u/Bluechupacabradragon

I am a bit upset as I tried to do it this morning ,was 5 fish away from finishing and Riggle the fishing extravaganza was over after 15 minutes (No winners announced?) Couldn't even hand over my tasty fish to get some gold ,the event and "quest" to collect tasty fish was just gone.

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So I had a two week holiday which was nice, I did a few things I wanted: went fishing and went to the zoo, it was fun but honestly it was mostly depressing being around all the people: they were either moody or inconsiderate tourists then in the city people were rude and selfish.

Advertisements were everywhere that made me so depressed and angry...

Fishing was fun, but even then, all I think about how this hobby's future is going to go down as more people fish and we don't have enough in our oceans anymore...stupid people fishing small fish and not throwing them back etc...

I have tried a variety of hobbies: painting, needle felting, making music; but I don't get any good feelings from doing them anymore. I tried some hobbies with the aim of creating something, and I am so proud and would like to get some recognition but it's always things I need to do better, it just feels like crap working on something so hard and being proud but it's still never good enough in people's eyes...I don't know, it made me loose joy in anything creative.

I go to work and go home, work on my hobbies and just hate how bored I feel. I wish I could go out on an adventure with magic etc but of course it's not real and nothing in reality excites me anymore. It's all "Fake" experiences we have to pay for.

I just don't know what to do to get excited again about life or feel good after doing things in life; all I see is I hate people and the world and wish I was smart enough to do a job I don't have to talk to or be around people, but I tried to study other things and failed.

This is my very first song. I played in on my keyboard but have ableton so I thought I'd get the song done there since I already had lyrics and a melody in mind, kind of playing around with Ableton (also very new) and seeing what feels good.

This is just the intro and the first verse, the chorus isn't featured yet and the rest of the song but wondering if I'm on the right track? Does it sound enjoyable? Sorry if my singing isn't still up to par, I need to practice mroe and have been doing warm ups :)

So I started my trial for my Cpap three days ago, the dr will see me again next week and we got a good plan going.

I started the machine and the first night it was very high pressure, like, adapting to my breathing but I felt great if not a little chest pain in the mroning.

Then the second day, something happened, and now the pressure is staying the same at a low rate. I'm not sure if that has changed or is suppose dto happen? Is it still supposed to be on an adaptive way?

I feel it's too weak but don't want to go over my dr. Just wondering if this is a similar experience with people starting the trial?

I had a thermos and it worked fantastic! I could have it on the counter and I do a lot with my hands so I always knock things over, so I need a mug that can fall and not spill coffee all over the desk!

I took my thermos apart for cleaning and for the life of me no matter how I try, it leaks again and badly!

So I would like another one but better quality, easy to clean and 100% leak proof so If I accidentally knock it over, nothing spills out! Oh and keeps my coffee at least warm :)

I had a look at the Zojirushi that someone else was recommended, but I am worried it's not very leak proof if knocked over? Also with no handle it can be hard for me to pick it up quickly.

I feel so alone. I work my ass off at my work and started there last year, I lvoe it and always am cheerful and like helping people there in retail.

However, I still ask questions when I started last year and today I asked my boss and they replied like I was some kind of idiot in an aggressive tone.

Then I did make a mistake, and a coworker loudly said "YOU CAN'T DO THAT!" and then went to the back and bad mouthed to my manager, saying "she just does what she wants"... then my manager puts me down thinking I didn't understand the whole process like I was some kind of idiot.

I felt like crying because I take my job very seriously and love helping out and work hard, but when I make a mistake I'm put down like this is embarrassing.

I got home and my partner received his xmas present I got him early, he unfortunately already guessed what it was so I set up for him. He said it was cool and then talked about his day and other stuff he was interested in...I told him I felt dismissed and he said "but I listened!" and then retold me what I told him. I didn't know what to say or really waht he should tell me so he just went on and we moved on from the conversation.

Now, I still feel so sad and depressed. I am so upset with people at my work for treating me this way when I make a mistake but still have gotten so much better at more complicated things (which I am proud of).

I am extremely depressed right now and not sure how to handle my emotions at the moment.

I've always been very sensitive and I know I need to be more resilient, but I own up to mistakes and apologize, give respect to others and am kind but feel I don't mean anything to anyone or nobody cares about me as a human being.

So ever since I was a child I had problems with my weight. I was always chubby but the best in sports, got medals and certificates, was the fastest and most athletic in my class but just not as skinny and dainty as the other girls so was always the tomboy. I tried dressing up and being more girly as my mum used to put it,I would never get a boyfriend if I wasn't skinny and pretty but still.

Anyways in my early twenties I drank a lot and danced a lot, lost a lot of weight and was underweight, but that one night I was also tanned, colored my hair and was extremely skinny, I got so much attention from men and was let through all the clubs etc, it fucked me up.

