AITJ for not wanting to babysit my cousins for 5 days and Fourth of July?

So I am a 15 year old girl I have two younger boy cousins who are 13 and 9. j don’t have a problem with them, I actually like them a lot! I just got back from a two day international standby trip With my mom where she was stressed about this family gathering the whole time and was yelling and having a hard time the whole trip. I was Also deep into the luteal phase and just started my period (I have pmdd) We didn’t get much sleep and once we got home we had about 15 minutes before my cousins showed up and we left to live in a bigger house airbnb in my hometown that could fit the whole family including my grandma and two stepsisters. So after staying up all Night in that flight j was immediately judged by my aunt and uncle for not hanging out with their cousins enthusiastically.
when I said no to doing something with the cousins to get my rest befoee a big weekend, my cousins pulled on my hair, threw pillows at my face, and just treated me like garbage and wouldn’t leave me alone. my aunt and uncle did nothing to stop it, and instead just laughed about how “cute” their boys were being.

(maybe I’m wrong, but a 13 year old (atleast me at 13) knows better than to act 5. and do stuff like that.)

his parents did nothing to stop their weird harassment and inability to take a ”no” and My uncle got mad at me for not wanting to play with them, making sarcastic jokes about how I was just a mean self absorbed teenager. I do understand that yeah, it comes off as selfish to not want to play with my cousins, but it gets to a point where I just want some time to myself.
I also take awhile to get ready in the morning. I like to have my time so that morning after sleeping in the floor I was able to get the bathroom for 5 minutes before the Cousins immediately got to me again. They had taken my pads and were opening them and throwing them all over the place (13 year old btw) but the adults said the boys were just young and didn’t know any better. My uncle called me a party pooper for not wanting to go in the trampoline with them at 6 in the morning and instead wanted some time to myself to get ready. im still in my hometown, and I feel a lot of pressure to look good when I see my friends and I will sense we live in such a small place. My uncle is now making me go to the carnival and all of the Fourth of July celebrations with my cousins and is making me go to a carnival (which im not a fan of sense i het scared of the rides😢) while watching my young cousins in my hometowm. I love my cousins but I wish my family knew that I need time to myself and their 13 year old son is old enough to not do these things, dare I say their 9 year old too.

we were biking around with my cousins also and we passed my friend who was on her trampoline and they said she looked funny and 10 years younger than me. I was so embarrassed. And my uncle mocked anither friend I saw at the sipermarket. I know it sounds trashy but I just feel EMBARASSED and unprepared to see people i know at the Fourth of July celebration when I am under this pressure to watch and play with my cousins but also preform for my peers and see my friends. Am i in the wrong here?

reddit.com

Is this anxiety? Has anyone experienced this before?

I don’t feel like I just expedite being awkward at the coffee shop or scared to talk to people, the anxiety I feel kind like a whole entire feeling in my brain and mind.
I get this feeling like I’m not myself. I litterally overthink every thought I have. I start to notice when I didn’t do something exactly like the week before when I was my “normal” self and I will watch content that makes me feel like myself and do things exactly how I did them last week (watch the same videos, do the same activities at the same time, etc) to try to feel normal. Sometimes I feel so weird and distressed I just want to cry. I know I should chill out but EVERYTHING I do  just makes me feel so awful and weird and distressed. Every time I have a thought I didn’t have back when I felt “normal” I feel like I’m weird, and this causes me to be socially awkward and once I have an awkward interaction because I’m looking at myself from this weird outside over analyzing everything I do it just confirms to me that I’m acting weird Wich makes all of it worse and confirms my fears even typing this out wich I’ve never done is distressing. If ANYONE has experienced this loop before please tell me, or how you dealt with it. Or if this is anxiety or something else. 

reddit.com
u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 7 days ago

Is this anxiety? Has anyone experienced this before?

I don’t feel like I just expedite being awkward at the coffee shop or scared to talk to people, the anxiety I feel kind like a whole entire feeling in my brain and mind.
I get this feeling like I’m not myself. I litterally overthink every thought I have. I start to notice when I didn’t do something exactly like the week before when I was my “normal” self and I will watch content that makes me feel like myself and do things exactly how I did them last week (watch the same videos, do the same activities at the same time, etc) to try to feel normal. Sometimes I feel so weird and distressed I just want to cry. I know I should chill out but EVERYTHING I do  just makes me feel so awful and weird and distressed. Every time I have a thought I didn’t have back when I felt “normal” I feel like I’m weird, and this causes me to be socially awkward and once I have an awkward interaction because I’m looking at myself from this weird outside over analyzing everything I do it just confirms to me that I’m acting weird Wich makes all of it worse and confirms my fears even typing this out wich I’ve never done is distressing. If ANYONE has experienced this loop before please tell me, or how you dealt with it. Or if this is anxiety or something else. 

reddit.com
u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 7 days ago

Does this match anyone’s experience here?? Is this pmdd or something completely different?

