u/Odd-Attempt-9450

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Sınava evden girerken kimlikle girmiştim (NFC) yetmişti sonra progamın kalitesizliginden sınavda sıkıntı çıktı telafiye talep ettim ücretsiz verdiler sagolsunlar fakat yüzyüze sınava giriste imzamın bulunduğu ve yürürlükte olan resmi bir belge istedikleri yazıyor benim ne ehliyetim ne pasaportum var

Bu gün gidip okulda imzamın bulundugu bir belge cikarttirdim supplemental id yerine geçirmeye calisacam

Herhangi bir bilgisi olan varsa yazabilir mi?

I know it starts and ends in my head and I know life isnt about companionship/intimacy from the opposite gender but I cant still get this shitty miserable feeling out of my system could be because of social Media but I cut that kind off content from my life but it is still there standing in the corner of my head eating me up

I didnt really had any real relationships but I have great friends (both women and men) I am happy with that outcome since I still have friends to talk to and do activities I do love making romantic gifts I got bunch of origami flowers lying around and some plushies I made up (I gifted one of them to the girl I liked, she ghosted me right after like atleast dont take the fucking plushie dude)

Currently I am not really looking for a relationship because I really need to fix somethings in my life so I got a bigger fish to fry

(To any advices about therapy I cant really have access to it for now)

I got stopped after the resume check in because TOEFL test app failed to connect for some reason (even tho it said it connected to my webcam and microphone) I need to wait 24 hours before sending a refund/reschedule demand I talked with the protoctor and DID everything he asked me for and than he just said "use another computer if possible" and I dont have another computer so I couldnt literally get in

Is it possible to get a refund in situvations like these or my money is just gone (It roughly costs one third of average minimum wage in turkey and I am broke)

I texted up a friend from elementry to clarify that she was actually the person I assumed she was, she clarified that and we started talking the first convo was a little chat that lasted like 20 mins about our elemntary and overall academic life

Than I texted again after 3 days than like we texted for hours it was mostly about music we had some shared bands (Linkin Park, Queen) than talked a bit about hobbies but I had to cut short because I was in my summer job

I texted her at the start of the week about the chainsawman plushie I am sewing (few messages about how I was planning to make it) and after days there is still no answer I am starting to think I got ghosted

Tbf it wasnt a big deal since we werent that close anyways but I am kind of numb about it, prob wouldnt judge if she gives out a reason it anything like that

I just really like venting to people about my hobbies especially hand sewing

Denying the existance of ugly people is just outright cruelty dude I hate it so much I want to rip out their skin and wear it just to feel how much they have it good because it seems to be enough to deny the existance of ugly people

Hi I am thinking of applying to BME with stipendium hungaricum as a turkish student I was also thinking of applying to debrecen but my government didnt join the civil engineerings bachelors degree there so I switched plans also if you have any other tips on studying and choosing universities it would also help a lot

She also said I was a little fat like her in a jokey way a while ago but I didnt really care at that time but this hit me diffrent

I grew up ugly as shit and got isolated, bullied by the others so I had noone to talk to than I found internet where I can entertain myself with knowledge about things I was curious about, as a kid I was always curious about everything (especially the way people great one another but deep diving into that only made me bored as a kid, than made me overthink as a teen) that resulted in me being a bit nerdy guy

Most girls in my school doesnt care about me, and the girls that care about me dont consider me the best but they are my good friends I dont have alot friends from the opposite either, I mostly got bullied until highschool

People that liked me say that they liked me for my weird "nerdy but not" vibes which was good for me but I never had someone that say they really find me handsome even the girl that said she had a "crush" on me, she always said "well you got this trait that trait..." I was very insecure about that in that time and she didnt really help either, I still carry those insecureties even after 2 years I just cant fully cope it out

So this sentence really just broke me down even more I shouldnt care about it but I just want to look handsome even for a day or a minute even when I have courage to make friends they are often too cold to me and just cut contact after 1 month maybe if I was handsome enough they would have stayed anyways this is too offtopic

That piece of shit doesnt deserve my care but I cant help myself