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I haven’t spoken to her in over a decade. She’s never even met my first and only child who is now 9.

My mom was and is still is an addict- which I have sympathy for because I also fell down that route many years ago and we actually end up becoming “using buddies” however when I got sober is when I cut her off. I had to

As a child she was emotionally, physically, and even sexually abusive to me.

My grandma (dad’s mom) actually raised me so I never viewed my biological mom as a mom- I viewed her as a peer. A peer I didn’t like. I was always forced to visit her which I would scream and cry about.

She has no one - my brother and sister don’t talk to her either. Her own sister and mom don’t talk to her.

I know she’s lonely. She’s a sick person and again I have empathy. She’s a product of the fucked in environment she was raised in but I just cannot reconnect with her. It wouldn’t be healthy for me but I do often wonder what she’s thinking sometimes.

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Thank you to those who take the time to read it.

We have a frequently flyer that’s here on a monthly basis if not more for Ativan. Literally that it. This has gone on for years. Everyone knows them. Obviously the patient states they are suicidal to get admitted but every time they are here they don’t attend groups, don’t socialize, they actually don’t even shower.

Everyone gets admitted with prn benedryl haldol Ativan

This patient sees one of our psychiatrist outpatient who prescribes them Ativan as well. It’s very clear that they run out and then state they are suicidal and come here and get all the Ativan possible. Every employee, every psychiatrist knows it. IF the psychiatrist that they see outpatient ends up getting assigned to her, he will also place a scheduled Ativan order usually q6.

There’s a problem every time the patient is admitted if they get assigned to a psychiatrist that is not the psychiatrist that they see outpatient because likely those other psychiatrist will not place a scheduled Ativan dose in addition to their PRN, which upsets the patient. In the past the patient will cry, cause a scene- anything in their power to try and get more.

Well last night the patient ended up in restraints. They were assigned to a psychiatrist that does not see them outpatient, but is well aware of the behavior, the patient wanted Ativan. The PRN dose was not due yet we actually called the psychiatrist they were assigned to who said that they were not giving any additional meds. The patient got mad and violent and was restrained.

My confusion comes from this feeling ethically wrong. I’m in recovery myself, so I’m no stranger to addiction – but we are doing nothing beneficial for the patient. An addiction specialist has never been consulted, the patient has never been detoxed (which we do). They honestly don’t need acute inpatient psych services because they’re not actually suicidal and they tell us that themselves once they get on the unit. It’s just feels wrong to keep accepting this patient? I also don’t understand why it’s continuing to be prescribed “outside”

I asked my charge nurse why we keep accepting them & really it’s not because I have an issue with the patient- I have an issue with the lack of appropriate treatment they are getting. It just feels like we’re aiding to the addiction and not really treating anything- and obviously I know the patient needs to want the help but it just feels wrong. It just feels like the patient is a guaranteed admission and that’s all they care about. (Meaning the hospital or admissions or whatever)

I guess I don’t really have a direct question. Maybe I’m just venting?? But does anyone have insight on how they would address this? Am I out of line for even feeling like this is wrong?

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Maybe I’m completely out of line for even having an opinion since it’s out of my scope of practice but I just feel a certain type of way about how one of our psychiatrists chooses to treat a specific patient.

This patient is welllllllllll known to us. Every employee knows them. Every psychiatrist knows them (we have 6). This patient is admitted to us on a monthly basis or more for yeaaaaars. They stick this patient on any of our units (high acuity, low acuity, geriatric even though they not geri) just to fill a bed. This patient comes for Ativan- hard stop. They don’t attend group, they don’t socialize, fuck they usually don’t even shower. They come for Ativan and Ativan only. Every patient gets admitted with a prn Ativan order and this patient is on the clock every 4 hours for it. In addition, one of the psychiatrist treats her outside of the hospital - so if this patient happens to be assigned to him (a lot of times they are) he will also scheduled Ativan because he knows they depend on it. He also prescribes it to them on the “outside world”

This patient ended up in restraints last night over not being able to take Ativan because the prn dose was not available yet and this patient WASNT assigned to that psychiatrist. The psychiatrist they were assigned to refused to schedule Ativan for them and they ended up in restraints over that. In past admission they will cry or throw them self’s on the floor etc over the ativan.

Now I’ve been in recovery myself for 7 years. I’m no stranger to addiction- but Jesus fucking Christ we are doing NOTHING to help this patient??? Obviously the patient has to want the help but nothing we are doing is beneficial. I just feel like there has to be a better way? Why is the person still getting prescribed it? The doc should wean them off? Like it feels gross to be aiding to this. Again- I could be out of line for even having an opinion but idk

So far in season one there’s either (in my opinion) a problematic person or two problematic people. There’s yet to be two stable individuals working through an issue. It’s always one person just causing absolute chaos.

The problem people are

Fucking first and foremost MAU: no need to elaborate

Elaine: has major attachment issues and is deeply insecure

Sarah: I genuinely don’t think she’s that into Lauren (anymore)

I feel like they are creating issues that don’t exist- which I get. No one is perfect but these people need individual therapy before they worry about couples therapy.