I’ll start off with saying I’m 15, and only this year have started experiencing these weird periods. I haven’t found anyone who has related to me or had he same issue as me, I feeel like a total weirdo.

I don’t just experience sadness, anxiety, mood swings or being angry for a bit out of the month (like crying more than usual over things or something) it’s a whole entire feeling in my brain and mind.
every luteal phase I get this feeling like I’m not myself. I litterally overthink every thought I have. I start to notice when I didn’t do something exactly like the week before when I was my “normal” self and I will watch content that makes me feel like myself and do things exactly how I did them last week (watch the same videos, do the same activities at the same time, etc) to try to feel normal. Sometimes I feel so weird and distressed I just want to cry. I know I should chill out but EVERYTHING I do for like 3 weeks just makes me feel so awful and weird and distressed. Every time I have a thought I didn’t have back when I felt “normal” I feel like I’m weird, and this causes me to be socially awkward and once I have an awkward interaction because I’m looking at myself from this weird outside over analyzing everything I do it just confirms to me that I’m acting weird Wich makes all of it worse and confirms my fears even typing this out wich I’ve never done is distressing me. Even if this Weit’s look isn’t pmdd I really just want someone to know and understand or have experience with what I’m talking about.

reddit.com
u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 14 days ago

I love posting edgy overused unfunny stuff on posers of TikTok! How could you tell?

you guys are miserable larpers lol. Just Like what you like. Nobody thinks your cool for faking a niche or being more niche than teenagers on social media. heck nobody has thought of punks as anything other than cringe sense the 90s.

u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 14 days ago

I’m in love with my trans friend, am I a weirdo?

I want to start off by saying I’m deleting this later, and that I am fully cis and really have no place to talk here so I’m sorry if this is invasive. im not a stranger to trans guys, i have had a few as my friends and they are all really funny And seem pretty genuin. I’ve also never had a crush on a boy before.

recently a guy from china joined our higschool and he joined our sports team. He’s the trans guy. i Was assigned to help him out During practice sense I’m Chinese to, and it’s been pretty magical getting to know someone my age that can actually speak my language too. everyone loves This guy in our team, and j think he’s super funny too, but theres a disconnect between him and the rest of us.
like he will hangout with lots of girls and yeah does seem pretty gay to Be blunt. he’s got a good sense of fashion I guess and is one of feminine when he’s not out with us. i have a few classes with him and when he’s with his girlfriends they say stuff like how men are weird and joke about stuff like that (wich I don’t have a problem with or anythjng- it just makes me feel like a creep) lately I have just been admiring him like he’s so cool in a way I can’t really discribe and the way he kind of talks and does stuff is just like wow it kind of feels like born in a feeling Boston song whenever I look at him or talk to him. but have never thought of myself as a gay person before or know anything about gay stuff. I just feel really perverted for thinking about him because yes I see him as a guy but there’s still like a disconnect between us and I have only ever liked girls so is this my brain thinking of him as a girl? or am I actually gay or something. want advice on how to talk to him or do I just never tell him anything. How do I stop myself from like thinking of him like that, idk, I hope this isn’t disrespectful to anyone on here I kinda just needed to share

reddit.com
u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 15 days ago

has anyone had problems with fungus knats?

I do cleanings daily, and deep Cleans every three weeks or so but they always come back. are these harmful to my snake? I really don’t want them to irritate or make him uncomfortable but they won’t go away!! I have even seen these around my room. I haven’t seen much advice online for getting rid of them so if anyone has had the same issue please lmk!

reddit.com
u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 19 days ago

Thoughts and opinions on the KERA magazine?

For me I have found many great bands and lots of inspiration for projects from these magazines, and that the street photography is very good and helped spread the scene. but others have argued that they lack inclusions and have advertised large brands. What do you punks think?

u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 20 days ago
▲ 521 r/jfashion

Is this Jfashon? What style is this called?

I saw it a lot throughout shubuya 109 (in stores like spinns and volcan aprodiotie) with lots of polka dots, piano keys, frilly skirts etc. it seems Like it’s gaining lots of popularity in Japan right now (but I’m no expert on fashion or anything there..) so if this is a specific style let me know! I think it’s so cute!!

u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 21 days ago

update on the neglected class pet geckos!

