u/Careless_Cloud3073

How many of us has patellar tracking disorder

Where your kneecap shifts (or pops out then in) unexpectedly if you move a certain way .?

I’ve had it for 13 years…

I’d like to ask you some questions regarding mental health things like do you feel it causes you to have anxiety? Social anxiety? Unnecessary paranoia fears or stress ?

Where your kneecap shifts (or pops out then in) unexpectedly if you move a certain way .?

I’ve had it for 13 years…

I’d like to ask you some questions regarding mental health things like do you feel it causes you to have anxiety? Social anxiety? Unnecessary paranoia fears or stress ?

After 3 years around of isolation

Ive decided I will force myself to socialize and work.

To socialize, i am deciding to join this program called Clubhouse where people with mental illness come together to socialize and be productive while also engaging in daily activities . It’s a welcoming place I hear and supportive atmosphere.

I wish I had some better story to explain why Im suddenly changing my mindset lol but really, the reality is it’s only because I have no way out by suicide , the pain of death by suicide is to unbearable for me , and I really was suffering mentally from isolation. So, since I can’t take it anymore

Im gonna try this new way of life.

I feel like I am not gonna give up because being isolated is rock bottom , and having been in those waters so long (rock bottom ) there’s really nothing happening there honestly besides a steady rate of decline and slowly causing my future to surely be a painful agonizing death if I keep the isolation up.

So yea I guess u can say pain defeated me

And here I am gonna just do things because there’s no other option to literally

After 3 years around of isolation

Ive decided I will force myself to socialize and work.

To socialize, i am deciding to join this program called Clubhouse where people with mental illness come together to socialize and be productive while also engaging in daily activities . It’s a welcoming place I hear and supportive atmosphere.

I wish I had some better story to explain why Im suddenly chamging my mindset lol but really, the reality is it’s only because I have no way out by suicide , the pain of death by suicide is to unbearable for me , and I really was suffering mentally from isolation. So, since I can’t take it anymore

Im gonna try this new way of life.

I feel like I am not gonna give up because being isolated is rock bottom , and having been in those waters so long (rock bottom ) there’s really nothing happening there honestly besides a steady rate of decline and slowly causing my future to surely be a painful agonizing death if I keep the isolation up.

So yea I guess u can say pain defeated me

And here I am gonna just do things because there’s no other option to literally

Does anyone live a comfortable and successful life with patellar tracking disorder??

I have fears of if patellar tracking disorder causes anxiety

I lay down unless I have to stand up . But badsically I am vertical like 24/7 on my phone at least Thats what it feels like.

Im also very isolated

Edit: also ima reword the question for more clarity lol

Do you lay down all day? Or do you sit down all day?

Like 60 years old and then parents aint here no more kind old?

I’ll have 40 more years to go around omg…

Im 25 now 40 years is more years then Ive lived and that’s a long Mf time smh

Mostly cause I won’t have retirement money from social security since ovb im a hiki

Ever since I smoked weed this peripheral vision thing developed.

It’s where I get extremely scared of not being able to focus on anything or be normal when a stranger or anyone really, is around my peripherals or around me or on the side of me especially , which then leads me to actually do just that when someone is on the side of me , so I can’t focus n everything becomes blurry and I stress sweat and eyes become tense , and then I scared of if it looks like my eyes dart back and forth between me and another person (within peripherals ) making me look stupid , and it makes me feel like im making person uncomfortable and im uncertain if this is happening or if it’s really just paranoia so then
I give up and avoid the whole experience which probably make things worse since I’ll become even more isolated that any exposure would be even more of a struggle

I eventually now have spent months/years avoiding anything where I have to sit on the side of people . Things such as theatres, appointments, public seating areas ,dinners, basketball games, soccer games, social gatherings ,passenger seat while someone is driving everything u can think of.

I think in life I might kms because of peripheral ocd

I just wanna be normal

Edit: I also don’t intend to ever smoke weed again

I don’t socialize at all

Not only do I gotta have a new perspective

But what if there’s actually nothing wrong with just living at home with your family? And not socializing with anyone else ??

I only talk to my mom tho …

I feel like I’m just stressed about not socializing more but what if it’s fine to just live this way

I just lay down all day and scroll

Going on 1 year 8 months

(Im not joking about literally just doing that)

I only get up to do dishes and trash once a day which is only like 10min and shower and brush teeth or use toilet

So yea im vertical like majority of the time

Is it even possible for a hiki to become rich?
Financially Free?

Of course the only tool we have is the internet

I don’t socialize with anyone

I have been isolated for 1 year 8 months

W only very rarely small if not at all talk w my mom

What would you do if you couldnt leech off your parents anymore?

What would you do if you couldnt leech off your parents anymore?

So did anyone else develop staring OCD ( specifically peripheral) after drug induced psychosis? Or just generally after smoking weed?

Ive isolated myself so bad

Like extreme

(2 years)

I only rarely if never talk to my mom and
Only a therapist and psychologist twice a month and once a month probation officer

So in total it’s very minimal human connection

and then

I just lay down all day

And deal with suicidal ideation

Bwuahahshdhd

My mom gave me a talk the other day

It wasn’t THE TALK

But it was close to it

Implying but not solid …

What she said eventually in the talk was

- you can’t lay here forever you know that right?

Idk … it should’ve got me thinking but

Not like I wasn’t stressed everyday in this position before constantly thinking about the future what ifs …