
u/OpportunityAshamed74

LGBT friendly Eyebrow places in St Louis/St Charles area?
Trans woman here, wanting to get these man eyebrows glammed up into beautiful female eyebrows, but I don't want to get dirty looks or kicked out or worse for asking for a fem style as someone who doesn't quite look female enough to them yet.
Any good places in the St Charles or St Louis area that will style my eyebrows into a cute fem style without worry?
Completely kills my motivation
I talk out loud to myself sometimes and I noticed that I have a deep voice and I get dysphoric. I then think "i need to voice train." I then think "I'll voice train right now." It takes effort. I think "I need to do something like streaming or voice acting so that I can practice voice training while also doing something I love". I then think "I could easily make comic dubs of fun Deltarune comics right now." But then the moment I think myself into an actionable step, I always always think "but I don't want to do that. I want to do nothing ever again." I then think "I should just kill myself"
I've decided to do the world a favor and completely isolate myself
It's already chapter 5 and we still don't know the identity of the caller? I'm starting to lose faith in Maddy's storytelling ability
I want to stop
I also have to apply for a private college loan. And go to work tomorrow. And eat something. I want to die I want to die I want to die I want to die God please please I'VE been begging for years
It's every day with this shit
I said "are you fucking shitting on both of my nuts" in response to something crazy on discord, and I thought it was funny haha whatever normal funny haha but someone I look up to emoji reacted with a Stop emoji we have and it like basically sent me over the deep end all on its own. I apologized to them and they were like "yeah it's whatever it was just an odd thing to say" they hate me they hate me they hate me they hate me they hate me they see me as a disgusting male. No woman would ever say something like that it's not even clever or interesting it's just crass. Everyone sees right through me they can see how fucked up in the head I am. I talk about depression and suicide all the time everyone sees me for the freak I am and no one actually wants to be around me but for the love of God I can't leave I can't just run away and stop trying because every single time I do that I end up crawling back like a pathetic dog because it's the closest thing I have to a real connection with anyone. I want to die I want to die so bad I want to die then I won't have to worry about what others think of me. I don't care. It's the final solution. I'll always be like this I'll always be a creepy loser who is obsessed with others and how others view me I'll never be my own person ESPECIALLY not my own *woman*. I don't want to do it while I'm what some people would call a girl. I need to do it while I'm still a boy. I need to have failed transitioning. I need to have been lost. I need to die a disgusting male because that's what I'll ever be. Everyone hates me everyone hates me my friends hate how much I talk about how depressed I am and how little I'm able to actually talk with them deeply I literally only have 2 friends and they are separate people from each other and I have a server of people who either despise me or don't know me. Some freaks tell me they are my friend but I know they aren't. They are just too dumb to see what everyone else sees.
I am not excited for being disowned
My brother already doesn't let me be around my nephew without their supervision, and that's just because I am an atheist, leftist, and support LGBT. Once I'm far enough in my transition that it'll be impossible to hide the fact that I'm trans, they likely will completely disown me and never allow me to see their kids.
My nephew is the sweetest, smartest little kid I've ever seen. He is barely 2 and he can count to 100 and memorize song lyrics his grandma, my mom, writes for him. He's so active and he loves communicating and he's loved by every member of our family, including me. I'm also pretty sure he thinks I'm the coolest uncle ever, he's always so excited to see me, he always yells out his special baby speech nickname for me, despite now being old enough to properly pronounce my name. He loves to jump on my bed and show me his coloring and shoot my little inflatable basketballs through the door hanging hoop I have. I love seeing him, I love playing with him.
But I'm not trusted enough to be close to him, because I reject bigotry and fight for human rights. They just had a daughter and I didn't even get to hold her when we visited them in the hospital. And it's just going to get a hundred times worse when I become fully trans.
My mom and sisters are currently the only ones who know. I don't trust my oldest sister that she'll be respectful about it when it comes to the rest of my family, she doesn't really like me and parrots a lot anti queer talking points. My younger sister is very supportive, I'm so glad that I could help her grow into an innate respect and love for those who are different. My mom understands but also often doesn't. She blames my hrt for why my depression is getting worse. I don't feel very secure in my relationship with her since I came out. I really don't know what my dad is going to say.
I miss my nephew
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My brother already doesn't let me be around my nephew without their supervision, and that's just because I am an atheist, leftist, and support LGBT. Once I'm far enough in my transition that it'll be impossible to hide the fact that I'm trans, they likely will completely disown me and never allow me to see their kids.
