u/OpenTheory7513

hello :) i’m currently in undergrad for forensic psych and am applying to the clinical psych phd!!
i’m a little bit nervous because i don’t know if laramie is the right fit for me. i am bisexual and nonbinary, but im very femme as well. i grew up in a conservative town and didnt have any problems, so maybe laramie wont be too bad.
let me know if you have any thoughts !!

I was diagnosed with PNES after almost a year of testing for POTS and epilepsy, as I have family history for those two conditions along with showing nearly all of the symptoms for them. Generally, there’s a high chance I’ll have an episode when my heart rate elevates and my blood pressure drops. But of course the sympathetic system being triggered and then dorsal vagal following leads to an episode as well.

I went to the gym today, had a protein rich breakfast and an electrolyte drink that usually helps me feel less light headed and raises my blood pressure. When I was at the gym, I started feeling like I was going to have an episode. I was with a friend so I told her what might happen and how to handle it. I didn’t end up having one while at the gym but I was in a dissociative state for the rest of the day.

I started feeling much worse as evening was coming near and my emotions started to drop. I got home and I don’t remember anything after walking in the door. Apparently, I went to my bedroom and my partner found me but he thought I was sleeping. Sometimes my episodes present as sleeping but initially like syncope. I suppose that happened and then I vaguely remember walking out of my bedroom and seeing my brother in the hallway. Then, I woke up on the couch to my partner shaking me really hard. I had walked to the living room and my brother told me I was hanging onto the walls to walk. I collapsed on the couch so my partner came in and tried to wake me up.

Once I had come back, I kept floating back into episode land. My eyes were rolling, body falling limp, not breathing for extended periods of time, and waking up confused. This is how all of my episodes are, crazy high heartbeat and very shallow breathing. Apparently, I had been out just short of an hour.

I haven’t had an episode that long, at least that I can remember, I’ve woken up on the floor and have had no clue how long I had been there. I’m concerned that I was gone for an hour and not even shaking me consistently could wake me up.

I’m getting my girls pierced next week and I’m wondering if anyone who has no feeling in their nipples can attest to the pain rating? If someone is touching my nipple, I can’t feel it at all, so I’m hoping it makes the process less painful.

i’m trying to find silver or white human hair extensions. i have black and silver color blocking so i only need one row of the silver, but i can’t find any for the life of me!!!

i am flying to portland tomorrow via american airlines and i’m a little bit nervous. i usually fly delta but it was so much more expensive. i’ve heard that american airlines has had some safety problems and im already so scared of flying. i have stress induced seizures sometimes but flying is more efficient than driving.

(i hope this follows community guidelines, im not posting a personal ad)

i bought human hair extensions, clip ins specifically, and i found out i don’t have enough hair to blend it all properly. if anyone is interested in buying them off of me, that would be great. it’s 22in 120g with 7 pieces in jet black. they’re beautiful and haven’t shed at all, they’re brand new and i’ve only worn them once.

my boyfriend was very addicted to porn before we started dating, it was debilitating for him and still has lasting effects. when we first started dating, i found all of his old only fans subscriptions among other things and he explained that he doesn’t watch porn anymore. we agreed that neither of us would watch porn and we’d check in about it off and on. i’m very against porn in general, mostly for the negative effects it has on healthy intimacy.

last september i asked him if he had watched porn and he said yes, which came as a huge shock because we had promised not to. i had asked often enough that he had lied to me at least a couple of times. this was so hard on me and our relationship. i felt so betrayed and scared that i would need to break up with him because of this severe loss of trust. genuinely, i was sobbing until i’d throw up or scream involuntarily because of how heartbroken i was. how could someone i love so much and trust do this? side note, i am diagnosed with BPD so my emotions are way more volatile. we ended up recovering from it and agreed that porn usage would never happen again.

that is, until i looked at his phone today. i looked through his reddit history and found a lot of porn and i feel so betrayed. i was shaking really hard when i found it and i knew if i brought it up then, i would not have a healthy conversation. our third anniversary is in two weeks and we’re going on a trip together to celebrate, so it really hurts that he would do this behind my back. i haven’t asked him about it yet, i don’t really know how to.

my boyfriend was very addicted to porn before we started dating, it was debilitating for him and still has lasting effects. when we first started dating, i found all of his old only fans subscriptions among other things and he explained that he doesn’t watch porn anymore. we agreed that neither of us would watch porn and we’d check in about it off and on. i’m very against porn in general, mostly for the negative effects it has on healthy intimacy.

last september i asked him if he had watched porn and he said yes, which came as a huge shock because we had promised not to. i had asked often enough that he had lied to me at least a couple of times. this was so hard on me and our relationship. i felt so betrayed and scared that i would need to break up with him because of this severe loss of trust. genuinely, i was sobbing until i’d throw up or scream involuntarily because of how heartbroken i was. how could someone i love so much and trust do this? side note, i am diagnosed with BPD so my emotions are way more volatile. we ended up recovering from it and agreed that porn usage would never happen again.

that is, until i looked at his phone today. i looked through his reddit history and found a lot of porn and i feel so betrayed. i was shaking really hard when i found it and i knew if i brought it up then, i would not have a healthy conversation. our third anniversary is in two weeks and we’re going on a trip together to celebrate, so it really hurts that he would do this behind my back. i haven’t asked him about it yet, i don’t really know how to.

I looked at my boyfriend’s reddit account on his phone and in the active community section, a porn subreddit was there. does this mean he’s actively viewing it or that he just did in the past?

My genny has been freaking me out a little bit and i need some advice. i’m up to date on all of my maintenance, new tires, new engine and transmission mounts, and routine oil changes.

- the tpms light will randomly turn on and off and the tire pressure light does the same thing but the psi is fine
- a couple weeks ago my car stalled at a red light but hasn’t done it since
- today my cruise control turned off several times and i couldn’t tell why

i broke up with my ex in october of 2022 and we’ve had on and off contact. we spoke to each other last summer to get some closure and to apologize to each other. i didn’t talk to him after that because i am in a committed relationship but i think he tried contacting me through email, like a hide my email icloud account. it’s really hard to not feed into it, i think it would make me spiral. he has a girlfriend and still has playlists about me, so that makes me feel bad. he sent me an email with the song “fourth of july” by sufjan steven’s and that was our song, we listened to it all the time. there’s no one else that would send me that, i found the song when we were together and have avoided listening to it since we broke up.

i am wondering if anyone knows some good places in town to hunt for animal bones. i have heard vague things about a place in palisade, but no details. preferably not too far away.