u/Leather-Pass8172

been using the SCC to SF for my first full time position these past months, and I have to say, while the commute itself is not bad at all, the stress of making sure I can make it to one of the SCC trains is what gets me. I end up leaving work early so I am sure I can make it before the last train, but I feel always just a bit on edge bc there is that "what if" situation where I end up stranded in SJ.

Just trying to consider whether I should move closer to SF (or at least near SJ) or if the feeling of being stressed out in ensuring I can make the train gets easier as the months/years go by. Don't mind the duration/distance of the commute at all and I will honestly do anything to stay commuting by train instead of car, but the frequency of the SCC trains is definitely what has been getting me lately.

Anyway, if anyone with more experience has any personal anecdotes or advice w/ regards to this, that would be greatly appreciated!

edit: with that in mind, does anyone do the drive to SJ and then take the train? or is that a lose lose situation

hey guys! OTF has been an amazing change to my life. I WFH for the most part so adding this on my wfh days has helped me get motivated and actually excited to wake up. It's been super cool watching my personal progress as someone who has never touched a weight prior to OTF & honestly, the community has been wonderful. I never expected to enjoy a group fitness class so much, much less become so sentimental at the fact that I have to leave it soon.

With that in mind, I think it would be nice to really really put my membership to use these next few months. I already take a variety of classes and go pretty frequently, but curious if anyone has recs as to seeing more results/feeling like ive done everything I possibly can at otf before having to leave.

I'm thinking maybe taking my diet more seriously (since I joined OTF purely for the mental health/routine/dopamine benefits if im being honest). I can feel that my body has changed muscle composition wise, but I also don't fully see it since my physique hasnt really been a priority.

I also know Everest is coming up & will be trying to hit any other benchmarks until my membership ends. but outside of that, i don't really have any otf specific goals other than to keep showing up and giving my 110%.

any advice would be great! will miss otf and checking this sub so routinely haha

Right now I 20f am doing the following at night time (~5x week ):

1. La Roche-Posay Lipikar AP+ Gentle Foaming Cleansing Oil
2. Watermelon Glow PHA+BHA Pore-Tight Toner (newly added, find it makes my skin so much softer)
3. MEDITHERAPY Retinal Skin Booster Serum (old addition, feel it has improved my cheek acne)

I also use tower 28 concealer daily as the only makeup product that touches my face.

My main issue is I continue to have relatively high redness and spots on my face. Recently, I especially have developed pretty red and visible jaw spots which I have no clue what it is from. They are slightly deeper than the spotting I usually get as well. Both the redness and jaw acne is pretty consistent on the month basis so I don't think it is related to my menstrual cycle but idk. My goal is to just have more smoother + less red skin overall.

Not sure if benzoyl peroxide is what I should consider or if there's something else I should look into instead.

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I spent the past 3 years of my life in the worst pit ever. Since probably april, I have been finally turning things around - not binging, getting a job related to my degree, being accepted into a masters program, going to group fitness to actually enjoy movement, socializing, etc.

And suddenly, its back.

I dont fucking know what to do. I went to sleep yesterday with a pit for no reason and today I skipped my meeting because I couldn't get out of bed. My thought as the alarm for the gym blared was I cant wait to die. I went back to sleep and then I dreamt of dying even as the alarm rang for my morning meeting. Like wtf, my life is going good why is this back?

I got up after a while, but even then, my productivity was at 10%. I dont feel clean, even though I showered like usual. I feel my body, and I feel that wave of nothingness over me again. This is so fucking melodramatic but I'm just so scared it's back. Why would I act like this at the job I've worked so hard to get?

I've raided the entire fridge and pantry for the first time in so long. I feel like my entire body is itchy and I just want to rip my scalp out. I cant look my parents in the eye today. I barely left my bed. I just do a few things and then feel like my limbs are too physically heavy to move and I need a break.

Wtf wtf wtf wtf

I cant have this happen again.

Idk if there's anything I can do to fix this proactively. Maybe eat better? Go more times to work in person (my job is hybrid)? Give into overconsumption (lmao)? I just know nothing I do has fixed this in the past. It just comes, stays forever, and then suddenly leaves. But i do not want it back.

I’m a huge Caltrain rider and am very grateful for the service. that said, I feel like recently, Caltrain has been having so many delays and issues on many of the morning commute trains. While i understand they are really not able to control if an engine shuts down or if something happens on the tracks, every time there is an issue, i find it so surprising that the #1 solution is to keep everyone in the train until they fix it. And even if they let u out, there’s no chance you’ll see a train until a decent amt of time later.

i get it for odd cases (ex. ur in the middle of the tracks somewhere), but idk after years of history, I’m surprised there isn’t a better solution than to wait/find a bus if ur lucky.

obviously for ppl w shorter commutes, a 20 min delay isn’t a major deal but it adds up if ur doing a longer drive with multiple transfers. and that’s not Caltrains fault at that point, but it makes it slightly more frustrating to have the solution be to wait until all the trains start running again.

anyway, to be fair, I have no real idea what could be a better solution but i wish there could be bc it would make the service 100x better.

ive been slacking on my runs and walks now that ive gotten an unlimited otf subscription, so I've been thinking ab inputting my workouts into strava instead. if anyone uses strava, do u break up the workout into a run block and a weight block? or just all together?

