I'm 10 weeks on T (.3 weekly test. cypionate injection, 200mg/mL concentration) and have gotten very little results. Some (mild bottom growth, some body hair) but not much. Blood tested 4 days after injection. 1125, is it too much and aromatizing or is there another reason I'm not getting results?
getting so tired of people that call anything that sounds vaguely ai a black box as an argument
"Erm it's actually bad because it's a black box and we don't know what's going on" ITS K NEAREST NEIGHBORS THEY JUST SAID AI TO SOUND TRENDY
like sure you could use that argument for chatgpt, i guess, or proprietary social media algorithms but are we fr
real reason i made this was because someone seriously told me microsoft excel is a black box because you can't physically see every bit of code. yeah bro i guess if that's how you define it
anyway this was rushed because i was ANGRY at EXCEL GUY so very willing to hear better ideas for what the boxes should've been
can't show a picture that actually looks like a man it's a humiliation ritual
can't show an obvious lesbian or they give me the girly pixie cut
my voice changed barely but enough i can no longer show pics of 10 year old boys without looking like a weirdo
any pictures with male haircuts that look like a completely androgynous person with no hints of male or female features? or pictures of haircuts on a faceless mall mannequin creature?
it's always rlly obvious
"i'm such a" (rolls dice) "ngmi... uh... twinkhon... AGP... uh... brickhon... john50?"
and everyone rushes to the comments
"oh nooooo 🥺 you pass girlie im so sorry the evil 4tran made you sad 🥺🥺🥺🥺"
fortunately my gender doesn't do this nearly as much ig women be attention seeking
not sure whether to flaid as blogpost or poon art
no i do not need 'man tips' from you aiden work on your prealgebra homework
it's either the most babytrans shit ever or (very rarely) an absolute passoid who thinks he passes from mannerisms (he just looks like that) and made it so hard he became a senile 'young men nowdays are SOFT and don't know FIRM HANDSHAKE and PUNCH BEAR' old man a bit too early
and if t doesn't make you do the actually important things/demeanor naturally you're kinda ngmi
also maybe cucked of me but i also don't like it because i'm too autistic for half of this, even if i was cis this stuff is gross stuff normal people do
I genuinely can't get into fantasies of dying anymore. I can't even think about doing it without feeling a bit confused and repulsed that I thought that. That should be better but it's not it's terrifying, because what am I even supposed to do?
I have no idea what I'm doing and I'm too dumb to exist, I genuinely can't even read 30 pages, without it taking the whole day, and I can't remember stuff in my head anymore, I have to write things down when I go to my classes so I can look at them later. And I also am trying to help people in various extracurriculars, but I have no idea what I'm doing, so I hold them back.
I think I come off as maliciously incompetent but I just really am that dumb and I don't think anyone would believe that even if I told them because how is anyone over 8 that dumb.
I know there is nothing in the future for an idiot like me but I have no escape. Before I could just fantasize about ending it but I can't anymore, my brain stops me and I want to live. I wish I didn't want to live. But now I do and I'm trapped. I want to be suicidal again so bad. It probably sounds insensitive but I want to go back to knowing if everyone realizes I'm stupid and turns against me I can just off myself and be happy with it. What do I even do if I have no urge to escape?