I’m 25 with no friends.. I haven’t lost my virginity, barely had any girlfriends and to top it off I constantly vent to ChatGPT.. it seems like I’m too depressed to keep going in this life
I’m tired of everyone. I’m tired of dealing with my peers at my trade school. Feels like I’m loosing it and wanna assault someone just because
But I spent a while just sitting back and observing a lot of peers on campus and it seems like they’re just here for no reason. More or so it seems like they were forced to be here more than want a second chance or an opportunity. When it’s class most of the students are glued to their phones and give the vibe they don’t wanna be here and sometimes they brag they can leave when they want to “but stay because of their girlfriend/boyfriend” I feel a certain type of way because others can take their space that actually want future
I can’t point my finger on why I feel this.
I’m at my wits end, I’m tired, I’m exhausted I don’t see any reason to keep trying. I’m 25 and it seems like life is just getting worse. I’m more alone than ever.. if I had to choice to self exit out of this world I would choose it with no hesitation
Today was my birthday, it’s a constant reminder that I’m getting older and it’s always a reminder that I’m still pathetic and forever alone. Every yeah I always end up crying and on my bed.. but hey at least I’m 25 right? And even my own dad didn’t remember the year I was born. That’s something
If you seen those “so bad that it’s good” movies then you know what I’m talking about, low budget vibes horrible voice acting etc
It's almost a month, I can't believe it. I kinda wanna buy a drink to celebrate my dedication. I haven't been on TikTok, X, Instagram and Facebook they will be deleted by the end of this week or the next I lost count. After reflecting back to why I did this I noticed I'm mentally clearer, not stressed or angry about things I can't control. I don't have to constantly hear "Guys! Guess what this person just did" and it's just some average person from a southern state being a racist southerner and racist people giving them money for the millionth time. I don't hear how this famous idiot is doing stupid stuff and getting famous off of it. It's just you, your mind and solitude. One thing I noticed is that since you don't doom scroll anymore so you don't know any current news or memes so you have to download a news app to see what's going politically. I kinda miss social media a bit because I felt involved, knew what was going on and was hip to the current meme but at the same time I don't feel like I'm behind in life due to so much comparison. I know these are "technically social media" but I'm on YouTube, discord and Reddit Mainly YouTube for funny stuff or indulging on ideas and hobby related shit. Discord for friends and fa and Reddit for tech news, hobby subreddits and advice and shit. That's all I have for now.
(This is going to be direct and blunt so tw)
Almost reaching three weeks now, I thought things were going to be perfect. But it seems like almost every day I'm having urges to wank and watch corn hub and release the fluid, probably because I'm used to it (every since I was a kid).. to scratch my itch like a crack head. I'm noticing I'm getting erections almost all the time now. I'm fighting the urge to look up any corn material. I noticed that movies that portray nudity or sex scenes don't really arouse me so that's a plus only thing I gotta fix and work on is when I'm alone or my dorm roommate is sleeping I get that feeling to do the deed but I'm resisting that
Ok I spent most of my teens and up to my mid twenties caring for friendships and validation but it seems to not come my way. I encountered a lot of people who claims that we are friends but they just don’t know the difference between acquaintances and friendships so they just throw the label in. Before you ask, yes I put in the effort. I searched plenty of looking for friends groups and it doesn’t go that far. It might last a couple days but it turns out they don’t know how to communicate that well and just end up blocking me for no reason. Now I’m at trade school and I’m with people my age but none of the relationships are going anywhere. It feels like we’re together by proxy, we’re both bored and this is our only environment type of situation but will not contact you once you leave. They always say “hi op” but it doesn’t go further than that, so it feels like a script
I’m in that time in my life where I gotta do other things than game, watch anime and read manga. I’m almost 25 and I haven’t really done anything outside of those 3. I remember being asked “is there anything you do outside of those?” A lot of times. I wanna try new things but I don’t have that much money to dip in expensive hobbies
The food they serve here knocks me out cold. It could be breakfast or lunch.. dinner I tend to skip.
For breakfast it’s carb heavy and lunch is carb heavy so they spike my blood sugar for the worst and makes me extremely tired like I haven’t slept at all and I just go out snoring in class. My math teacher is annoyed and threatened to write me up for sleeping. She knows I’m diabetic. Almost every staff knows so when I tell her my situation she just kinda doesn’t understand the gravity of the situation. And some kids just stare at me and don’t wake me up while I snore hard in class. It feels embarrassing. I checked my glucomter and it’s rising but not too high
Honestly? I’m tired of the current games and how predatory they can be. So I decided I’m making a switch to play retro games it could be from the ps1 to ps3, psp,vita, hell even some old pc titles from the early 2,000s to 2,010’s would be great. What I’m saying is do you have any recommendations?
Honestly? I’m tired of the current games and how predatory they can be. So I decided I’m making a switch to play retro games it could be from the ps1 to ps3, psp,vita, hell even some old pc titles from the early 2,000s to 2,010’s would be great. Recommend any titles from that era
i don't know where to start, where do i start? i was baptized in the past if that helps. basically what im saying is i need help, guidance and a path to follow. after all when i express my problems people suggest Christianity out of all thing maybe god can help me with my depression and help me have a will to live another day.