u/TheTrumpetEater

if not odd, then is it concerning ar all? or is it more tame than i seem to realize?

i had just watched the pilot earlier and it feels like i got love at first sight for kit [as painfully cringe as that may sound], not because she's conventionally attractive or anything like one might assume, i genuinely really really like her personality and lore [of course i do definitely like her appearance too don't get me wrong, she has a charming design, i honestly like every part of her so far]

i wouldn't consider it parasocial, i'm perfectly fine with the fact that she's not real at all and i don't intend to treat her like she is

not sure if i'm sharing or not, likely not, but i feel like that just makes it "worse" if that makes any sense

[making two vent-ish posts on this sub in one day may make it seem like i dwell on this issues but i promise i don't, we all have bad days sometimes]

it's not uncommon that i find sourcemates here, however something i fear is offending them since i also yumeship with some dandy's world characters [astro, sprout, squirm, cosmo, dandy even though i'm also dandy, yatta but in a familial way, and maybe more in the future]

i don't see fictionkins of my yumes anything like the versions of the characters i yumeship with, i still accept that they are the characters they identify as but you get what i mean, and i don't act romantically or sexually creepy towards fictionkins of my yumes at ALL [i try not to be creepy towards anyone in ANY way if i can help it]

i just worry that sometimes a fictionkin of a character i yumeship will be disgusted by me, and yeah it's fine to not want to interact with yumeshippers of your kins but i worry that they'll find out and feel like i'm a threat or out to get them in the chance where they've already had a friendly interaction or a few with me before [if that makes any sense]

once again, still not anything wrong with having boundaries, it's more a mix of worrying that they'll find me morally inferior to them and shame that i may cause harm seeking out doubles and/or sourcemates

when it comes to fictionkin stuff [and for the most part yumeship stuff too] i'm just of the mentality of "it you're cool with me i'm cool with you, welcome to the club" and not much else, i'll just leave it at that i suppose

decided to ramble since the topic has been on my mind today

i get super peeved about sexuality headcanons for dandy, pretty much anything that variates from how i was when i was dandy bothers me unless it's coming from another dandy kinnie

i was NOT bisexual, i was CERTAINLY NOT gay, and i was ABSOLUTELY NOT straight.

i was pansexual when i was dandy [still am now] and for some petty reason seeing him be headcanoned as anything else makes me either very annoyed, very uncomfortable, or just downright pissed off

i don't get mad at the actual people for having these headcanons, don't get me wrong, there isn't anything objectively wrong with them and it's not their fault it upsets me

like i briefly mentioned beforehand it's a lot different coming from another dandy since that's their own experience they're expressing and not mine, no two dandies are the exact same, and in that circumstance it doesn't make me uncomfortable at all, however if it's someone who isn't another dandy kin doing that then it always upsets me and i'm not entirely sure why

what makes this even more ironic is the fact that i was also intersex when i was dandy and it's a complete 50/50 whether or not seeing someone else headcanon him otherwise upsets me, there's no factors that could play into how i emotionally react to it, at least not to my knowledge, the chance of me caring is entirely equal to the chance of me not

not sure why they're surprised seeing suggestive stuff [if they even did see any, the stuff in their screenshot didn't really seem to be] since i think from what i've heard camp camp is an adult show

plus i feel like even if the show was family-friendly, suggestive things popping up first in a non-suggestive search is more of a google problem than a proship problem? google sorts search results pretty weirdly sometimes and safesearch is extremely prone to bugs and lag

yes yes i know more text than that will fit but it'll be hard to read if i don't shorten it, especially under comment threads

this definitely looks like gobbledegook from the perspective of someone who doesn't know all this yumeshipping lingo [i can imagine some people would get an aneurysm from trying to read this]

alas, i'm not sure how to make it less ehhhhhhhyyhhh... ugly

a brief yumeshipping-related debate i got in with a stranger

downvotes are on slide 2, just wanted to show the whole thing for context

going from "i don't understand" to "no i completely understand it" so fast feels kindaaaa... i dunno, performative?

