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she’s the woman of my dreams oh man truth be told I’m being a good boy for her. I’m Letting go of alcohol I have been 18 days sober now which I’m immensely proud of. We haven’t seen each other in a few weeks now because of my drinking habits which upset her rightfully So. It was best to give her space because of that. She is a beautiful woman both inside and out but it’s her heart that I’m most attracted too. She’s a good woman a damn good woman. I also have been Working out too 5 days a week ton improve myself. I stopped going out, stopped spending money on stupid shit started saving money.Started behaving and acting like a grown man. I’m trying to be the best version I can possibly be of myself for her. Shit if I could do even more I would. Everyone says it’s not possible between me and her but god damn it the Knicks won the championship so anything is possible. I have been so enamored with her for months oh god if you met her you would too. However I have to focus on myself right now, keep grinding. Keep being sober. Do more. One can dream though and maybe just maybe it’ll work out and I will never look back and if it does then all of this nonsense in my life would have made sense.

she’s the woman of my dreams oh man truth be told I’m being a good boy for her. I’m Letting go of alcohol I have been 18 days sober now. She’s a beautiful woman both inside and out but it’s her heart that I’m most attracted too. She’s a good woman a very good woman. I also have Working out too 5 days a week for her maybe she’ll notice maybe not idk. Saving money I stopped going out, stopped spending money on stupid shit. I’m trying to be the best version I can possibly be of myself for her. Shit if I could do even more I would. Everyone says it’s not possible between me and her but god damn it the Knicks won the championship so anything is possible. I have been so enamored with her for months oh god if you met her you would too. However I have to focus on myself right now, keep grinding. Keep being sober. One can dream though and maybe just maybe it’ll work out and I will never look back and if it does then all of this nonsense in my life would have made sense.

How would he even have done it? What happens to him? Does he get praised for stopping such a big tragedy and is protected by the cia and goes on to live a peaceful life? So many possibilities. He always fascinated me in the case that he was so different than the rest of them. He was popular, easily made friends. He was a Very outgoing individual he was a Good looking guy. Hell he had a girlfriend who he was in love with. A German woman named Aysel who they had plans of marrying each other one day. Yet he blew it all away literally for some leader that couldn’t care less about him such a shame.

Please share away I’m willing to try them all! Im thinking of of skipping showers from now on and just staying exclusively to baths. However I’m looking for the right shampoos to make sure I stay clean and smelling good after one.

I know I fucked up. I’m smart enough to know I can’t change the past only look forward. I told her I’m seeking therapy and going to AA meetings so a repeat of that day will never happen again. It’s been about 2 weeks and she’s still upset I get it. I don’t want her to see me again like that and most importantly I don’t want to see myself that way again. Are there any other things I can do to make amends?

I want to show him the new life I built. The new friends i have made over the years. The last time we talked was in 2020. He was a great friend. The last time we talked we were both 22 and now we’re 29 and 30. We’re completely different people now. I never forgot about him but I’ve been missing him so much lately my mother I’m sure would love to see him again. She’s remembers our friendship dating back to when we were kids. I’ve been struggling with alcoholism and other mental health issues and I feel like reaching out to an old friend could help. How can I reach out ?

She made me think I could pull this off. She was so nice to me. She made me feel wanted, liked really when no woman has ever. I took it to personal. She’s like that with everyone not just me she’s a bartender it’s her job to do so. I crushed hard so fucking hard. Well now Lately her vibes with me have been off. I can tell now she doesn’t like me. She doesn’t even talk to me, only when absolutely needed. I don’t know what l did. Maybe she figured I was crushing and decided it would be best to stop being so nice and give me the cold shoulder. Maybe in another life she picked me.

Heed my advice the lower part of my body is killing me.

Maybe I’m to vulnerable and to delusional but it’s nice to dream. She talks to me like a patron like a good friend and i can see that, I ask her to hang out sometimes and she politely changes the subject. How do I move on?

I have such a giant crush on here and I’m thinking about her almost every day now for the past few weeks. We’re great friends and I can’t ruin that but the delusion is eating me up.

I don’t know where else to-write this so I figured I would write this here. Maybe she’ll see this one day maybe she won’t I don’t know. I’m crushing so hard hell maybe I think I’m falling in love with my bartender. We’re great friends, she looks out for me all the time when I’m there with food water & what not . She’s so god damn amazing everything about her is so beautiful both inside and out. Her ability to make you feel so welcoming is so out of this world we deserve more people like her in this world. Oh dear god I almost confessed last night When I was drinking. However I knew better it was probably for the best I didn’t. She makes me want to be a better person, to actually show compassion towards everyone even if they don’t deserve it. Im thinking of taking dancing lessons just to dance with her one time. I would climb mountains cross rivers do the impossible if it meant I could marry this woman, god what a happy ending that would be for me, then all the ups and downs of my life would have payed off. I would do it all over again if it meant that was the outcome. I don’t want anyone else no one else can ever compete with her. I try to get her out of mind but I just can’t. Everyone at the bar knows how I feel because my drunk loose lips can’t shut up about her when I’m there, I think she knows too but is being nice about it. She doesn’t really show interest in me and I get it I don’t meet her standards however it’s nice to dream. it’s nice to hope that’s what life is about to never give up hope, hope for a better tomorrow. The Knicks winning the championship made me realize anything is possible that’s why I keep trying, that’s why I can’t give up the delusion. So In conclusion to anyone reading this shoot your shot life is to short not to, anything is possible.

I don’t know where else to-write this so I figured I would write this here. Maybe she’ll see this one day maybe she won’t I don’t know. I’m crushing so hard hell maybe I think I’m falling in love with my bartender. We’re great friends, she looks out for me all the time when I’m there with food water & what not . She’s so god damn amazing everything about her is so beautiful both inside and out. Her ability to make you feel so welcoming is so out of this world we deserve more people like her in this world. Oh dear god I almost confessed last night When I was drinking. However I knew better it was probably for the best I didn’t. She makes me want to be a better person, to actually show compassion towards everyone even if they don’t deserve it. Im thinking of taking dancing lessons just to dance with her one time. I would climb mountains cross rivers do the impossible if it meant I could marry this woman, god what a happy ending that would be for me, then all the ups and downs of my life would have payed off. I would do it all over again if it meant that was the outcome. I don’t want anyone else no one else can ever compete with her. I try to get her out of mind but I just can’t. Everyone at the bar knows how I feel because my drunk loose lips can’t shut up about her when I’m there, I think she knows too but is being nice about it. She doesn’t really show interest in me and I get it I don’t meet her standards however it’s nice to dream. it’s nice to hope that’s what life is about to never give up hope, hope for a better tomorrow. The Knicks winning the championship made me realize anything is possible that’s why I keep trying, that’s why I can’t give up the delusion. So In conclusion to anyone reading this shoot your shot life is to short not to, anything is possible.