everything feels so much less worthy now
I miss the teen years. They weren't the best, and I was depressed and severely neglected by my mom. Yet, I was surrounded by my peers who happened to be curious, open-minded and friendly. We had a lot of shared interests. We were revolving around some unimportant shit, having dramas, we lived in our small pre-adult world. Most of all, we were important to each other. People were reaching to you even if you had some problems.
Now I can't even check on most my friends because of the political climate, and I can't meet new people irl because my country is basically devastated.
All my new friends aren't as invested in being friends as I am, most of them have forgotten about my damn birthday despite actively chatting with me. Only people who knew me since ~2020 congratulated me. Well, and coworkers. They keep forgetting basic stuff about me while I'm trying to be a quality friend for them and keep myself reminded about who they are.
It truly feels like the best years are behind.
Kind of sad.