Over two decades of addiction since even before puberty, I can't stop...
Hello everyone, I'm seeking your help and guidance to help stop this hopefully.
Long story short, this all started with my father. We had a family computer in the early 2000's and he would always spend hours on it after work every day. As a child, obviously I was drawn to the computer and wanted to engage with it much as possible. Before I even entered puberty, I ended up finding my dads porn videos that he downloaded and browsed, it wasn't hard to find as a child.
This was the beginning of the end, as even though I didn't initially understand what was happening, it did make you feel funny, and I ended up mimicking them. Quickly I learned to masturbate but it only made me feel good, no juice, until a year or two later and its been downhill since.
I'm 28 now and I've been masturbating nearly every single day since I was 8-9. It has destroyed my life and my health, I can't go a day without doing it. I hate it, I hate doing it, it doesnt even feel good anymore but I just end up doing it.
Please, anyone that was in a similar position, help me to stop this...The way I see it, since this is such a early onset, it has become engrained to me and this is the only addiction I havent been able to stop.