18M Help needed I have written everything below from start to end . what am I doing wrong?
So this begins when I was in Allen kota class 12 (2025) batch , there I met a girl , she used to stay to ask doubts from our teacher and sometimes only she and I would remain. It began with small talks and study related conversations then we exchanged numbers and talked frequently Even after the classes she and I used to live close her hostel was in the same colony (Indra Vihar)
I got to know she is from my city it was not uncommon because many people from my state go to kota every year to study you know which state
With passage of time I realised I am falling for her , she talks like really sweet and looks adorable especially when she wear glasses and tie her hair in simple pony tail, but I couldn't muster up courage to ask thinking it would ruin our friendship so I found excuses to call her to doubt counter where you can ask your doubts to any teachers , she would come often and I thought this was my hint but still didn't ask her , on her birthday she treated me ice-cream from naturals it was really expensive I had never tried that( I come from a middle class family these things are expensive for me I tried to act nonchalant so as to not embarrass myself in front of her) , I gave her a diary to her as a gift , she thanked me and was happy with it and I saw her use it to write homework record in.
Fast forward to January our Jee Mains came my exam didn't go as I planned and neither did hers..we met and discussed about what we can do to improve in second attempt which was scheduled in April
One 8th Feb I called her , and asked "kaha par ho tum"
She : "Bas yahi room par"
I asked her to come luckily she agreed and I confessed to her, she said yes...I was this happy after several years of my life ...the same evening we went on a small date and promised each other we will get good colleges this year
Then result came on 16th Feb
I looked at my result expecting 96-97 percentile with the marks I got at response sheet but it was 99.6 percentile (Around 6k out of 1.6 million) , I immediately called her she was already busy I thought she might be talking at her parents...after some minutes I called again she said she got 94 percentile ( Around 90k rank)..when I told her mine she said it good and hung up I didn't push I knew she would be sad about her score she had worked hard...I tried to light her mood but she started to maintain distance...I thought maybe I am pushing so I sent chocolates to her through blinkit, she called crying saying she was sorry for the way she behaved I felt heavy In my chest for judging her
Then she left kota for 12th boards because her dummy school was in Patna , I said we will meet in Jee advanced she nodded
Then I focused on boards and Advanced she called very few times even when I did she said her parents will scold her I understood
My boards went well (my friend had a bike after exam we used to just wander kota for a few hours, ah good ol days)
After main 2, I returned to patna for advanced
Then came the Advanced day 17 may I called her a night before and asked her if I can come to meet at her centre she agreed
I gave exam and and went to her centre then called her but she didn't pick up , after two calls she picked up saying she went home because she waited and I didn't come
I said I came as fast as possible and her centre was not that far away too
She said a friend of her's was at the centre and she told her to go and she went after she was done waiting for me
I was really disappointed and even angry I said "yaar aisa thode hi hota mein aa hi Raha tha tha na agar tum chali gyi to call kar deti and a few more"...I returned home..by the night answer key from my coaching came I matched and I am scorin 140's/360 which will get me in old IIT core branch , I was happy I wanted to share with her but after what she did , I was hurt
Next She called again and asked me if I was free I said yes then I went on a date with her , everything was going good she apologized for the the centre thing I did too I shouldn't have crashed out..but then when I told her I am scoring given marks...she said good for you...and she was no longer invested in the talks...and asked if they could meet another day after half an hour of walking in the park
When I reached home , I asked her how was our date and she left me on seen
I am not sure what's happening..why is she behaving like this
Please tell me , am I wrong.....I didn't brag or anything
I really like her...it hurts to see she is treating me like this