I made a miSTAKE....

I made a miSTAKE....

So I finally got a CPAP machine and had a couple mask choices. A) under the nose only or B) nose and mouth. Now I do tend to be a mouth breather and something I do like is putting pressure on/around my mouth. So of course I thought it was the smart choice to do nose and mouth. Well now I can't sleep this is sensory hell I am in hell I am clawing at the walls. Luckily I do get the chance to call in tomorrow and say nope gimmie nose only but I'll still have to suffer until I can get out there and switch it.

Also what in the actual hell that is my most cursed selfie to date. Edit: I'll keep practicing and trying my best to get used to it. Thank y'all for the advice (/genuine). I think it mostly is just a panic response.

u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 23 hours ago

I can never seem to find the right name, but maybe y'all can help me

I do currently have a name, Max. I picked it recently-ish because I was missing my childhood cat who I was very close to, but I just feel wrong taking her name. It doesn't belong to me, it was her name. So now I'm looking for something new. I've changed my name so many times and I know everyone around me is tired of it but as I said in the title, I can never seem to find the perfect name. I can't even remember every name I've gone by. I do have some names I'm looking at but at the same time idk. Please if anyone can think of anything better I'd be more than happy to hear it. Right now I am thinking about Torren or Finn. Again I am open to suggestions, just not anything close to Max because I don't feel it's right for me to take her name. Also I know a Jax so that's out of the question as well as anything close to Jax/Jackson.

u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 6 days ago

Would this be a good scent for Dionysus?

I'm living with people who aren't very accepting of my practicing other religions so I like to use perfumes and lotions and all of that. Anything that emits a scent since I'm the household candle collector and body wash/perfume/lotion collector I can use since it won't give me away. I've heard people say vanilla is good which I have plenty of but also patchouli and I LOVE patchouli and got this a while ago at a local fair. I already know pine, wine, grapes, and cinnamon are good but I have mostly vanilla and then this one patchouli sandalwood lotion (admittedly I would like to get more patchouli scented things as well). Would he accept this?

u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 7 days ago

First swim post op

I've been cleared on the 4th to be able to swim again, so how long did some of y'all wait till you actually went in the water? Cause I'm going in today but I brought OR soap (thanks to my other obgyn she gave it to me pre-op to wash with) to wash up a little after the pool to stay safe.

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u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 13 days ago

Idk what to think.

I had to have a d&c done because I wasn't having a period, then pathology found PREcancerous cells and best treatment option was a hysterectomy, I didn't hesitate (I've wanted a hysto since I was like 18 anyways). I was ordered to have a CT scan prior to surgery to check on an ovarian cyst and check the status of my left ovary. No cancer was seen, at least I don't think they saw it. I had the hysterectomy and was recovering well until I got a call from my doctor telling me pathology found 1cm of grade 1A1 type cancer. Cue my mental health hitting a wall at high speed. He says everything else removed was clean, my cervix was good, my tube was good (surprise I only had one ovary and tube) but it did also have a cyst, and most importantly the 4 lymph nodes they removed were clean. I'm already worried about it possibly coming back in the future but even more so, I'm having a hard time accepting the fact that I had cancer. It just feels wrong for me to call myself a cancer survivor when I didn't even know it was there and it was so small. I feel wrong saying I had cancer.

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u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 16 days ago

Dionysian keychain I made

This used to be a kandi necklace that even had grape beads but I wanted to do something I felt was better and after some failed trials (the grape beads were to awkward to string back on) I made this keychain with 2 amethyst crystals. Almost as long as the kuromi pillow I laid it on for this pic lol. I put the grape beads and ivy leaf beads I had into this little wine glass I got and gave to Dionysus (I need to clean it out rn ik please ignore how dusty it looks).

u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 18 days ago

Scents of Dionysus?

One of my favorite ways to give offering, aside from sharing my drink with Dionysus, is to light scented candles to honor Dionysus as I live with people who do not accept other religions. What scented candles can I light in honor of Dionysus?

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u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 19 days ago

Is Grape flavored drink mix allowed?

I'm not really allowed to drink alcohol due to my medications and living with someone who is vehemently against me drinking despite being 26. I want to share a drink with Dionysus but all I have is flavored drink mix, so is that acceptable to share with him? And if so how can I share with him?

