u/LenoreBusker

anyone else felt pressure to always Do Something™️ for pride month but never do but then felt better by not trying to live up to anything

one of the biggest issues i had with the discussion surrounding this current/upcoming tour is how a ton of people were being willfully ignorant re: how prevalent dynamic pricing actually is. it was a scummy move on the band’s part but the irritating thing was that nobody wanted to admit how it was a business move first and foremost, and as such, nobody is immune to it. mcr is not special, no matter how much you guys wanna repeat that stupid car line from disenchanted.

now, guess what? the plague of dynamic pricing and similar money hungry practices (platinum seats, etc) has gotten ten times worse. gorillaz, phoebe bridgers, post malone, olivia rodrigo, charli xcx, ariana grande, BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN! im sure there’s artists that im missing as well with far less elaborate tour setups and much higher standings in the industry.

this is not a defense of them turning on dynamic pricing. we’ve been over this as a fandom ten times over. that being said, it’s great feeling vindicated knowing that they would only be one drop in a far bigger pool instead of just The™️ singular issue.

i’m not going to use this opportunity to blog or trauma dump or anything like that, just know that i’m coming from over a year of….lets just say controlled observation. and what i see most from the fakers claiming FND on this page and elsewhere is that they forget a very simple part of the disorder: the way it’s essentially known right now, it’s pretty much the disorder of self-fulfilling prophecy. acknowledging that it is a factor in how bad you are feeling actively makes the symptoms worse. the reason why psychology is a treatment factor in FND shouldn’t be that providers think you’re making it up (although there’s still far too many of those out there). it’s because the nervous system is just that fucked up that it goes into panic mode at the mere thought of discomfort. i think this is something that is incredibly difficult for influencers, and especially fakers, to convey and is why some of them eventually hop on the “FND isn’t real but i have something even more sooper special and sick” train. what does anyone else think?

in the tradition of the ill-fated university dr post from a few months back, i am absolutely fighting for my LIFE tonight. i went to a coffee shop today and ordered a mocha latte and three cheese melt, and in order for them to not be needlessly dragged through the mud in case this isn’t their fault, i won’t be naming them unless i have to. i don’t have any food sensitivities but i did notice that the sandwich was greasy, even though i polished it off regardless because i was starving. unfortunately ever since 2, i’ve just been living on the toilet, barely able to stand up without swaying, nauseous, a headache that can’t be fixed with anything, etc. as someone who works around kids, i haven’t seen a ton of stomach stuff lately but i know they aren’t exactly the most reliable when it comes to illness so is ANYONE else experiencing this???

yesterday i posted here about my increasing intrusive thought/delusion that some babies i work around aren’t real and how that was scaring me. lo and behold, i wake up this morning after a terrible night’s sleep and i see a full bottle of lexapro that i refilled last week that i completely forgot to take to my room/start taking 🤦‍♀️ thank you to those who responded who were concerned but i am fine now that i know i was off my meds lmao

really important context: i was initially diagnosed with ocd at 15, never really had rituals per se but I’ve been burdened with intrusive thoughts all my life. my current psych np has suggested i have bipolar due to episodes of what i can best describe as manic-like behavior, “elevated episodes” (my psych’s words), and most important for this, delusions. they don’t last very long but they’re extremely potent nonetheless, and thankfully the cocktail i’m on right now mostly dulls the noise in my head enough to where i’m able to function without being noticeably drugged.

i work front desk at a pediatric office, so i see a lot of children of all ages and ailments on a daily basis. but babies are different. this sounds batshit crazy but im noticing that they’re moving so much differently lately, like they’re more unnatural and robotic. when they cry, my head immediately starts pulsing and going numb. they’re like little nuclear bombs it feels like, manufactured by palantir or whatever to disarm the childless public for…some fucking reason.

listen, this sounds crazy, like a creative writing project, like someone off their rocker, etc. That’s why I hate that this thought keeps popping up for me. I *know* it’s unreasonable that babies are being mass replaced by robots, but it’s like my brain won’t stop “noticing” it not only at work but everywhere else i go. im supposed to see a new psychotherapist soon for treatment so maybe they’ll be able to figure something out, but unsure what else to do here other than to just buckle down and let this delusion pass.

i shall not be naming these subs directly but i suppose iykyk. i’ve been getting recommended them more frequently despite not interacting with anything particularly controversial except maybe this sub. but maybe it’s also my fault since i click them out of curiosity and scroll to see what’s going on in their minds. i do feel bad for a lot of them since clearly they’re going through shit but there are also individuals who obviously should know better and are just using the femcel/misandrist label to deflect from the obviously crippling need for male validation. also doesn’t help that these individuals will talk talk talk and have no desire to actually do any collective action besides summarize theory and falling for ragebait on the internet. idk is this a purely me phenomenon or has anyone else seen this as well

longtime lurker, first time poster! i need your guys’ help on this one. i’m currently 42% on bat eater and other names for cora zeng, and i’m really unsure how to feel about it. i’m finally getting to the real meat of the story, which does seem interesting, and as a mixed asian i really do like the weird girl mc and relate to her journey/struggles/anxieties. but everything else surrounding it is just sooooooo dull and disjointed to me. it’s like reading off a checklist in some parts.

as the title suggests, i try to finish off as many books as possible, but i’m really struggling to power through this one. is the best of the story yet to come if i continue, or am i better off moving onto another book in my TBR?

look man im a little let down by the contents of the remasters too but it feels like every time they drop or announce something, y’all wanna act like they’re forcing you to drop your money and that you *had* to and how evil the band is for it. it’s corny af. you’ll be able to find these variants elsewhere down the line if you really want them or just stick to streaming. the band and label sucks for cashing in and you suck for acting like you don’t have any choice in spending your money immediately