(as an aside, i feel like my apple watch consistently has been underestimating the paces i run at on the treads)

at this point its kind of funny but it happens practically every time. today i wanted distance so bad and got inclines, which i guess is close ish for once haha

Edit: my dumbass completely erased the fact that today I did run/rows. anyway point stands

the nerve!

i have the unlimited plan and also a chronic illness that sort of ebbs and flows in intensity, so I'm someone that commonly cancels (ex. 1 class every 2 or 3 weeks or so). I honestly should just stop booking classes, but otherwise I just wont show up lol.

Anyway, my classes are never overbooked/never have a waitlist, but I'm curious if coaches can tell if a person is a frequent class canceller or if it affects the coaches in any way.

edit: tysm for the insights, i might just tread carefully from now on when pre booking LOL

Do you guys think this will ever happen? Bc especially since the WR times/paces are included in the treadmill total, the avg speeds and paces are completely skewed haha. Would love to be able to see my progress over time in terms of what I choose/maintain for my actual runs.

i will weigh in one day, and the next, and then eat too much, not weigh the next day or the next and then weigh in the following week and have gained weight. and then not weigh. its been this cycle for so long

same with trying to eat in a deficit.

it doesnt help my parents are huge food pushers but at the end of the day, it is my lack of willpower thats keeping me trapped. does anyone have any clue how to get past the first few days? my best results were when i got into a good routine - i lost so much weight and kept it off for months (until i switched jobs..) - but getting into a routine feels so impossible

I hate having my period and having to commute to work and sit in a cubicle in a Building puddle of my blood and pain. I hate having to do the corporate social dance while in excruciating pain. I hate having to sit through nausea on the drive home. I hate fighting the fainting episodes bc it’s not professional to be knocked out on the floor.

and if it’s not this then it’s something else. It’s always SOMETHING. why Can I not have a normal day for once. Why do I always make it so hard on myself and complicated.

do u mix/match the weights (ex. 15lb for one arm 20lb for the other) or keep the weights at the weaker arm's amt?

Currently thinking whether to go to a 2G tmr or not (lol) but I feel so burnt from the past 2 classes (tread50 and a 2G) and work that I’m just considering which is more worth it:

1. Sleep in a bit, maybe recover, but not rly get much movement during the work day

2. go but either stay in greens (or knowing me risk overexerting myself and feel even worse)

curious which one you are

why do I spend 8 hours of my life doing nothing and it feels like 3 seconds. It’s so fucking unfair. I wish I could experience Sleep like life feels like. It’s so unfair for it to go by so quickly. I barely enjoy it bc the moment I wake up, I can’t be back sleeping until after life ends for the day. It’s sooo just irritating. Why can’t I feel sleep??? why can’t I dream at least??? Why is it over so fast

tried otf out since i started a new hybrid job & wanted some structure in my work from home days, but omg its making the commute days EXTRA hard haha. literally falling asleep today counting down the days until my wednesday 5am 2g class, and safe to say, I did NOT expect to enjoy otf so much so props to my coaches and everyone at my classes for always making the 60 mins enjoyable & for this sub for helping me out w questions/insight!

on another note, while i am definitely getting strength/stamina/mental benefits from OTF (my weights have increased by a bit, my speed/incline also) i feel like I am eating wayyy more than I used to and looking more bloated than usual. did anyone experience this when they started? does anyone have advice for how to get the diet under control? thanks!

is this normal? today i hit the red probably for the last 3 minutes and i left the workout feeling like nothing happened.

my red is in the 183s+ and i was hitting the 190s, so its not like the red zone is incorrectly placed, but I just am not feeling the workout at ALL. i hit my weights till failure and then any time I even up the pace on the treadmills, I hit the red. Today I was trying to keep it in high oranges bc I didn't want to overdo it, but I literally dont feel like I've worked out.

is there a way to stay in a decent bpm range but still feel like you've worked out? does it happen over time/when you get more in shape?

my parents love each other and thats obviously clear. my brothers are twins and they dont gaf about me either. and none of these people should gaf about me but im the odd one out and it makes me sick knowing that, at the end of the day, they would choose someone over me.

idk why i care but every time i am in an argument in this house bc quite frankly this house is so fucking unfair, i am the one that gets piled on. theres always someone fucking supporting the other person. i am always the problem. i am always the "weird" one. i am always the odd one out.

and i have this awful resentment bc this has lowkey been a thing since i was so fucking young. getting my period, wearing my first bra, everything was a fucking clown show bc no one else experienced it except my mom but my mom wasnt one to be sweet and kind ab it but rather broadcast that "oooo look at her she got her first period" to my younger siblings and dad.

my mom is always trying to suck up to my dad. my dad is always trying to butter up my dad. and ig thats what a healthy relation is meant to be, but fuck why am i the pawn that is being played. especially when my siblings are in the mix.

everything i do is some weird fucking thing to them. every thing i do ends up being something they toss around as something to make fun of. i literally cant exist without feeling ashamed or like im a spectacle bc of how weirdly they gang up on me since i was little.

and i dont really think they notice it (and dont really gaf when i mention it to them). its just sad. i wish i had someone. i wish i could feel like i was normal and not a black fucking sheep forever.