plus some of the things i was saying there were parroting my own therapist's words 💔

these reaction images are funny if it isn't an anti using them

comment under a post a cosmo yume i'm subscribed to on youtube made, as i find encountering doubles for all my yumes to be very comforting [except astro for some reason]

i mean i get not liking a ship and it's okay to express that, but yumeshipping [especially self-insert x canon yumeshipping like the oop was doing] is a lot more personal than just some typical canon x canon ship, y'know?

it's fine to be nonsharing and still have unrelated interactions with doubles, hell i do that myself, but i feel like "i don't ship you and your f/o because it makes me personally uncomfy" isn't something you just say to someone's face unprompted, y'know? maybe i'm being weird about this but i feel like they could've just complimented the editing without the little jab[?] they threw in

for the sake of context the "serious thing being treated light-heartedly" bit in the antiship post i'm putting here is because the comments under the post they were parroting[?] were all silly and cringe reaction memes/images

that being said, why is so much happening in this image? what the hell?? where the fuck am i even supposed to start???

as of me making this post, she still stands by it

maybe im missing something and please correct me if i'm wrong because i very well could be but this feels almost like a microaggression towards autoromantic and autosexual people [autoromantic and autosexual mean genuine romantic and sexual attraction to oneself, for some people said attractions may override or replace the attractions they feel for others]

so as we all know there is SOME explicitly yumeship related merchandise, like for example i found pins that advertise you're a yumeshipper or prompt people to talk to you about it on etsy as you can see here

i was thinking... what about sharing status pins? and maybe double status pins for fictionkins? like "sharing, nonsharing, mirrorsharing" or "doubles int, doubles dni, doubles interact with care" all that jazz

maybe even a corny hypersharing pin that says "doubles = double the fun" or something 🥹🤞

i'm interested in seeing someone make this a reality, or at least something similar to that, especially if it's on etsy i LOVE etsy 🥹🤞

marked nsfw just incase because of the vulgar jokes

the upvote to comment ratio on the original post is healing my soul, i love the mlp fandom so much ❤️‍🩹

golly gee it's only dandy's world characters

anywho as a poly-yume every once in a blue moon [pun intended] i'll change my flair in this server [and discord bio for some reason] to favor a different f/o, depending on who i've been thinking about the most lately

as of me making this post i haven't cycled through all of em yet but i guarantee i will eventually

[doubles welcome for all, but uuh i am nonsharing with astro so while i don't mind interacting with other astro yumes i'd rather not discuss our respective relationships with him ykyk no hard feelings]

i knew for a long ass time, i just didn't actually fully process it until today for some reason!

my only worry really is that i had an [unfortunately SOMEWHAT recent] anti-fictionkin phase and i hope i'm considered redeemed by now given how much my views have changed 💔 [plus the fact that i regret it]

fun fact: i LOVE doubles, if any fellow dandies are seeing this and you're okay with it please come say hi i love meeting my brethren! :D

PLEASE THIS SUB WILL NOT STOP APPEARING ON MY FEED JUST PUT ME OUT OF MY FUCKING MISERY

see, my mom decided to buy me the twisted dandy plush as a gift, which i told her beforehand that i did not want, no big deal, no hard feelings, we all make mistakes, we could just cancel the order, right?

well, since there was no option to cancel the order in the website itself she tried emailing them to cancel the order, but they did not respond even after 2 months

she ended up reaching out to her bank after the first month, who tried to reach out as well, but got no response either

she was just completely ignored for over 2 months

honestly i was planning on buying a resell of the twisted dandy plush, both so i could get a first edition and so i could give my money to someone who might desperately need it

for the record i'm not mad at anyone in this situation, i'm just annoyed at the situation itself, i may just be acting dramatic complaining about it on reddit but so be it, if i'm being a brat let this be a learning experience

also, i don't blame qwelver for this and you shouldn't either, i highly doubt she has anything to do with this situation at all