u/Mr_Mozerella

So, if you know what the backbone is, I'm sure you would also know about it's problems. So of course, after about a half year of gaming with one, the entire left side stopped working, and now I need another phone controller. So, I looked stuff up and found the Razer Kishi, all 3 (and the v3 and v2 pro so 5?) Look pretty good for my gaming needs, but of course I have to ask the community on what I should get.

For my pretty low budget, the v3 pro is too expensive at 150 bucks, so I'm stuck between the 3 versions (and v2 pro). The 4 available options are of reasonable price for me to use, but I'm gonna ask you guys on which one I should get.

Ok so, to start this stuff off, I'm gonna make it clear that I'm still in summer break, and since about February I have liked a girl in which I will call A.

And this isn't just a crush, I have huge, real feelings for A, and she's probably my first time I have actually fallen in love

Also going to put in another significant person in this situation I will call G, who is one of my best friends and I go to her for emotional support cuz she's good with people

So, it all started around that time, when I started to take notice of A, first her absolutely gorgeous look, in my opinion probably the most beautiful girl in my grade, and I know that no one ever really had a crush on her and she's always and still is single. As for friendship, me and A became friends about a month or two after I started developing feelings. Personality-wise, she's an introvert and quiet and shy, but she's also very smart and creative and has a sassy sense of humor (all of which I love).

Of course, I wouldn't just go out to her and say "Hey, A, just so you know I like you" because god knows how many things could go wrong there. So, I had told G about how much I liked her (A and G have been friends prior to me meeting either of them) and of course G had no issues and was willing to stay with me to help if I needed anything. Not much happened for a bit, but I was able to get A's phone number, and at first she seemed a bit nervous and uncomfortable around me when we met (we met through a group project where I joined specifically so I could get to know A, G was also in that group). But after about a week or so, she let herself talk a bit louder, let out her sassy jokes, and had a little twinkle in her eye and occasionally looked at me AND SMILED (#1 way to give me a heart attack) And of course, G also noticed all of this and in private told me that she was getting comfortable

Now, bullshit aside, here's the real stuff

So, for about a week before school ended I asked G if she could help me plan out a confession to A by text after school ended, she helped me and on the last day of school after it was over, that night I sent the text to her of my confession (about a paragraph long, just going through that I knew we weren't that close but I felt like she should know I liked her)

So as expected, she kindly said that she didn't like me back, but she could still see me as her friend. Although, we only stayed in touch for about a week or two after, where it felt a lot more akward and nerve-wracking to talk to her because of my mind making up a ton of ways it could go wrong, many of which I believed.

After a bit, I had also told her that she was the nost I had liked someone ever, and ofc she rejected again (in a really nice way, I could never imagine a single mean thing from her)

Ok now the real problem: I haven't talked to A after that THE WHOLE SUMMER BREAK

I talked to G and she said that knowing A, she wouldn't have forgotten about me, but my stupid pessimistic mind kept saying "oh, she forgot about you! She probably doesn't remember anything about you! She probably doesn't care anymore!" And I can't stop procrastinating. I want to talk to her again, not even in the sense that I am very much in love, I just want to talk to her again and keep whatever Friendship we had alive. But I can't stop worrying that something will go wrong or something bad will happen and I can't get myself to text her again because of all this worrying. I don't know what I should say or how I should phrase it, or anything at all! I just really need some advice or smt on what I should do

This is a load of bullshit ain't no one going to read all this shit or hell, even look at this stupid post, I really gotta get off the fucking internet