Now- If Alan genuinely isn’t cheating him and Evelyn are the only couple who might just genuinely have different lifestyles that don’t mesh & that’s okay even if it ends in divorce. However he’s just a tad bit too sneaky. I need more info but for the rest I feel like I’ve seen enough…good lord

Been on for 3 weeks. 600mg. I have had no side effect other than this morning I was unable to get out of bed because of nystagmus. It was making me very dizzy and nauseous. I tried to record it but I literally couldn’t see because of the eye movement. I ended up just going back to sleep and I woke up an hour later pretty much fine. I messaged my provider cuz I’m worried about toxicity obviously but idk im fine now. Anyone else go through that before?

Been on for 3 weeks. 600mg. I have had no side effect other than this morning I was unable to get out of bed because of nystagmus. It was making me very dizzy and nauseous. I tried to record it but I literally couldn’t see because of the eye movement. I ended up just going back to sleep and I woke up an hour later pretty much fine. I messaged my provider cuz I’m worried about toxicity obviously but idk im fine now. Anyone else go through that before?

Been on for 3 weeks. 600mg. I have had no side effect other than this morning I was unable to get out of bed because of nystagmus. It was making me very dizzy and nauseous. I tried to record it but I literally couldn’t see because of the eye movement. I ended up just going back to sleep and I woke up an hour later pretty much fine. I messaged my provider cuz I’m worried about toxicity obviously but idk im fine now. Anyone else go through that before?

What books, practices, internal work can I do to feel more comfortable with sex as an adult (29F). I’ve realized that I’m always rushing it, laughing, or disassociating and that’s even with a long term trusted partner. I’ve always been that way and the only thing I can connect it to is suppressed trauma from childhood sexual abuse and an assault I went through in early adulthood.

Therapy is probably the most obvious answer but I wonder what exactly would be discussed that could help reroute how I act with sex. I’m not turned off or scared of sex- in my mind I’m pretty sexual and I have thoughts of how I’d like to act and things I’d like to do but I always freeze I guess is the best way of putting it and this is really the only thing I’m assuming could be contributing to that? Thoughts?

I’ve realized I can never take sex seriously. I’m always rushing it or laughing or never fully able to relax. That’s even with being in a stable long term relationship. I’m assuming it has to do with suppressed trauma from childhood sexual abuse as well as a sexual assault I went through in early adulthood while I was knocked out drunk. There’s things I want to do or a way I want to act but I almost dissociate (idk if that’s the correct word to use). I’m sure the obvious answer is therapy. I’ve done therapy before but I’ve usually focused on other things because it’s still quite uncomfortable to talk about the childhood ones. Is there anything I can do internally? What works for others if anyone else has gone through this? Ty

First of all- not even sure if I’m on the correct sub to discuss this. I’m not overweight by any means bmi is 23.4 but I’m absolutely not healthy at all. I’ve always eaten like shit. The only reason I’m not over weight I believe is because I’m tall or idk why because my diet is absolutely disgusting. I hate even saying this because it feels so weak minded but I absolutely cannot control food cravings. I’ll tell myself I’m not gonna eat “xyz” and then later it’s like automatic- I can’t control it. & I always say “tomorrow we won’t do that” yet I fail every single day.

TMI but I just had sex. The condom broke I felt it pop so we used another one…….after he finished and pulled it out we realized the second one also broke….? Hello?!! I’m still technically on my period but I’m taking a plan b as well just incase. wtf someone please tell me I’ll be good smh

👀👀 I know we’re all seeing this rn. And shout out to Kaylen labi for the receipts

I can’t stand any of them so I’m just kicking my feet rn. I do appreciate the entertainment

TLDR: coco made a tik tok that there’s someone everyone in LA knows sleeps with underage boys and fucks everyone’s man and yada yada - everyone knew it was Sophia because yes those rumors are true.

Sophia made tik tok defending herself.

Coco posts these screenshots as receipts which are 100% kaylen labi

I (29F) have been with my boyfriend (32M) for 7 years. He’s a provider. He stays out of trouble. He’s career oriented. He’s a good guy and I feel bad for even feeling like this is a legit issue but not only is our sex life bad- it’s awful. It’s never been good. The first time we had sex he came before I fully sat on it - we laughed it off and assumed it was because it was our first time. Since then not much has changed. The longest he’s lasted is maybe 15 seconds & he’s never fully hard. He obviously has PE and ED. Hes tried to over compensate before with oral and while I’m appreciative- I prefer penetration. The lack of good sex can sometimes make it feel like the romance aspect is gone- at least for me. It makes me not want to even have sex. He still has a high sex drive it’s just not good sex. I’ve hinted before at seeing a doctor but I feel bad mentioning it. Sometimes I crave sex so much so that I consider ending the relationship to do so- but then I just feel terrible about myself because he is a good guy. Imagine being in a relationship for 7 years and never actually feeling like you’re having sex because you can’t feel it and what you do feel last for a fleeting second

What did you guys do?? I feel like waiting would be ideal but for peace of mind I kind of want to start today??

Completely my fault. Got off my iud a couple months ago and had unprotected sex. I took a plan b immediately but Jesus Christ I’m scared

Just venting or looking for support I guess. I have no one to confide in this about so I’m just bottling up all emotions

Completely my fault. Got off my iud a couple months ago and had unprotected sex. I took a plan b immediately but Jesus Christ I’m scared

Just venting or looking for support I guess. I have no one to confide in this about so I’m just bottling up all emotions