I quit smoking a few years ago, am in a good relationship but gained a lot of my weight back even mroe than before.

My partner now implies I should got on ozempic and never was someone who complimented me, but I am at a loss now.

I want to loose weight again, but my mind has fucked up, all I see is men will only want to be with someone skinny, doesn't matter about their personalities, as soon as they get chubby or fat, women are dumped. IF I become skinny and "happy" again, I am just questioning my partner or anyone wanting to be with me, they only want me for how I look.

I am overweight, but I eat healthy and move around a lot at my work. My blood work and health is better than my fiance's! But it's because I don't look attractive, I need to loose weight, said by everyone.

I'm almost 40, I don't care I don't like like I'm 21 anymore, but I just never met anyone who likes me for who I am; my parents couldn't wait to get me out of the house so they could retire, all my boyfriends or partners were nice at the beginning but later take me for granted evne though I spoil them.

I just can't get over this way of thinking, I just keep thinking "oh there may be someone out there who loves you for who you are" is just delusional thinking. My psychologist says this and I tell her that is a lie we tell ourselves to feel better, the world is selfish and superficial and I don't think it's worth it to delude myself jsut to keep goin in a world like this.

So I want to create a wall of different sized mirrors , only like a cardboard size as it will be the background for a doll I'm making. There will be different mirrors like children mirrors elegant mirrors etc which I will paint, but I want the mirror part to be actually real.

I've been trying to find mirror paper that actually isn't blurry, I found these acrylic mirror sheets but they are still very thick to cut :(

I'm looking for advice if anyone has what kind of paper has this effect and is easy to cut into shapes and just glue on, while I paint the different types of mirror frames?

I work to pay my bills and I do enjoy my work ! I also have hobbies of needle felting and drawings, video games, caring for my pets and my partner...

But Im just so tired....working only to have such little time to live life seems so pointless to me, it almost doesn't feel like it's worth it at all sometimes? Working hard and things just getting more expensive and then not being able to save for things you would like...I wish I had more money but lately even having a job is already lucky in this day and age, but rent has increased so much here and I was so happy before since I got this job and could buy things again! Now bills and rent are so expensive, I can't get things I used to save up for it to enjoy....

So I have a few projects that I finished and used some manicure scissors to keep them tidy but wondering if there is anything I can use to stop the pieces getting frizzy over time and still look nice?

I heard some people use a sort of wax? But can't find much detail except some short videos and would like more information how to use it, where to get it from, is it sticky after drying etc...

So I had pet rats in the past, I used to get really bad reactions from the urine under their claws and when they walked over me and scratched me my whole arm was full of itchy red bumps and I have to wash my whole arm afterwards. I felt so bad as I couldn't take them out much becasue of the pain. One of them passed away and the other I gave to a very good home who had another of theirs passed away, he has a brother and living his best life which I am so happy for (but I still miss him dearly).

It's been a year now and would really like a pet again that I can form a bond with, i was thinking of ferrets and wondering if however I could possibly have the same reaction as I did with the rats?

Or do they not really get things trapped in their nails as rats do?

So I want to get a vivarium (120x60x60cm) with a cabinet and wil get all the lighting and rest them in a holder on top of the vivarium. However, I am worried if this is enough for a bearded dragon, as he will be underneath our air con which we sometimes run 24/7 at 20-22 Degrees Celcius.

I would like to know from experienced owners, if this can affec the temperature inside the vivarium too much?

I'm in Aus, so any recommendations would be great too as long as its a metal vivarium.

So I love to paint, and I felt so proud of creating and how far I've gotten with my life in painting and drawing, I wanted to create a graphic novel.

I kept at it, and worked hard, but everytime I show it to people, they only critic of improvements.

I get it, art should always be improved upon and you always keep working towards it, but when can you jsut create for the sake of creating what is in your mind and people can just take it for what it is? Why does it always need mroe and more improving or follow structures all the time?

Sometimes I feel like that orange guy from that episode of "don't hug me, I'm scared" and I just want to create art and I draw a clown painting I'm proud of but people just say no, you need to do better just ruins it all.

Even in other hobbies, I look up stuff and see how I can do a song better in music software, do research and rework my songs and I'm fine with it. Or, needle felting: I look up influences to make structures and learn their processes and techniques. I am understanding in learning and doing things better when people give me constructive critic there and take it in.

However, when I want to make a graphic novel, I take in influences and copy from other artists and make what I think is the best way to show things, and people just say it's not good or critic it and I am so stuck.

If possible, I want to practice some realistic humanoid creatures or people, and I wunder, is that possible at a small scale, like action figure size?

If so, are there any artists I can get influence from?