I barely post here..,,
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also its no longer pride month but I forgot to do anything for pride month so happy one day late pride month
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I would’ve put this one r/mildlyinteresting but they don’t allow videos so..
luckily it stopped after ten seconds after I began making this post but it was super annoying and I had no idea where it came from. even worse is that I’m trying to loop a bit of a song I like and the fuckass static sound is stuck in my head
two facts about me, I am a big homestuck fan and I am really picky when it comes to colour pallets. there’s this thing for an alien species called trolls called the hemospectrum where the vast majority of these trolls have a different blood colour and their social ranking is based off of that colour, rustbloods and mutantbloods (trolls who have a blood colour which doesn’t fit onto the spectrum) being the lowest and fushsiabloods being the highest, rarest, all women, and will later on one will become the queen of the planet they live on (aka alternia.) one colour here is indigo, or indigoblood, but it annoys me how it isn’t actually indigo.. its fucking NEON BLUE. you see nepeta and equius here and how they both have quote unquote indigo in their colour palettes? Each troll wears at least one symbol showing what their blood colour is, nepeta wears some blue clothes in the colour of equius’s blood to show their friendship, I think thats awesome but the only thing I dislike about it is the fact that the metallic green and neon blue clash together… equius isn’t as bad but still, its neon blue and not actually indigo. I edited their sprites and two panels they’re in to be a different colour I consider to actually be indigo. notice how the gradient for the hemospectrum is a bit smoother? notice how (in my mind) their colours are a lot less jarring? anyways goodbye now
I spent too long editing this
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it was coloured in mainly with oil pastels and one purple marker for shadows
artwork by meeeee :3
insane title but yeah
whenever I’ve seen other fictionkins talk about their experiences they always seem pretty happy to talk about it, there’s a general light mood in this place and thats awesome. but for myself it does not feel positive. at all. of course I still support alterhumanity, its awesome, but I worry I mistook a delusion of mine just for some normal identity
because of my “kinship” with MR and the fact its an antagonist everybody hates, I started to worry that people would see ME as an abhorrent person. I have to be honest regretevator’s writing is pretty much shit, and MR’s wrongdoings are just “explained” by “oh yeah this thing used to be not a rock but now its a rock and now evil type shit” I remember seeing a post on reddit saying “what people reply to you when you ask ANYTHING about MR” and it was a video of this magnetic rock tweaking out with creepy music in the background while this evil text to speech voice repeated EVIL ROCK. other then that this made me worry people would think I’m awful, and then they would hurt me for it. I started getting terrified if I ever heard a song that reminded me of MR or if I felt pressure inbetween my eyebrows.
I also share a lot of symptoms with what other schizophrenic people experience: hard-to-comprehend speech and random jumps for the topic, erratic movement, delusions, lack of determination, blank facial expressions most of the time. its been going on for such a long time, when I first heard about the backrooms in ~2021 I genuinely believed it was real and I would be really careful with my steps to not no-clip out of reality.
also I’m losing all the connections I had with my kins, they feel less like “oh my god thats me!!!” and more like “oh hey that characters pretty cool” . a bit less worrying for creative projects since whenever I make something character-related I feel like I have to make something that 100% represents me if I were fictional and if I don’t it’s not worth it and I just give up. currently I’m working on a nepeta cosplay since A. I like homestuck especially the trolls since I love sci-fi and aliens and robots and time travel, B. I find hunter characters and comic makers cool, C. I have the right fabric to make all the pieces and not drain my wallet, and D. I share a zodiac sign with her (leo)
anyways this is all I feel like typing, I’ll probably still use this subreddit but with some sort of ex-fictionkin flair, you’re all cool and I like spending time here so. hopefully you’ll understand
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first picture is the averaged image, second picture is the averaged image but I put a filter on it so it was easier to see, and the third picture is my drawing of what I saw in-between both of them
I would’ve made her a troll but I couldn’t really see any common horn shapes so I just made her a human. kind of looks like jade as a depressed derse dreamer (DDD!!!)
I really hope no one has posted this yet