in the first photo is the now improving conditions of the last gecko the teacher adopted and in the second was the first who unfortunately passed away.
to summarize for those who hadn’t seen my previous posts- I originally asked everyone on here about a geckos condition 5 months ago and I was basically told hey that’s pretty bad and definitly neglect. I informed my teacher who other than making a few adjustments to the tank like removing the harmful carpet and adding a heat lamp WITHOUT changing the poor size or conditions of the classroom dod nothing. The gecko died a week after I had made that post(I will say- my teacher seemed to genuinely show concern for her gecko during the last leg of its life, and did take accountability for the conditions being subpar) , after my teacher had failed to listen to me as a young person and the school staff kind of Thought the fact I cared about it was weird. and my teacher bought another gecko recenty, wich we were told was a baby. i didn’t know if she planned to give this baby an improved life and learn from her mistakes so I honestly just left it for awhile until realizing she didn’t plan on actually changing everything, and was passing it around to my class of 13-14 year olds like a toy. because I don’t have an animal welfare leave that deals with birds or reptiles in my area, I asked a college biology teacher I knew to help convince my teacher to inprove her conditions, wich just This month before the end of school sucseeded! the collage professor and I actually got a whole new tank for the gecko, and grouted tiles and dirt into the ground improving the conditions using some care guides. we also bought hides and are trying our best at giving the gecko a new life before the situation escalate. its still tricky to negotiate, and the teacher still seems annoyed but is also open to us helping wich is great. I’ll keep an eye on the gecko as best as I can and keep everyone updated!

u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 21 days ago

I’ve been having dreams about this flight, has anyone dealt with flight dreams before and how do you manage your anxiety?

i Have a flight this afterjoon from my town to Denver to New York and then on Friday to Europe. I’ve been having anxiety dreams for the past three night and I told myself “if j have a dream tonight I’m not getting on.” I really want to go and see the world and get out of my town right now, but I am really nurvous. I got anxiety medication that goes under my tounge for the flights, but I can’t shake the feeling that I will stall or be falling. It’s not the actual plane that scares me it’s the feeling of if i go out I’ll have a moment of just free fall and total fear. I also hate boeing 737s that I’m going in a lot because I know people have experienced that unfortunate reality on those planes wich just totally weird me out.

reddit.com
u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 1 month ago
▲ 103 r/budgies+1 crossposts

What are your birds favorite music?

I’m looking for recommendations, I’ll go first- he loves the Beatles and studio Ghibli soundtracks!

u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 1 month ago

Unhinged advice the genuinely got rid of my fear.

Stop consuming media about planes before your flight. Yes- I’m even talking about this subreddit. watching statistics, disaster stories, and videos on planes can actually build up anxiety for your flight causing it to feel like this huge situation when in reality, the chances of anything happening to you on a plane are the EXACT SAME as on ground. I understand, watching success stories and finding other people who share the same fear as you talk about it before their flights can make things feel better- but it does build up a normal situation to feel potentially life threatening sometimes, which is just all fake. there is NO SHIFT when you get in an airplane. Your odds of anything are completely THE SAME. do something you like in the plane, indulge in your interests and be yourself!! i know telling you to just “think differently feels crappy, but I promise you- your mindset can go a long way. Don’t build up a situation to the point you feel like you SHOULD or NEED TO be worried for your flight to feel NORMAL. The outcome is the same nomatter What you consume or how you act or how stressed you are on the plane. Just food for thought.

reddit.com
u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 1 month ago
▲ 2 r/women

Has anyone ever experienced an unexplainable weird feeling during the luteal phase

It’s not really irritability or sadness, it’s more like a feeling that I’m no longer myself. It causes me to be akward in social situations and keeps me in a loop where I feel different, that makes me act weird wich confirms to my brain that I am bej weird and different, and then I keep going on this paranoid and extremely distressing cycle. Sometimes it will just make me want to cry for no reason. And always a week or two before my period I really want to know if any other women can relate to this at all. or one of feels like im constantly over anylizing everything about myself and if any action is different than a week ago when I felt “normal” than something’s wrong. it keeps me stuck to the same cycle and constantly thinking about it. Always during the luteal phase. Then when it’s over, boom life feels natural again. What is this?

reddit.com
u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 2 months ago

I’ve put this post off for about three months now- because my teacher found my last post and seemsd upset I had emailed and personally spoken to my school board, who did nothing for my case, my teacher did add overhead lighting and replacd the reptile carpets, and eventually after seing My post recognized something was wrong and seemed genuinely concerned and Upset for this pet she had been keeping for so long, wich was really good to see. but a week after my original post that the gecko died, and apparently it has been a school pet for 5 years(I don’t know really anything about these geckos but it seems like a long time) and the point I really wanted to bring up was that she bought a new baby Gecko not too long after this one’s death, it’s Staying in the same terrarium with the same conditions and she has been passing it around to everyone in my class wich by the way is a bunch of 14 and 15 year olds who handle it roughly as tthe new baby girl is maybe two inches long. I honestly don’t know what to do, it gets handled around lab equipment in an extremely small tank even for a baby let alone the adult. o feel like I am overreacting and am being really annoying to my school board for caring so much, if any owners out there have ideas or suggestions as to what to do, or any input on the situation at all that would be really appreciated!!!

u/Legitimate_Finger670 — 2 months ago