My nephew is the sweetest, smartest little kid I've ever seen. He is barely 2 and he can count to 100 and memorize song lyrics his grandma, my mom, writes for him. He's so active and he loves communicating and he's loved by every member of our family, including me. I'm also pretty sure he thinks I'm the coolest uncle ever, he's always so excited to see me, he always yells out his special baby speech nickname for me, despite now being old enough to properly pronounce my name. He loves to jump on my bed and show me his coloring and shoot my little inflatable basketballs through the door hanging hoop I have. I love seeing him, I love playing with him.
But I'm not trusted enough to be close to him, because I reject bigotry and fight for human rights. They just had a daughter and I didn't even get to hold her when we visited them in the hospital. And it's just going to get a hundred times worse when I become fully trans.
My mom and sisters are currently the only ones who know. I don't trust my oldest sister that she'll be respectful about it when it comes to the rest of my family, she doesn't really like me and parrots a lot anti queer talking points. My younger sister is very supportive, I'm so glad that I could help her grow into an innate respect and love for those who are different. My mom understands but also often doesn't. She blames my hrt for why my depression is getting worse. I don't feel very secure in my relationship with her since I came out. I really don't know what my dad is going to say.
I miss my nephew
My Christian brother already doesn't let me be around my nephew without their supervision, and that's just because I am an atheist, leftist, and support LGBT. He says he "doesn't agree with my lifestyle" and that my beliefs are "abhorrent". Once I'm far enough in my transition that it'll be impossible to hide the fact that I'm trans, they likely will completely disown me and never allow me to see their kids.
My nephew is the sweetest, smartest little kid I've ever seen. He is barely 2 and he can count to 100 and memorize song lyrics his grandma, my mom, writes for him. He's so active and he loves communicating and he's loved by every member of our family, including me. I'm also pretty sure he thinks I'm the coolest uncle ever, he's always so excited to see me, he always yells out his special baby speech nickname for me, despite now being old enough to properly pronounce my name. He loves to jump on my bed and show me his coloring and shoot my little inflatable basketballs through the door hanging hoop I have. I love seeing him, I love playing with him.
But I'm not trusted enough to be close to him, because I reject bigotry and fight for human rights. They just had a daughter and I didn't even get to hold her when we visited them in the hospital. And it's just going to get a hundred times worse when I become fully trans.
My mom and sisters are currently the only ones who know. I don't trust my oldest sister that she'll be respectful about it when it comes to the rest of my family, she doesn't really like me and parrots a lot anti queer talking points. My younger sister is very supportive, I'm so glad that I could help her grow into an innate respect and love for those who are different. My mom understands but also often doesn't. She blames my hrt for why my depression is getting worse. I don't feel very secure in my relationship with her since I came out. I really don't know what my dad is going to say.
Rumbly tumbly
There's leftover pizza in the fridge
Every groove is smoothing out
My mom doesn't talk to me anymore. I try to keep my eating down as much as I can. I haven't bathed in months. I have a job that allows me to come in whenever and I've not gone in in 2 weeks. They even called me about it. I feel horrible. I'm a horrible person. I like to give myself negative reinforcement because I want to hurt myself as much as I can. I'll never be an artist. I'll never be a girl. I'll never make friends. No one will ever love me. I want to kill myself so badly. Please let me die mom just let me die.
I have seen far more hatred for Trans Ralsei than I have seen support.
God, people HATE trans ralsei Theory online, especially on reddit. Everywhere I go I see people making strawman after strawman about people "forcing others to misgender ralsei" or saying they are tired of seeing discourse about it and downvoting everything that talks about it in a neutral to positive light. I haven't seen a single example of anyone forcing someone else to use she/her pronouns, or even anyone being toxic about it to others who disagree with the theory. I'm in a server with the wokest most transgender loving Deltarune lore heads out there and even they don't act like how r\whenthe says Tralsei lovers do. What's worse is that people who hate Tralsei will even start to overcorrect and deny objective information in game, like the menu they/theming Ralsei. I bring that up in response to someone saying "Ralsei has only ever been referred to as male" just as a quick objective correction, speaking completely neutrally about the theory, and people flip out and start throwing everything they can to say why it's not valid or true, all while downvoting to push it down.
I'm starting to think people just don't like the idea of a character becoming trans.