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u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 24 days ago

I feel pulled to come back

For context, I used to worship Dionysus but about 3 years ago, my mental health was in a horrible spot, I had a breakdown and had to put religion as a whole on the back burner. I left my path to focus on not exiting this mortal realm and to get better. Well a few days ago I felt the urge to get back into what I used to do but at first it was just going to be green witchcraft with no deities, but today I just felt called back to Dionysus. I thought about him and then as I was scrolling Instagram I came across a video of a guy who has made flower crowns and he described one of the ones he made as Dionysian, that's when I really began to wonder if I should come back. But at the same time, I'm worried. I fear I may not be wanted back after turning away because of my mental health. I guess I'm looking for a sign that I'd be welcome to come back, but I'm not great at noticing signs. I either miss them entirely, or overthink little things to a terrifying degree (thanks to the religious trauma from what I was forced to grow up in). I don't know what I should do.

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u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 26 days ago

Omg I just got my pathology report back

I had my hysterectomy 9 days ago because a d&c showed precancerous cells in the endometrial lining. Well pathology found 1cm of grade 1A1 cancer on the surface of my uterus. They also took my only fallopian tube, cervix, and 4 lymph nodes which were all clean and had no abnormalities. I'm glad it's out and he reassured me that for the most part I should be fine, I'll just need to see him for the next 5 years to make sure it doesn't somehow come back. I am honestly in a whirlwind of feelings. I'm glad it's gone, but at the same time OH MY GOD WTF DO YOU MEAN I DID HAVE CANCER!?!?!?!

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u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 1 month ago

Battery dead 24hrs after unplugged but not used

So yesterday I undocked my switch after about a week of being docked, I intended to play but ended up going out and when I came back I forgot it was undocked and I was to tired to get it. Well I picked it up today to play and it was completely dead. Like I expected some battery drain but not that. Is my switch cooked?

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u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 1 month ago

Waking up to find out I wet myself in bed

I'm embarrassed to say this but twice now after surgery when I wake up in the morning to go to the bathroom I've noticed my underwear was wet. The bed is dry but my underwear is ruined and I need to change, is this normal? If it matters I'm 6 days post-op.

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u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 1 month ago

Post op gas pain

I knew to expect it but I'm having problems releasing the gas just yet. It hurts in my lower back and wraps around to the front a little. I've been drinking Gatorade to try and help and at this point have had a heating pad on me 24/7 since surgery. I was given meds to help but it hasn't really done much of anything. I'm 2 days post op so idk if I'm just impatient or should just go ahead and get laxatives. I'm very sensitive to pain and have a lower pain tolerance threshold so I could be just wimping out too. Idk I'd just like some advice on what else to do.

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u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 1 month ago
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Got my hysterectomy today!!

I feel like I got hit by a train, but I'm glad I had it done. Also turns out I was quite the anomaly. Despite having never had a uterine surgery before this, I had scar tissue that looked like "I have had 4 c sections". I also only had only one ovary and tube. So that was interesting to learn. Well it's all gone now so time to focus on recovery. 🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️

(This pic was a couple days prior to my surgery)

u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 1 month ago

My favorite ring is ruined

This was my nonbinary pride ring. I'm stuck at a small gathering and left to go to the bathroom, washed my hands (with ring on) and when I rejoined the people I noticed the purple on my ring was falling off. Now its ruined... 😭😭😭😭 I was stimming with it to.

u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 2 months ago
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Made some pants to go with the shirt I ordered

I ordered my tortured souls T-shirt a while back and while I'm waiting for it I thought about the last tree pendant and sadly I can't make jewelry, but I have a plethora of black leggings and white paint. So this is the final results. Kind of.... Needs to sit a few days then I need to iron it and then it'll be done. I like how it looks like an X-ray (I so screwed up and that's why the inside is not "transparent"). I'm no artist by any stretch but I'd like to think I did a good job.

u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 2 months ago

Which is more worth it?

I have been in love with the franchise for a long time, I already have both Mk11 and Mk1 for the Nintendo switch, but I want to play some of the other games. I could buy Legacy collection: that has multiple arcade titles and is already on a console I own.... Or I could buy MkXl: the very first game that introduced me to the franchise and my all time favorite game. Only downside is I don't have any other console aside from my Nintendo switch, so to get this game I would have to go out of my way and buy a ps4, ps4 controller, and a controller charger alongside the game itself.

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So which is more worth it? The Legacy Collection that has multiple arcade titles and is on a console I already own or Xl which I would have to go way out of my way to get but would probably enjoy the most.

Either way the plan is for whichever I choose to be a treat for my birthday which isn't until October which is why I'm asking now so I can figure out how much I might need to save up.

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u/Shadow-Kombatant13 — 2 months ago