I’m trying to manage all my mental illnesses with no friends no therapist no direction while my mind deteriorates from psychosis symptoms and chronic social isolation. I don’t know if I can get through this.
The only reason I’m not homeless is because I live with my parents and have money saved up but I have no ability to manage finances. I can’t care for myself at all.
I wake up, I scroll on my phone, I think about porn, I take laps around my house while my mind assaults itself with a stream of incomprehensible drivel. I hear voices sometimes, I imagine scenarios between me and made up people, I lament on how bad my mental illness has gotten that my only conception of reality are the voices in my head. I get anxious at the thought of doing anything different (autism, adhd, probably ocd too) but never work through my feelings to try and change.
I’ve been to several therapists in the past but none of them have helped and the one I was with for years was narcissistic. I live with my parents because I can’t take care of myself, even make my own meals, because the voices/fantasies overwhelm me.
I’ve started writing down what I do hour by hour but I often get lost in my mind or doomscrolling and forget. I don’t have friends because I don’t feel attachment to anything besides the voices in my head. I want to learn discipline but that means facing reality and I’m so far from where I want to be in life I can’t stand it and retreat into my mind again.
How do I stop doing this? (I have an appointment for antipsychotics in a few days btw so I’m hoping it will lessen the mind stuff a bit)
I’m looking for something that adds more nuance to the slytherin house. Maybe spotlighting traits like cunning, ambition, and self preservation instead of slytherins being universally bad. Or dissects the other house’s automatic assumption that every slytherin is evil.
I miss my old voice. I transitioned because I was infantilized my whole life and felt like the only way to escape it was to become a man. Now it feels weird to speak because of the thickening vocal cords and my low voice feels artificial and monotone. Is there a way to make it sound like it did before the drop?
It’s an 8th year fic. Harry has a bias against slytherins, so Draco transfigures himself into someone else so he can get to know Harry and challenge his preconceived notions.
I have multiple mental health issues and one thing I struggle with is the constant isolation. Dealing with my own depression, lack of motivation to even feed myself, and then trying to take care of the animal on top of that. I’ve been doing this for years but my mental health hasn’t improved at all.
I don’t know what I have. Schizoid or avoidant or possibly BPD but I’ve never had a real relationship a real support system or even a person I could genuinely talk to. I’ve always been bored of others, the things they say about themselves or how they think. When people tried to form friendships with me I found it either annoying or not worth my time. I have a history of shitty friends so maybe that’s why I’m like this but I also don’t see the point in moving past it if I’m gonna get caught in a big circlejerk of chasing attention. I want to be able to be happy being alone.
Every day I will have scenarios replay in my head where I’m a horrible person, I’m hurting someone, or I’m not doing enough. These will go on for hours. They’ll come up when I’m riding my bike or walking down a street. They’re incessant. They pull me away from focusing on things I want to do. They jumble my thoughts. I don’t talk to anyone regularly and I’m in my head most of the time. I don’t know how to make them stop.