Recovering shopping addict. I feel guilty when spending money
So, I used to have really bad shopping addiction. But I did recover as much as I could. Meaning, I don't overspend ridiculous amounts of money but the urge to "binge buy" (as I call it) is something I will always have to deal with.
I've been doing pretty good this year, however I feel guilty whenever I buy small things. For example, yesterday I bougth a book for 10 euros - instant guilt. Today, I went to Starbucks and got a pumpkin spice latte, instant guilty. As silly as it sounds, I couldn't enjoy my overpriced coffee because I felt guilty.
Financially, rigth now i am in a good place. Meaning, I have money for gas, groceries, bills and a budget to spend on other things. Which, i realize how blessed i am because a lot of people struggle with this especially with inflation.
The first time I felt guilty for spending money, was when I was 14. I spent all summer saving money for a Tory Burch bag and when I finally bougth it, I felt guilty because I kept thinking "this money is someone's salary for the whole month and you just dropped it on a bag". Then, I would buy thinks from Sephora like a lip gloss and blush and think "your Sephora haul could've bougth groceries for one week". Mind you, that was back in 2014-2016, when the prices weren't that crazy and I was a teen with savings.