her. And in the back of my mind, all I can think of is that this God must not truly love us. This God must get a kick out of watching us beg for our needs to be met. It disgusted me even as a kid, and in 2019 it just brought it all to the front of my mind and made me start to hate God. That he's the ultimate dead beat dad humanity could possibly ask for. But I feel like I must let this go. I just don't know how, because all of the excuses someone could make for this, just don't resonate with me at all. Has anyone else felt this way before? And if you did, how did you break free of that hatred?

The experiment where 8 people imagined a thoughtform into existence with a fake backstory. And this thought form was powerful enough to move a table. Has anyone ever wanted to try something like this again? Has any group of people ever successfully done it again? It just sounds so damn cool don't you think.

I believe I'm being tormented by evil spirits, and I can feel them moving over my skin. I'm scheduled to get ECT treatment next week which should help alleviate my symptoms, but it scares me. And I'm not sure if it's the right decision, but I'm so tired of living this way.

I'm dealing with tactile hallucinations and it's not great at all. It feels like there's something putting pressure on my chest and head all day long. But I'll also feel these things move to my lower back and suddenly, I'll start feeling incredibly aroused. And lately it feels like something is trying to sit on my lap to turn me on. Has anyone dealt with something similar to this before, or some other kind of weird experience?

I'm dealing with tactile hallucinations and it's not great at all. It feels like there's something putting pressure on my chest and head all day long. But I'll also feel these things placing pressure on me, move to my lower back, and suddenly I'll start feeling incredibly aroused. And lately it feels like something is trying to sit on my lap to turn me on. Has anyone dealt with something similar to this before, or some other kind of weird experience?

I'm not sure if this is the best sub for this particular question, and if there's a better one, please let me know. But with that being said, for the past 7 years in particular, things have been unstable. Certain patterns keep playing out and it's always like this. I'm helpless, I'm terrified, I'm going to lose everything I have, I'm ostracized and I'm constantly being tempted to end my life. This pattern in particular has happened 5 times over the past 7 years and no matter what I do, I'm unable to stop this pattern from repeating itself. I'm pretty sure a negative spirit is helping to cause this kind of chaos in my life. But what I'm wondering is, does my subconscious agree with this! Because I've done so much work to try to change my subconscious view of myself, and it doesn't seem like anything has worked. My father has also gone through periods like this in his life, but to a far lesser extent to what I'm dealing with. He even told me that when he was suffering that he felt cursed, and felt like things were also constantly falling apart in his life. It kind of sounds like a generational curse or something. Either way, what do you all think? I've been trying to deal with this for years and nothing has been working so far.

Because something very bizarre happened to me 3 years ago that I still can't explain. It felt like my privates were cut off, and I felt like I was actually bleeding out. But physically speaking I was fine. It was just very bizarre.

Just was curious if anyone with ADHD has noticed a difference or not.

And would you know anyone that could perform a practice session on me. I've heard that it can work wonders, and I'd like to try it.

I'm in a tricky situation, and I'm not sure what to do. I have a dark entity problem, which may very well be succubus or incubus related, and I can't get rid of them. I feel them moving over my skin, and if I don't pleasure myself, they will torture me by keeping me up all night. Or they might just try to molest me, and this has been going on for over 3 years. I have been to a psychiatrist and therapist about this, but they couldn't help me at all. No medications could dull what I'm experiencing. So I have a few options. I can keep attempting deliverance sessions from Christian ministers to help remove these things in the name of Jesus. That sadly hasn't been working out too well so far though. I could try to find a shaman, medium, or psychic that can help remove them, but that also hasn't been working so well. Or I could take a chance and get some ECT treatment, which may help dislodge these entities so I can take back my life. What do you all think I should do?

I find it unbearable, and almost impossible to not masturbate or look at porn for longer than 11 days and it's just ridiculous. Those 2 things become just about everything I think about and I don't know how to overcome it. And to make things worse, I suffer from tactile hallucinations, which means I feel something moving over my skin. It's something that I constantly deal with. Aside from making my life harder in general, these hallucinations will arouse me sexually to the point I feel on the verge of having an orgasm. It's pretty damn creepy and it makes resisting this stuff so much worse. Even so, has anyone here been able to give up both porn and masturbation, (for at least 6 months to a year)? And if you did, how did you overcome the urges? I've been considering finding a hypnotherapist who might be able to help me overcome this, because brute forcing it has been ridiculous for me. I never thought I was actually addicted to this stuff, but I can't seem to give it up for very long and it pisses me off.

If this question is not permissible, I understand, but I just wanted to ask. For Christians who have schizophrenia, suffer from hallucinations, and believe it's more spiritual than physical, has a deliverance session ever helped you.

I suffer from anxiety, some depression and have to tolerate awful tactile hallucinations. It feels like there's something clamping down on my head, and chest all the time. It's made it hard to focus, and it's also difficult to sleep from it. It's a form of psychosis that I've had to tolerate every waking moment of my life for the past 3 years. I was about to go get ECT treatment, but am willing to change my mind if this can work for this kind of problem.

I suffer with awful tactile hallucinations that are just ridiculous. It feels like there's something clamping down on my head, and chest all the time. It's made it hard to focus, and it's also difficult to sleep from it. It's a form of psychosis that I've had to tolerate every waking moment of my life for the past 3 years. I'm going to an inpatient hospital for 2 weeks where I will probably have about 3-4 rounds of treatment for this. Is ECT the best option for this psychosis, or is there a better one? Because I've heard of people forgetting years of their life when taking the treatment, while others say it's only temporary. I don't know how it would be for me, and that kind of scares me. But this is the only chance I'll have for a while. The psychosis symptoms are bad enough to keep me from working and work requirements will be placed on Medicaid recipients by next year. So if I'm going to go for it, now's the best shot and possibly only shot I'll have.